Yumi was sitting bored in her double physics class and as she pondered how complicated her life was she wrote down what she felt in her notepad that she carried everywhere with her.
I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being known as the gothic Japanese girl. And if you add Sissy's comments to it, then I'm an ugly wannabe gothic Japanese girl who only wants Ulrich to be popular. Yeah right.
Sure, my four real friends know me as Yumi Ishiyama and then William knows me as Yumi Ishiyama, but that's only because he has a crush on me...
I do not consider myself a Goth; just a girl who wears black clothes and doesn't wear any colour except when I am in Lyoko where I have no other choice.
Sure, I'm Japanese but I can't help that can I? I am proud of my nationality but hate it that it makes me look different to my peers which causes them to tease me.
Ugly? I don't know if I am ugly. Ulrich, in the past, has told me to ignore her – that she is simply jealous but when I asked him what he meant he blushed and made an excuse to leave.
Wannabe? I don't want to be anything but me. And even that is sometimes too much for me. Why can't my life be simple like it is for someone like Sissy?
I do like Ulrich, a lot. In many ways I would go to the extremes of saying that I love him. He's funny, cute, doesn't judge me, there for me, a good listener, always helps, and even though he has his own problems he puts his friends problems before his own.
But I'm not trying to get with him so that I would become popular for dating the hottest guy in school. In fact, I'm not trying to get with him at all. It's just sort of happening by itself. We're both too shy to admit our feelings. Well I am. I have no real proof that Ulrich returns my feelings just the way he acts, and the way we flirt and the way he blushes. Oh and that one of our best friends has told me that he does.
The William problem, as I call it, is stressing. He's a nice guy and he's cute and is into the same things as me. He's in the same grade as me unlike Ulrich who is a grade lower than me. But I couldn't really see us working out as well as I can see me and Ulrich working out.
Anyway back to what I was saying.
So what if I like darker music to everyone else? That's my decision. So what if I want to dress in black all the time? That's my decision. So what if I am Japanese? That's my nationality and I'm proud of it. So what if I like and love the popular Ulrich Stern? That wasn't my decision, I can't tell my heart who to fall for and who to not, but I know one thing I'm not going to get with him to become popular, I don't want popularity, I want to be the girl no-one notices-not even to make fun of.
I want to be the girl that no-one notices but the only girl that Ulrich Stern notices...
As the bell for lunch went, Yumi closed her notepad, shoved it in her bag and left the classroom on her way to the cafeteria.
Hey guys, this is going to be about a 6-10 chapter story where, as usual, many events will take place. You need to know that the gang are in high school – Yumi is 17 where the others are 16. Lyoko and X.a.n.a has been shut down with Aelita materialised permanently.
Jeremie and Aelita are going out as well as Odd and Sam. Everyone lives at the dorms at school including Yumi and Sam who share a dorm.
Sissy is still bugging Ulrich likewise with William and Yumi.
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