A few days later I was sitting in a chair next to Boston's bed just watching him sleep. He looked so much like his mother when she slept. It was then that I realized I missed all his firsts. You know first word, steps… hell I wasn't even there to see him being born. I could never get those moments back not matter how badly I wanted to, maybe Adrian's plan wasn't as crazy as I originally thought. Boston spent most of his time with me on the road it wouldn't be too hard to travel with two kids. All the girls love Boston and they are always offering to watch him, one more shouldn't be too hard. I spent most of the night thinking this out.
"It could work" I finally said to myself.
It was about 4:30 in the morning but by this point I had no comprehension of time. I picked up my cell phone and dialed Adrian's number.
"Hello" Adrian sounded frightened "John is Boston ok?"
"Huh?" I asked. I then snapped out of my thoughts "no he's fine why do you ask?"
"Because it is 4:30 and you are calling me so this makes me think something is wrong with my nephew" she replied.
"No he's asleep I've just been thinking all night about what you suggested at my house" I said.
I could hear Adrian yawn on the other end of the phone.
"I'm sorry I didn't realize what time it was" I moved to the balcony of my hotel room.
"It's no big deal I have to be up in an hour anyways" she said.
"So like I said I was thinking about what you suggested at the house and the more I thought about it the more it seems to make sense"
"Is this the same John I knew a few years ago?" Adrian asked "the one who put his career first and his family second"
"That hurt Addie" I said "I thought we had put the past behind us"
"We may be civil John but it will never really be behind us because Ashley is gone and part of me is always going to blame you"
"So what do we do from here because you can't seem to forgive me?" I asked.
"I don't know John I'm trying to come to terms but every time I think I can I remember that my sister is gone" Adrian said "I know you didn't actually pull the trigger but it feels to me as if you did"
"No matter how many times I apologize it is never going to be enough, you are the only one who still blames me" I ran a hand through my hair.
"Just one question did you love her at all?" Adrian asked.
"Of course I did" I replied "I loved her with everything I had, everyday I was apart from her I wanted to die"
"So why leave?" she asked.
"I was scared" I admitted. "I was scared of what being a father meant, I was afraid of loving someone that much and loosing myself in the process"
"But you lost nothing!" Adrian exclaimed.
"I lost Ashley did I" I contradicted.
"DOn't even get me started on that one" she said annoyed.
"So are you going to help me with this or not?" I asked. It came out a little more harsh than I meant it to but I was annoyed.
"Are you sure about this John?" she asked "because this is a big decision and it's not to be taken lightly.
"I really want this" I said "make it happen"
She hung up the phone and I began to think about what I had just agreed to. This was probably the most important thing I would ever be doing and although I wanted to do this I was scared to death. Being a single parent with one child is hard but two kids that was going to be twice the work but then again I would be getting twice the rewards.
"Daddy" I heard Boston say.
"Boo what are you doing up?" I asked.
"I had a bad dream" he said.
"Well how about we grab some blankets and crash on the couch till we both fall back to sleep" I suggested.
"Ok" he ran back into his room and grabbed Wuvvi and his pillow. I grabbed the blanket and we claimed up onto the couch.
"Boo what do you want to watch?" I asked him.
"I wanna watch Ed Edd and Eddie" he replied.
I groaned now of all of the cartoons out there, my son had to love the most mind rotting one out there. (A/N: No offense to those people who like Ed Edd and Eddie but personally it makes my brain hurt watching it.)
"Boo I don't think that show is on now it's still really early" I said.
We ended up falling asleep watching old Rugrats re-runs. The next morning Boston did not want to get up, gee I wonder where he got that trait from because it wasn't from me. I just opted to avoid a fight so I carried him out in his pajamas. It was a press conference day for the Pay Per View The Royal Rumble and Vince liked everyone there early. I put Boston on the couch and slung my bag on the floor. I went into the bathroom with my cell phone because I didn't want to wake Boston up. But it didn't work out like that because 10 minutes into my call I heard Boston call my name.
"I'm right here Boo" I assured him walking back into the room. I dropped my phone in my bag and went to have a seat next to him.
"Did you wake up and not know where you were?" I asked him.
He nodded and rubbed the sleep out of his eyes.
"Boo we need to have a man to man talk" I said.
"I didn't do it" he said putting his hands up in defense.
I laughed "I never said you did anything wrong"
"Ok" he said.
"Did you do something wrong?" I asked.
"Nope" he said with a smug smile.
"Well anyways the other day you mentioned that you wanted a little brother were you serious?" I asked.
"Yes I want some one to play action figures with and to play wrestle" he said.
"But you have friends to do that with" I said.
"But my friends have to go home I want someone who doesn't have to go home so I can play with them all the time" he explained.
"You do realize if you do have a little brother you won't be able to play with him till he is older because he'll be too little to play with?" I asked
"I'm not little anymore daddy I know" he said "I'm 4 not 2"
He sounded so much like Ashley at that moment I had to do a double take. He grinned at me and waited for my response. My response was to tickle him until he begged me to stop.
"So what happens if you get a sister instead of a brother?" I asked.
"I'll still love her" he said.
"You know having a little sister is an important job" I said "it would be your job to make sure she doesn't get hurt and that no boys go near her till she is 25". He laughed.
"I can imagine you standing there with a shot gun" Maddie said.
Both Boston and I looked towards the door way.
"Auntie!" Boston yelled as he went over and gave his aunt a hug.
"What are you doing here?" I asked.
"Joint PPV duh" she said.
"I didn't mean in the arena I meant my locker room" I said.
"I came to see how my favorite nephew was doing and take him to go play with his little cousins" she replied.
"You wanna go play with Delilah and Jack?" I asked him.
"Yeah" he said excitedly bouncing up and down a little.
"Well come on Slowpoke let's go" Maddie said.
"Be good Boo" I said to him.
He waved me off telling me that he had heard my message. I rolled my eyes there was too much of Ashley in that boy. But part of me couldn't help but notice how grown up he was now, maybe it would be good to have another baby to take care of.
A/N: Sorry for taking so long to update but my school is trying to kill me with all this work I promise to get the next update sooner. Hopefully when I finish reading the 45 million books I have to read. Ok maybe it's only 4 but that is still a lot.
