He exhaled before starting to go live. He exhaled again. "Okay, um. I didn't plan on this, I wasn't or more like I didn't want to do this because I'm working on feeling better about myself and I don't want to get down again, but you all as my fans and family deserve the truth from me and not from blogs and click-bait headlines. I'll try to not keep this long. This all started when I went to visit my mother about our Thanksgiving plans and as I was about to leave, she hinted to me that he was there and I told her to lock herself in my car and stay there no matter what. I'm so thankful that she listened to me because if my mother was hurt I don't even know how I would be right now. I go looking around and next thing I know, I have a gun pointed to the back of my head and he shot me. I get rushed to the hospital and thankfully as you can see I survived. But anyway, when I got back from the hospital, I- we tried to keep things normal, Bonnie and I were still living together, trying to get back in the groove of things but in the end, it just didn't work out and I started dating Elena. Gilbert. Uh, Elena was the first person I saw and immediately recognized without being told anything about her. My mom had made me these two poster boards with pictures and names on them, Elena was not on the boards so that's what I mean by her being the first person that I recognized without being told who she was. Um, so after Thanksgiving is when Bonnie and I decided to go our separate ways, I started dating Elena almost immediately. Bonnie's friend was in town for the holiday so they stayed at the hotel she was staying in together. I started having visions of Bonnie and our relationship a few weeks after we broke up, and my good friend Mason called me and sat me down and told me and reminded me of the times I had with Bonnie and I looked at photos and watched videos and everything hit me all at once and I realized how big of a mistake I had made. And I say that meaning no disrespect toward Elena, I love Elena and I feel horrible for putting her through this. After remembering Bonnie, I asked Mason to take me straight to her and being the woman she is, she forgave me and we've had many talks and I'm thankful that I have Bonnie in my life again. We're still planning on getting married, I'm not going to say exactly when because I want our day to be ours. Um, I don't deserve her at all but she's with me and I love her so much. Thank you, guys." He ended the video.

...

Bonnie kisses along his neck then lifted her head to meet their lips only kissing him once before he moved his head away. "Babe,"

He closed his eyes. "Sorry," he kisses her once.

She sighed and straddled his lap to look into his eyes. "Talk to me,"

"It's nothing,"

"Just hold me please, then?"

He watched her eyes then pulled her body in close to his, holding her tightly.

"I miss you,"

He moved his hands up her back.

"I thought I had the best pussy on the planet?"

He chuckled. "Shut up." He held her face causing her to look into his eyes. "I just need a little more time, okay?"

"Okay. But can you please kiss me like you love me?"

He pulled her face into his, meeting their lips before opening his mouth to her. She turned her head to the side kissing him deeply, moaning as he turned them so his weight was on top of her.

"Actually, you know what, I'm good to go,"

She laughed, taking off his shirt.

She smiled as his fingertips glided along the curves of her body as he kisses the side of her neck. She reaches her hand back to grab his hair causing his hand to grab her right breast. "You're gonna give me a hickey before the wedding," she felt him smile against her skin. "Maybe I should mark my neck permanently with your initials."

"Maybe you should."

"S.D.S. Stefan Delilah Salvatore."

He stopped his affection. "How do you know my middle name?"

"Remember when you took me out for lobster and I asked to see your wallet?"

"Oh, you're in big trouble."

She smiled as he moved on top of her. "I think it's cute," she kissed him.

"Tell anyone and… actually I don't know what I'm going to do but I'll figure something out."

"Don't worry, your secret's safe with me, Delilah Bear."

"You're lucky you're my future wife."

She smiled. "Speaking of, I have to meet your mom later so we can do a little decor shopping."

"I'll go with you,"

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. It's my wedding too, I want to be partially responsible for making it look bomb AF, as the cool kids say."

She chuckled. "I guess you can come. It'll be nice for the three of us to hang out anyway."

"Then it's settled. Hopefully, we don't draw attention."

"I can wear a fake mustache?"

"Ha-ha. Come here,"

She smiled and held his face, looking into his eyes. They leaned in mutually, meeting their lips over again until their tongues met and he rolled on his back, having her straddle him.

...

Bonnie bounces on her feet shimmying her jeans up her legs and ass before buttoning them up. Stefan shook his head but chose not to comment as he took his shirt off ready to replace it with another one. He looked through his drawer and glanced back over to his girl seeing her slip on a white sweater before tucking them into her tight jeans. He reached for his own white sweater and narrowed his eyes when he couldn't find it. He searched in the closet and still nothing. He starts to wonder if Elena had taken it by accident but goes to ask Bonnie first only to stop, realizing that she's wearing his sweater. The sleeves are rolled up some, it's baggy on her but thanks to it being tucked in, it doesn't look bad on her at all. He lets out a breath then reaches for his sweater in black instead and throws that on. At least they'll be matching a little. He walks over to her and kisses her deeply before slapping her ass, walking into the kitchen.

He opened the refrigerator and grabbed a yogurt then a spoon. He checked his phone eating the snack and looked up before smiling as Bonnie was walking toward him. He set his phone to the side so he could kiss her a few times. "You're so beautiful, you know that?"

She smiled looking into his eyes. "I do. Thanks to you."

He smiles then kisses her again. "You about ready to rock and roll?"

She chuckled. "Yeah. How about you?"

"Let me finish this first then we can go."

"Take your time, you never want to eat yogurt fast, it'll upset your stomach."

"Thank you, my wife."

Bonnie rolled her eyes at his teasing tone then walked over to the couch. As she was deciding if she should open Twitter or Instagram first, she got a call and answers it since it was her mother.

"Hey, mom,"

"Hey, how's everything going, I saw Stefan's live stream video confession,"

"What?"

"He went on Instagram and told his side of the story in little detail. You didn't see it?"

"No, actually. It's fine, I guess I'm just unsure as to why I wasn't made aware."

"I get it, but I won't make it a big deal. He didn't look like he wanted to talk about it that much but felt a little obligation."

"Hm. I guess I have to check it out, I'm sure someone posted it on the YouTube." She smiled hearing her mother chuckle.

"Anyway, so he says the wedding is still on, is that true?"

"It is, I've been meaning to tell everyone. It's not going to be a big deal which I'm completely fine with, I suggested that we do it in his mother's backyard, but he's going to rent out a place for us. He really wants it to be an extravagant event, even before the amnesia. We're going shopping for decorations with his mom soon."

"What are your colors?"

"Honestly, I don't know, I haven't had much time to think about this stuff at all. From Caroline and Enzo to Stefan and Elena, my mind has been pretty full."

"I hear ya. But you'll figure it out."

"Thanks, mom. How are you doing? How's your girlfriend?"

"Doing perfectly fine, both of us. Separately and together."

"I'm happy to hear. Are you having her as your plus one?"

"Possibly, if she's available."

"Are you on speaking terms with dad?"

"We are, actually ever since everything, why?"

"Could you fill him in on the wedding stuff? I'll give you both more info with the address and time once we figure it out for ourselves."

"Okay, sounds good. I'll let you go now so you can do your shopping. I love you."

"I love you too. Bye." She ended the call and looked over toward Stefan hoping that she wasn't taking too loud for the first half of her conversation with her mom. He didn't seem to hear anything but she could honestly never be sure unless he brings it up himself. It's not like anything bad was said, so she's not going to worry about it too much. She chose Instagram first and liked the majority of the photos and videos that her friends and favorite celebrities had posted then searched and clicked on Stefan's profile. She clicked on his tags and widened her eyes seeing it practically filled with the photos he took with Elena a few months back. She closed out of the app then let out a breath before looking over at him again. He was washing his hands and she wonders if he saw the photos as well. She wonders if this is going to cause him to spiral so she has to stay close just so it doesn't happen.

Bonnie stood to grab her purse as he started walking toward the door and she wasn't far behind him. She watched him lock it before they walked toward the elevator.

"Do you know what colors you want?"

"For what?"

"The wedding. Our wedding colors,"

"Oh, uh, I don't know. I think blue would be nice and gold, maybe?"

"That sounds good. Like winter holiday-themed." She hugged his side as they stepped in.

"What's wrong?"

"Oh, I just hate this elevator."

"Oh," he hugged her back. "Sorry, I must've forgotten."

"It's okay," she looked up at him and smiled.

He hugged her tighter then let go once the door opened and took her hand as they walked to his car.

"Do you want me to drive?"

"I got it, I need to remember where everything was. I'm going to use the GPS though to help me out."

"Okay," she walked to the passenger door and opened it once he unlocked it. She looked over at him once she was buckled in and narrowed his eyes seeing a look on his face. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing,"

"Babe, talk to me."

He exhaled then looked over at her. "I uh, I saw a lot of photos of me and Elena today from a photoshoot we did and I don't know, I'm feeling a little weird about it."

"Why, because of your past?"

"That and the fact that I only remember flashes of it. I thought I had my memories back but there's probably still so much I don't remember. Like you hating that elevator."

"That's okay, Stefan. Patience is everything, you'll get them back. If you want, ask a lot of questions about yourself or your life and I'll answer it the best I know how or I'll phone in a friend who might know more than me."

He smiled. "Thank you, babe,"

"You're welcome. I love you."

"I love you more." He leans in and they share a kiss.

Stefan looked both ways before pulling out of the spot, heading to his mother's place.

They were spotted a couple of times but didn't really mind as they were focused on the mission at hand. They decided to stick with blue and gold- royal blue to be exact and found many great items. Bonnie was happy hearing Stefan ask his mom questions about their past holidays and watching the look on his face as he remembered the memory.

"Wait, babe, did I propose to you on Halloween?"

She chuckled. "Not on Halloween, it was the weekend before. But you scared the crap out of me that morning which is understandable as to why you would ask."

He chuckled then kissed her twice.

"I'm going to run to the bathroom really quick,"

"Okay, we'll be here," Lily answered. "Any plans for Christmas?" She asks her son after a few moments.

"I don't know, I kind of just want to spend it with Bonnie. At least a portion of it. But then I want either us to go see her family or vice versa so I can apologize to them for Thanksgiving. I fucking hate that I was such a dick to her. Sorry, mom, I forgot who I was talking to,"

"It's okay. I think it's very grown-up of you to apologize, although I'm sure they understand."

"Still, I want it to come from me. I caused so much pain towards Bonnie, I feel horrible."

"Stefan,"

"I look at her face and I see that video she posted on Instagram hugging Caroline as she struggled to get through her sentence. She loved me so much and I barely cared."

"Oh, Stefan," she hugged him.

"Just please don't tell Bonnie that. I told her that I'd stop feeling bad about myself but it's easier said than done."

"Okay," she hugged him a little longer before pulling away just in time to see Bonnie walking out of the bathroom.

"Alright, do we have everything?" Bonnie looked through their cart.

"Honestly I have no idea. I hate to say it but we may not know until everything's set up." Lily confessed.

She looked over at Stefan, meaning for it to be a quick glance but doubled back seeing a look in his eyes. "Everything okay, Stef?"

He looked at her, "Yeah, sorry, I was just in my head." He forced a smile.

"I think we'll be good, it's not going to be that many people there so it shouldn't be an issue. But if so, we can always come back,"

Lily nodded and they walked to the register. Stefan paid for the items and they left.

...

Bonnie smiled as he napped on her chest after getting lunch and then deciding to keep his mother company for a little. She could tell he was a little off today and wonders how he's doing with sleep. He's never really been the one to take naps so since he's doing it now, she starts to wonder if he's been having a tough time sleeping. She let out a breath and ran her hand down his hair.

"Hey," Lily spoke softly walking into the living room.

"Hey," Bonnie smiled, matching her tone of voice.

"Stefan asked me not to tell but I feel obligated to say something,"

She frowned. "Is everything okay?"

"He's still dealing with a lot of guilt. He told me every time he looks at you, he sees you crying in the video you did with Caroline. He feels horrible, Bonnie. He knows you want him to work on himself so that's why he's been hiding it from you. Maybe you should bring it up to him, I think you both talking it through could really do some good."

She sighed. "I feel like this is my fault. When we first talked about it, I told him how he made me feel which was not good at all, but maybe I should've been a little easier on him. It's not technically his fault."

"I know, but he believes it is. Don't blame yourself, you had every right to speak your truth, I just- just make it known that he's okay to speak his and that it's completely fine if he needs more time dealing with his choices."

Bonnie nodded and looked down at him.

"Anyway, I'm going to take a nap myself, I don't know if you two will still be here when I wake up so if not, I'll see you later,"

She smiled and nodded, watching her walk away. Bonnie sighed then kissed his head multiple times and moved her hand along his body. "I love you." She kissed his head again before closing her eyes.

"I love you too,"

She smiled at his response.

"Have you been sleeping okay?"

"Kind of,"

She frowned and hugged him close. "If you need to talk to me, you can, you know that, right?"

He sighed. "My mother told you, didn't she?"

"I'm pleading the fifth."

He sat up and looked into her eyes. "Though this may not be true, I feel like you don't really forgive me."

"I do, babe," she held his face. "I promise. It wasn't you,"

"But it was. It was my thoughts and my feelings, Elena may have had a little effect on me, but it was still me. I wasn't being controlled. And I made you cry and feel horrible about yourself and I'm so sorry."

She hugged him seeing tears fill his eyes. "I forgive you, Stefan. I know that you love me and not only look at me as a body because your actions have changed. You're acting like my Stefan again, loving me unconditionally and that's what's most important. Even if you don't remember every little detail, that's fine. It's not like I know every little detail about you either so we're even Steven."

He chuckled. "Okay,"

"You're my baby. I love you so much." She squeezed him.

He snuggled his head against her chest. "Something tells me I loved snuggling with you,"

"You secretly like me to be the big spoon. I noticed once when you got sick and all you wanted me to do was cuddle you."

He laughed. "I like being held."

She smiled, chuckling. "You're secretly like a little teddy bear."

"Exactly, babe, no secrets towards you, though,"

"Let's either go home or spend the night."

"Why?"

"Cause I'm getting tired and if I nap here I'm not going to feel like leaving later so you choose."

"Okay, let's take this party home." He stood then pulled on her arms to help her to her feet before they left.

...

Bonnie smiled at his wanted Christmas celebration plans and couldn't think of it any better. She would love to spend a holiday just with Stefan and make their own traditions and suggested that maybe they have her parents over for New Years instead. She just wanted to stay inside and play Christmas music and sip on hot cocoa and set up the tree and decorate their space with no sense of trying to entertain anyone. She'd cook them breakfast, lunch, and dinner and feel like a stereotypical wife for a little. A perfect day. Though she would never get her hopes up because, with their lives, something is bound to happen that would shake everything up. She tried to rid it out of her mind but that's just the way she operates now.

"Did you do real trees growing up?" Stefan asked.

"No, fake. Literally had the same fake tree for years, my dad would always say that we'd get a new one but nope."

He smiled. "So you always spent Christmas with your dad?"

"Yeah, well I only lived with my dad. My mom wasn't around too often until later on."

"Oh, sorry,"

"It's completely fine," she smiled at him. "With my dad, I knew that I would always get at least one thing that I wanted and then the rest would be knock offs or just something completely different," she laughed thinking back. "One year I requested Santa for these golden hoop earrings that I saw at the mall once and fell in love with, I was obsessed and I wanted an MP3 player and this Mario game for my game boy. Christmas morning comes and I got a Walkman, a Mario game but I remember it wasn't the one I wanted so the last gift that my dad got me I knew that had to be the actual earrings because everything else wasn't on point. So I unwrap the box and my little heart is pounding, it was a square box a few inches long and high and I opened it and I almost fainted. My golden hoop earrings. I wore them literally every day for a year."

Stefan smiled widely. "What's your favorite memory of your dad? Or was that it?"

"No, I mean I don't think I have one in particular moment but when my dad was there for me, he was there, like hardcore. Hug me, give me advice, talk to me and try to understand my side and the other persons. When I felt myself breaking down he would be the one I would've gone to."

He noticed a look in her eyes. "What's wrong?"

She sighed. "Let's just say that it wasn't always that way. Once I announced that I wanted to be an actress, he freaked out on me. I mean the industry can be messy and brutal but I felt like I was ready for it, thanks to him for teaching me how to deal with certain anxieties. I knew that though my dad would disapprove, I packed up and moved to LA and stopped talking to my dad and it probably still would've been that way if you didn't ask to meet them and push me into talking to him."

He smiled and held the side of her face. "I'm glad I could help,"

She chuckled. "Hey, Stef?"

"Yeah?"

"So I'm not sure if you remember but when you told me you wanted our wedding to be on your parents' anniversary, I told you that I always wanted to get married on the thirty-first because it was one of the best days of my life."

"That seems familiar, yeah,"

"We promised that I would share why that day was one of the best and you would share a memory that you have of your dad. Did you still want to?"

He closed his eyes. "Maybe. I remember flashes of him, nothing solid. Maybe I'll ask my mom to drop off some photos and possibly videos. I would like to remember him."

"You once told me that he was the best dad and so supportive of you. I want you to remember him too."

He smiled. "Time and time again, you show me how lucky I am to have you."

She kissed him then snuggled into his chest.