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Warning: What could be viewed as attempted rape... angst... yet another Yuki mental breakdown.
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Shuichi rolled over in his sleep to feel Yuki's arm around him. He smiled softly, relaxing his tired muscles into the strong limb. Yuki pulled him closer, his lips grazing the skin behind his neck in soft kisses.
Shuichi mewled in pleasure, but shook his head, scooting away. Afterall, it was late, and he was very tired. Only, the writer wasn't deterred, as he gripped Shuichi tighter, pulling him back into his embrace.
"Yuki..." Shuichi said softly, "It's late."
"So?" He asked, his body rolling ontop of his, his lips finding a resisting Shuichi's.
"Don't..." Shuichi murmered, struggling to get out from under his suddenly frighteningly persistant boyfriend. But the more he fought against him, the more Yuki's strong hands squeezed his wrists together, forcing them to the matress, holding Shuichi firmly in place. "Yuki!" Shuichi said, wiggling, trying to force his lovers hands away from him "Stop!"
Only Yuki didn't. His free hand roamed freely across Shuichi's skin, touching him in places that under any other circumstances would have illicted pleasure, but now, just made the pink haired singer whimper in fear.
"Shs." Yuki said, trying to calm the boy, his hands binding Shuichi tighter
"Stop!" Shuichi yelled again, trying desperatly to move away, but finding himself pinned under Yuki's weight.
When Yuki's lips once again captured Shuichi's, parting them and delving deep, Shuichi did the one thing he could think of to get his lovers attention. He bit down as hard as he could on Yuki's velvety tongue. He felt Yuki's blood seep into his mouth, until he let go of the tongue, and Yuki jumped back, releasing Shuichi, his hand flying up to his mouth.
Shuichi took the opportunity to move away from Yuki, scooting off of the bed, only getting tangled up in the covers and loosing his balance, knocking the lamp off of the nightstand on his tumble down, making the lamp shatter and his lithe body landing on top of the glass. He cried out, his head hitting the hardwood floor, still scooting swiftly away from the bed, determined to put distance between himself and Yuki.
He reached the corner, and turned on the stand light that was there. His eyes adjusted to the light, to find Yuki still kneeling on the bed, his hand clasped over his mouth. Yuki's eyes fell to Shuichi, who lay shaking in the corner, his chest covered with scrapes from the glass, rubbing his sore wrists.
"Shu?" Yuki murmered softly
Shuichi felt himself relax as Yuki's eyes widened, realizing what he'd done. Suddenly, he was off the bed, and next to Shuichi, stroaking back his hair.
"I'm so sorry!" He yelled, pulling Shuichi into his arms "God, I... I didn't realize... I'm sorry!"
Shuichi blinked back tears, willing his body to stop shaking, as he wrapped his arms around Yuki.
"It's okay." He said softly "It's okay... I..."
"NO!" Yuki yelled "It's not. I... God, I almost..."
"Shs." Shuichi said "It's okay. I'm fine. I promise."
"But..."Yuki said, leaning back, looking at the cuts on Shuichi's chest, and lightly touching the bump forming on his forehead "You're hurt... I hurt you."
Shuichi shook his head.
"It was an accident, okay?" He said softly, pulling Yuki into his arms "It was an accident. You weren't yourself."
"Maybe I was." Yuki said, not lifting his head "Maybe... maybe that was the real me."
"It wasn't." Shuichi said
He felt Yuki's hot tears on his chest, and his lovers body began to become racked by sobs. He clung to him tighter.
"It wasn't." Shuichi whispered again, not sure who he was trying to convince.
"What if Eve's been right all this time? What if..."
Shuichi lifted Yuki's head, and pressed a kiss onto his lips.
"Shs." Shuichi said
"What if there's something dark inside of me? Something that I can't find... or control?"
Shuichi couldn't answer. He only pulled his lover tighter to himself, listening to his sobs slowly subside, and Yuki pass out from both stress and lack of sleep. Shuichi cradeled his lover in his arms, once again lost for what to do.
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A.N. This chapter took a bit of a darker turn than I really intended, but I decided to run with it anyways, because it only further helps to build up to the climax of the story (yes, I haven't got there yet). There's a lot more coming, so keep tuned! Oh, and to everyone who's been faithfully reading and reviewing, and even to those who haven't been reviewing (you know who you are! ((J/K)) I just want to say thanks! And I hope you enjoyed the chapter! I'll update soon, I promise!
