"End it? What do you mean?"
Yuki looked up at Shuichi, who carefully rubbed the sleep from his eyes.
"Eve's not... well... she's not well." Yuki said, explaining as best he could "Being here, with me... in this world... right now, it's only hurting her."
Shuichi cocked his head at him and stretched, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
"So... when you mean 'end it'..."
"I mean... put her back... at least for a while."
"But, Yuki." Shuichi said, rubbing his fingers through his tangled pink hair "I don't exactly think that Eve will go back willingly."
"She won't."
"I mean... if she doesn't know that she's insane..."
"She doesn't have to."
"Huh?"
Yuki cocked his head at Shuichi, smiling slyly.
"She doesn't have the think she's crazy. Just everyone else."
There was a silence for a moment, Yuki scooted closer to Shuichi on the bed. He reached his hand out and gently grazed his fingers across Shuichi's cheek.
"Shu. Remeber that time you came and visited me? When I put something in your pocket?"
"Yeah."
"I kinda need those. Do you still have them?"
Shuichi nodded slowly, gesturing towards the nightstand beside the bed.
"They're in the drawer. Yuki... you're not going to..."
Yuki nodded.
"Yeah..." He replied, moving away from Shuichi, who sighed at the loss of contact. He opened the drawer and pulled out the tiny package. "I have to go--."
But Shuichi didn't let him finish. Before Yuki could finish his words, Shuichi had crushed their lips together in a breathtaking kiss before pulling away.
"Don't say it. I know. Just... hurry home?"
There was silence for a moment, before Yuki nodded softly and stood from the bed, walking away.
"So... back again?" Eve asked, leaning against the door frame.
Yuki nodded, holding up a bottle of wine.
"Yeah." He said softly "Can I come in?"
Eve looked at him strangely, but nodded nonetheless and moved to the side, letting him in and locking the door behind him.
"So, let me guess... you went to Tohma?"
He nodded, sitting on the bed.
"He told you everything?"
Another nodd.
"Good."
There was silence once again, before Yuki spoke.
"I'm sorry."
Eve nearly choked.
"I'm sorry... Kyoko."
"What did you--."
"That's your name, right?" He asked, un-corking the bottle "Kyoko?"
Eve's green eyes dulled as she sat on the bed next to him, her raven hair spilling across her shoulders.
"You remembered?"
He nodded.
"It means... 'pure'... right?"
She nodded.
"My mother gave it to me..." She said, listening to Yuki pour the wine into two plastic cups "God I hate that name."
"Why?"
"Because I'm not... 'pure'." Eve replied "I'm not 'good'. I never was. I never had the patience for the 'good girl' thing. And my parents hated me for it. So... when I was old enough, and had learned enough english... I moved to New York... about a year later, I met you guys..."
Eve took the cup from him, and took a sip, smiling softly at how the red of the wine matched the red of her fingernails.
"I'm sorry." Yuki repeated again
Eve scoffed.
"For what?"
"For... everything." He said, setting his cup down and touching her face gently "All the pain I put you through... all those years in that place. All by yourself. You must've been so lonley."
Eve narrowed her eyes, tears starting to fall from them.
"And you did it all for me." Yuki replied "You did so much for me... and I just... repressed you... I forgot about you. You love me so much, don't you?"
Eve nodded softly, Yuki leaned forward, placing a kiss on her forehead.
"Thank you." He murmered
Eve kissed Yuki's hand, placing her hand on his wrist.
"Eiri..." She murmered, her green eyes meeting his amber
Yuki chuckled.
"You're crying." He said softly "Go wipe your tears."
"O--okay." She said, standing and walking into the bathroom
Eve turned on the faucet, letting the warm water run across her fingers.
'He's so gentle...' She thought 'So... I don't know what...' She splashed some of the water onto her face, and gently dried with a towel. She returned to find Yuki still sitting on the bed.
'He moved.' She thought 'He's in a different position...'
"You okay now?" He asked, extending her cup to her
She nodded, taking it and sitting down.
"I feel like we should toast to something." Yuki said
"What?" Eve asked
Yuki shrugged.
"I dunno. But... something."
"You're the writer... make something up."
They sat in silence for a moment, before Yuki sighed.
"How about we just pretend on of us said something clever?" He asked
Eve laughed and nodded, touching her cup to his before drinking deeply. The two sat in silence for a moment, before Eve spoke.
"So, what brings you all the way out here?" She asked "With really great wine nonetheless." She said, taking another long drink
Yuki sighed, looking down at his barely touched cup and shrugged.
"I've just been thinking."
"And?"
"And... it just brought somethings into clarity."
"Like what?" Eve asked, before suddenly dropping her cup "Whoa." She said
"What?"
"I feel... funny..." She said, blinking a few times
"Hm." Yuki replied, taking a sip
'Everything's blurry.' Eve thought 'Whats happening?'
"What into clarity?" Eve managed to ask
"A lot of things."
'This is just like when... I was in St. Joan's... NO! It's those pills... Eiri must've... why would he--'
"Eve, do you know what the defination of insanity is?" He asked calmly, facing her, smirk on his face
"What?" She asked, standing off of the bed and stumbling away from him
"It's doing the exact samething... over and over again... and expecting different results." Yuki replied, shedding his coat and nearing the stumbling Eve.
Her breath was coming faster now, she blinked again and again, trying with no avail to clear her blurry vision.
'I can't see! Oh God... someone help... no! I have to stay focused... just...'
"I learned that... after you put me in St. Joan's... which helped me realize... that... I'm not crazy Eve. You are."
'Breath.'
"I'm not..."
"You are." Yuki replied, nearing her "You're insane. Probably have been for a long time. All those years... trying to make me love you... do sane people do that?"
"Shut up!"
"Encouraging me to kill..."
"Stop it!"
"Honestly, I think you got off on it more than I did!"
"STOP!"
Eve collasped to the ground, frantically scooting away from Yuki, who; thanks to the drugs; seemed larger than ever. She closed her eyes, trying desperatly to grasp onto any shred of reality. She took a deep breath, clenching her hands into fists.
"All these months... you didn't really want to make me insane, did you Kyoko? You just wanted someone to hurt like you. Someone to be as lost, and pained as you still are."
"I'm not! I'm not lost anymore! I don't need a savior! I don't..."
"Who are you trying to convince?" Yuki asked, "Me? Or you?"
He kneeled down in front of her, and Eve, who had just opened her eyes, threw her hand up to shield her eyes from the swiftly spinning room.
"Why?" She asked softly "Why?"
"Why what?"
"WHY CAN'T YOU LOVE ME!" She screamed, her fingers tangling in her hair, pulling on it "Why! I did so much for you! Why don't you care!"
"Eve..." Yuki spoke softly, reaching for her
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" She yelled "I... I suffered for five years in that hell for you! I just wanted you to love me! More than anything... all I've ever wanted is for you to just love me!" She yelled, sobbing "I took care of you. When you went insane, I helped you."
"No." Yuki said softly, shaking his head "You... you damned me. Cursed me with these blood red memories."
"I--."
"I'm sorry Kyoko." He said softly "I can't love you. I never will. Someone's already in my heart... and he's pretty selfish. So there's really no room for someone else. So please... someday... move on."
He neared her, her body shaking and quivering on the floor, her red fingernails digging into her scalp.
"Looks like, we won't be traveling to the bottom of the rabbit hole together, Alice." He said softly
Her sobbs grew audible again, and she shook harder.
"Please." Eve begged, her hand reaching out and grabbing his ankle "Just love me. Please!"
Yuki backed away, and her hand fell limply to the ground.
"Love me." She repeated softly between her gasps and cries and sobbs "Love me like I love you. Just love me." She said, over and over again
Yuki neared the phone, lifting the handset and dialing a few numbers.
"St. Joan's Mental Hospital, please hold."
Yuki sighed, clenching the phone in his hands, looking at the tiny quivering mass on the floor.
"Well..." Yuki began, listening to the recorded list of numbers to press, slowly being drowned out by Eve's cries and whimpers.
'She just wanted to be loved...' He thought 'Kyoko... you and I... are the same.'
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A.N. Thanks to all those well wishes about me feeling better. I'm not in perfect health, but I'm getting there, so thanks a lot. And no, this isn't the end, there's more. And I'll have it up as soon as possible! Thanks everyone for all those flippin awesome reviews! Let's see... thanks Dejichan, AyameInLove, Loveless19... um... Pugsly, um... oh, Bloody-May for your just hilarious reviews which totally rox my sox... and Xuxin for being one of my first readers, and finally starting to update your story (called Train Wreck, it's flippin awesome, so who ever hasn't read it totally should!) um... The Ramen Noodle for guilting me into the last chapter... and a bunch of other people I can't think of off of the top of my head, but you know who you are! Thanks so much!
