Disclaimer: I don't own Ephram, Kyle or any other characters mentioned in this story. They all belong to some network.
Heaven
'I don't see what this kid's problems have to do with you!'
How can't you see it dad? We're the same, one side of a coin. You don't have to look hard to see that Kyle is everything that I was at his age. I know what it is to be him, how to live as he does. High school is hell for everyone, but even more so for those who are different, those who don't fit in. It's bad enough to be a loner, or as it is so kindly put by your fellow students, a freak, but to be gay…. If they knew you had better chances of surviving if you walked into Al-Qaeda territory wearing an American flag.
From the first moment I saw him I knew their was something else about him, something different. Something that made my heart race and my stomach feel queasy. I've had this feeling before, but it was nowhere near as strong or as demanding as it is for him.
I like Kyle. I like him in a way I shouldn't. He's 15 for Christ's sake. He isn't even legal. But aside from that, I'm afraid what it would do to him of he learned of my feelings for him. I'm his friend. Probably one of the few he's ever had and the only one he has at the moment. How can I betray his friendship by wanting more from him. More than he is probably willing to give.
I can see how he struggles with the knowledge that he loves men. He doesn't want to be this way. If he had a choice he would be straight, but the problem is, he doesn't have a choice and probably never will. To live a hidden life, is to not live a life at all. If you deny who you like, you deny who you are. Trust me I know. I didn't ask for this either. I tried so hard to find some semblance of normal in my life. To be normal. To be straight. It was working. I focused all my attention on Amy and ignored the fact that I was more interested in her boyfriend than her. It did kinda work. I do have feelings for Amy, but they remain platonic no matter how hard I tried to change that fact. So I gave in and embraced who I am.
But to be honest, my fight stopped the moment I laid eyes on Kyle. I'm drawn to him in ways I have never been drawn to another. It feels silly to say, I'm only eighteen, but when he looked at me for the first time I felt like I could love him forever.
If only he would love me back.
I'm waiting for him right now. His lesson is about to start. The lessons are heaven and hell. To be near him, but to know that I can't reach out and touch him. That I can't claim his lips as mine. It hurts.
He walks through the door. He takes of his jacket and smiles at me. I've never seen him really smile like this. He walks towards me and starts talking. He thought about what I told him. He realised that I was right. It's still difficult, but he's starting accept who he is.
With every word he utters he moves closer. He's standing right in front of me and I can do nothing but stare helplessly at him. To be this close to him, to feels his heat, literally takes my words away.
He smiles again and tells me that he had made another realisation. He's completely serious now, no more traces of his happy smile. He looks in my eyes and moves to push his body to mine. Slowly he presses his lips to mine.
My last thought is that I never knew he could be so forward. Then there is only heaven.
END
Hoped you all liked it. This is my first Everwood fic. I've had lots of bunnies hopping around in my head, but this is the first one I've actually written out. Please review!
