Chapter 10

Pairings Yuki Kyo

Disclaimer: I don't own it; I just morph it to fit my minds ideas.

I am soooo sorry about the lateness of this chapter! I humbly beg your apologies. School has been over and with that comes my parents asking more of me. To make up for the long wait I've made it longer.

The statistics used in this chapter are completely and utterly true and you can quote them all you want. THE FACTS SPECIFIED ARE TURE! That was just another subtle reminder.

Oh man I saw Final Fantasy Advent Children and man did I like it, Reno and Cloud are the most awesome ever, cute couple too.

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Kyo sat hard at work with a white band tied across his forehead, hunched over his essay like a good student. What's with that headband? What purpose does it serve? Kyo's headband nagged at Yuki's thoughts. The rat wasn't sure why either, its not like it was hurting him or causing an outright distraction, it just annoyed him that his lover needed to do something so pointless in order to do something important.

"Done yet?" Yuki made a simple noise in the back of his throat signaling that, no, he wasn't done. "Well hurry up I still need to find something. Confucius says this, Confucius says that...Confucius says my ass how 'bout that!" Yuki snorted at this but made no move from the computer screen.

"Hey Kyo, my essay is about sociology…"

"Yeah and? Why should I care, mines about Confucius, whoopdi friggin' do!" The cat had little ears perched on his head now and a frustrated blush spread across his cheeks. The rat made yet another noise, deciding it best to not dignify that with words just yet.

"I found something you might want to know." Kyo 'hmphed' and continued scribbling words across his notebook, his penmanship didn't matter he'd have to type it later anyways. "I'll give you a kiss to come over here." The cats' ears perked up at this and sheepishly made his way over to his oh-so-adorable lover.

"You have me now what is it and where's my kiss damn it?" Yuki turned in his seat and placed his lips against Kyo's, soon pulling that bottom lip into his mouth. Yuki tried nibbling on it but decided it wasn't the same with him doing that and not Kyo, so he released him.

"Good enough?" Kyo nodded before slumping down over the chair and his lover's shoulders, resting his arms across Yuki's front. "Okay I was looking up stuff for my essay and found these facts, listen:

The following is true

If we were to shrink the Earth's population into 100 people the ratios would be as follows: 57 would be Asian, 21 would be European, 14 would be from the Western Hemisphere (North, Central, and/or South America), 8 would be African, 52 would be female, 48 would be male, 70 would be some color other than white, 70 would be non-Christian, 30 would be Christian, 89 would be heterosexual, 11 would be homosexual, 6 people who possess 60 of the entire world's wealth and all 6 would be American, 80 would live in substandard housing with no running water, electricity, or toilets, 70 would be unable to read, 50 would suffer from malnutrition, 1 would be near death, 1 would be ready to give birth, only one would have a college education, and only 1 would own a computer."

"Way to kill a happy moo-"

"Shhh! There's more, please listen Kyo."

The following is also true

"If you woke up this morning with more health than illness you are more blessed than the million who will not survive the week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pains of starvation, you are ahead of 500 million people on Earth.

If you have a refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over your head, and a place to sleep, you are richer than 75 of the world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, or in a spare dish somewhere you are among the top 8 of the world's wealthiest people.

If your parents are still alive and still married you are very rare.

If you can read this message you are more educated than the 2 billion people that cannot read it."

Kyo sunk down further and rubbed his nose against Yuki's ear. He knew exactly what the rat was thinking. Right now he's probably going on about how selfish he thinks he is…about the torture crap Akito put him through…damn! Why does he have to be so much like a girl sometimes? "Yuki-koi?"

"Yea…" Kyo knew now that something was wrong, he had said 'yea' and not 'yes', which was proper and so like him.

"Come on." Kyo turned the computer chair towards him and pulled his lover by the hands out of the chair. "Instead of worrying about money and other crap," by other crap he meant torture, "lets work on that number 11. We can't let that statistic down now can we?" Yuki laughed awkwardly and let himself fall onto his boyfriend, his nose against the nape of his lovers tanned neck. Kyo wrapped his arms around Yuki and lifted him over to the bed.

He didn't even wait for Yuki to hit the bed; he had already begun the sloppy 'kitten' kisses across the rats pale neck and jaw line. A mewing noise came from the smaller teen as he surrendered himself to the feeling.

I just want to let go.

It was as if their clothes magically disappeared and reformed in the abyss of the room somewhere. They were naked, touching each other, kissing, and that's all that mattered. Yuki could barely feel Kyo's lips and hands, instead he was left with a feeling of warmth and in his mind he felt a cool prickling feeling. Not the cool prickling of an impending pain but of a feeling. The more he tried to place it the more it took away from the pleasure he was feeling. Too soon, or maybe much later, he couldn't tell, Kyo was forcing himself into that welcome heat Yuki held.

Kyo mistook Yuki's lidded eyes as a sign of lust and continued on not aware of the inner struggle his lover was battling. Not to say that Yuki wasn't enjoying himself, he just wasn't sure if it was right to enjoy himself, with all that was wrong with him, his family, his lover…

I need to feel something…or nothing. I don't what I want.

Kyo held tight to Yuki's hips as he tried his damnedest to make his love happy. Just a little bit of bliss, I can do that for him. I hope this works.

Let go, let go, leave me alone. Leave Kyo and me in peace!

Yuki let himself go, just in time to feel his lover 'let go' and he was soon to follow. He was left in a blissful fog and didn't mind the warmth from Kyo as he fell. They lay like that for some time. Kyo didn't even bother pulling out of his lover. Like the kitten he was, Kyo began to purr as Yuki ran his hand through semi-damp firey tresses.

"Who…"

"Hm?" Kyo snuggled his nose further into the crook of Yuki's neck and held his waist tighter.

"The facts," Kyo knew full and well that he was ruining an otherwise happy moment but he was a cat and sometimes nature cannot be helped, "they were e-mailed to you. From who?" Yuki's hand stilled in Kyo's hair, and he let out a sigh. Kyo let his eyes wander upwards so they could lock with vivid violet ones. Only what he saw was a sad excuse for the vivid color they were before. They looked different now, more sad, tired, and somehow a dim angry as well.

"Akito…he sent it a while ago but I never checked it. The subject line…" His gaze flickered to the computer, still on, e-mail opened, before dropping his gaze off to the side, not willing to look at Kyo or the message. He felt like he could've stared at his own bed forever, so as not to face anyone again, to be the passive child again.

It was such a safe place. I didn't provoke anything, no one noticed me…maybe I could just curl up again and not talk. I hardly do that as it is. Would Kyo notice? Would he care or keep loving me as if I were the same?

Eventually though his gaze wandered back to Kyo whose head was still tucked under his chin. "The subject said not to read it until I couldn't speak to him anymore. I always wanted to read it hoping it said that he was sorry…or something…but deep down I was still afraid that it would be something harsh. The truth is I'm not sure what it was…"

Truth be told Kyo wasn't sure either. It was a nice way to look at how lucky or not alone you are, but Yuki over analyzes everything, not always a good thing. "Maybe Akito wasn't sure." The rat closed his eyes hoping more words would come from his lover's mouth. He still didn't understand and that's what he needed more than anything at that moment, to understand.

"Akito has always been pulled two ways. He says he loves but then he hurts you…maybe because that's how his parents treated him, he didn't know any better. No one tried to make him happy, at least not without his or her own motives. He wasn't sure whom to trust.

Maybe he got bored one day waiting for Hatori to get to him, Kami knows I do, and stumbled onto that crap. Maybe it made him feel better about himself. He always thought you were like him, maybe he thought you'd find…what's the word…solace in those facts. Maybe for one minute while thinking about his death he was afraid, just like you were. Maybe he realized how human he was and wanted you to feel that way too. And not in a bad way…you weren't always treated human and maybe…"

The words were slow coming and even slower getting to Yuki's ears. He thought it over and realized how true it all seemed to be. It was defiantly plausible.

Maybe he's right, sometimes when he yelled at me he looked sad not just angry. And that time with Ms. Honda when he pulled her by the hair…

"Akito…"

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TBC R&R

Well instead of the usual 3 pages of writing it's around 5 so I hope that makes up for something.

Please review this, it feels to me like the story has gone downhill and I'm sooo sorry. I just can't help it. My heads been hurting so much lately and the added babysitting jobs…

I love you guys for reading this.