2 Years Later
Boston and I were playing outside. It was a clear fall day.
"Daddy… bunny" Boston said pointing to a baby rabbit that happened to be hopping through out backyard.
"Don't try to touch it" I said to him.
"I wanna get a bunny" he said.
"No way Boo daddy doesn't like little furry animals in my house" I said.
He pouted a little bit but it was short lived. He was a happy little boy so he didn't stay depressed too long. That and the fact he was spoiled rotten helped.
"So are you excited about coming on the road with me?" I asked him.
"Yep" he replied.
"Your cousin Delilah is going to be there also" I said. Delilah being Randy and Maddie's daughter. They also had a 2 year old son named Jake.
"Daddy, how come Delilah has a brother and I don't?" Boston asked. "you have brothers… I want a brother"
'Damn for a 4 year old this kid was way too smart for his age.' I thought.
"Umm… Grandma Mercer and Auntie Adrian are coming over to spend the day wit you so we'd better get you cleaned up" I tried to change the subject.
Adrian had moved back into her and Ashley's childhood home after Lisa (their mother) had a heat attack. This worked out better for everyone because I could see Boston anytime I wanted and the same went for Adrian. Both Adrian and I learned to tolerate each other for Boston's sake. Personally I had no grudge against her, she just didn't like me.
"Ok" Boston agreed.
I let out a relieved sigh. I diverted that one for a little while. I was nowhere ready to commit myself to another person to that extent, the only person I would consider it for was dead.
Boston and I were sitting on the porch waiting, Adrian pulled into the driveway and got out of the car.
"Auntie, Gramma!" Boston exclaimed as he ran to meet them.
"Hey Kiddo" Adrian gave him a hug and I kiss before passing Boston over to her mother.
"Gramma can we go to the toy store?" Boston asked.
Lisa smiled at him.
"No more toys!" I exclaimed from the porch.
"Ma can you bring Boston to the car and I'll be there in a minute?" Adrian asked.
"Ok" Lisa said "Boston say bye to daddy"
Boston gave me a hug and a kiss and then followed Lisa to the car.
"You ok?" she asked.
"Boston told me he wants a brother today" I said "I guess he has a right to want that"
"What did you tell him?" she asked.
"I changed the subject before he got too interested in it"
"You know he isn't done with the subject right?" she asked.
"I know but what can I do, if Ashley was alive I would have thought about it but she isn't and I'm no where near emotionally ready to deal with the hassles of dating and marriage" I replied.
Adrian seemed to be thinking of something. She bit down on her bottom lip.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked.
"Ashley had a condition where she had to have a hysterectomy" Adrian explained "but she wanted more children besides Boston so she had some of her frozen… I think she was always hoping you'd get your head out of your ass and get her back and be a family"
"Why are you telling me this?" I asked.
"You said if Ashley was alive you'd consider it well I'm giving you a solution" she said.
"Incase you haven't noticed I'm a guy" I said.
"How did my sister put up with you so long surrogacy stupid" she said.
"So basically what you are telling me is to pay someone who I don't know to carry mine and Ashley's child for 9 months and give birth to it only then to hand the baby over to me" I asked trying to make sure I had heard her correctly.
"Geez it was just a suggestion: Adrian said "no need to bit my head off, I'm not trying to convince you to go either way but think about it this way we both grew up with siblings around so we never knew the loneliness of a being an only child because someone was always there. Then again I'm not saying being an only child is bad… I guess what I am trying to say is that you are the parent so in the end you need to do what is best for yourself and for Boston"
I began to pace "Why does this have to happen to me, why couldn't I just be a man then maybe Ashley would still be alive"
Adrian watched me pace for a few minutes.
"Now listen I may not be your biggest supporter but I do know is that Ashley would be proud of what you have become so stop feeling sorry for yourself and figure out what you are going to do" Adrian said.
"Sure easy for you to say you aren't the one who has to tell Boston he won't be getting a little brother" I retorted.
"I have to go, hopefully when we return you'll be in a better mood" Adrian said.
"Probably not" I called after her.
The thought of having a baby that way seemed so unnatural. But in the end who would have thought that right then and there… that very moment or thought as it would have it would change my life forever.
A/N: Sorry for the totally sucky chapter. But in all fairness I met John Cena today and I am totally scatter brained. He shook my hand and I swear I was going to loose it I was shaking so badly after wards. But it was worth waiting in line 4 hours and 15 minutes. Soooo really not sure where I'm going with this but when I figure it out you'll be the first ones to know.
