Chapter Two ( Why)
If I was Your Woman
As soon as I left the arcade, I ran as fast as I could, to wherever my little dainty feet were taking me. In the process of bumping into many people --and to my utter surprise, without tripping.
I ended up in the park. It wasn't a shock. I always come here to clear my mind. I guess it's because of the many flowers, especially the red roses, or the way that the pond seems to glitter, regardless of the time of day.
I sat on the green coated bench that was to my right and as soon as I did, the tears that I was fighting back in the arcade came out without any warning.
I didn't make any sounds. I didn't even wipe the tears that were descending my cheek. I can't even say that I was thinking. If I was even able to think, then it'll just be a jumble of mess toward something that I don't want to even think about.
So basically I just sat there. I somehow did see a green blur, but it didn't seem to faze me. I didn't even notice the figure that sat next to me until he wrapped his strong arms around my shoulders, as my head fell on the creak of his neck.
"What's wrong?" he asked
"Nothing's wrong" I mumble
"Then why are you crying?" he asked, concern clearly written in his voice as he turn my face around with those muscular hands of his. At that simple touch of his, I melted. It worsens when he gently wipe my tears away with his thumb.
I couldn't stand the effect that he was having on me right now. It just made the situation worse. The fact that I could never have him since he now belongs to someone else. At knowing that fact, anger surges within me. I push his hands away from me. Away from the effect that it was having on me.
"Because I felt like crying" I said mad as ever
"Why" he demand, not seeming to notice my anger, or probably just ignoring it.
"Why, why?" I asked getting up from the bench putting my hands on my waist
"Why are you lying to me" he said getting up as well. At that moment, it felt like I was talking to his chest because when he got up, that was what my face came in contact with.
"I'm not" I said lying through my teeth, but I knew that he knew I was lying.
"I know you well enough to know that something is wrong."
I looked up at him when he had said those words. Looking at those dark blue orbs of his. Needless to say, his eyes were a mask. A girl could get lost in those eyes. I will admit that I got lost in them just now. I even smiled. Then it became a frown as I made the realization of what was occurring before me.
"The real question is what's up with the twenty questions. More like the twenty whys." I said getting annoyed rather then angry.
"You know what I'm getting tired of your childish behavior" he said getting annoyed as well
"And you think I care because? But oh it really doesn't matter since all you'll ever see in me is a child?"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nothing. It's not supposed to mean anything Darien"
"It doesn't sound like nothing" he said sounding really sure of himself
"Look I'm tired, and I just want to go home" I said feeling really restless.
"Fine, I'll drop it" he quickly retorted back, not wanting to fight with me, as he continued to say "as long as you let me give you a ride"
"Fine" I said restlessly as he lead me to his red sport car
Through the whole entire drive, we stayed silent. There where occasionally glances here and there, but other then that, we were silent.
He finally reach my house and drove up to the driveway.
"Bye" I mumble as I unbuckle my seat belt then open the door to leave.
I walked up to my house and he called after me. I turn to his direction.
"Stop crying just because you feel like it" he said jokingly
"Okay" I said weakly with a weak smile as well.
I watch him drive his sports car away before I walked in my house and closed the door. I didn't move I just stood there, my face facing the door. Just thinking, which brought me to the conclusion once again, that we could never be.
I sign as I felt that my eyes were about to become wet.
"No, I'm not gonna cry again" I said to myself as I held my head back.
However, saying those words, I knew that it wasn't true, because tears began descending on my cheeks. I tried to stop it, but it just kept on coming. So then, did I do the one thing that I was able to do. I ran up the stairs toward my bedroom, and went straight for my bed to cry my heart out.
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