Taking A Chance

(Iris POV)

Steve and I are still laying on the floor beside the couch with me still on top of him, our legs wrapped around each other, my eyes are closed but I'm wide awake listening to his heartbeat. Earlier he had grabbed my throw blanket that was on the couch and draped it over us, my back is slightly exposed, he's running circles on my shoulder blades, he gives my shoulder a few lite kisses.

"Iris?" He whispers, I give him a little sigh reply. "What does this mean?...I mean about us?" He gently asks, I raise my head up to look at him.

"I don't know...I'm so sorry for what I said before, I didn't mean any of that...I don't know what I was thinking...I just..." I'm stuttering to find my words but he stops me by putting his fingers on my lips.

"I'm sorry too, I didn't exactly react the best way."

I exhale, "I can't believe you...I was a total bitch, unreasonable and you apologize to me." I say a little annoyed at him.

"Well...I said some pretty hurtful things too...and like I told you, I am not like most people" He softly grins. "...Iris, what did he really do to you?" He asked holding out my hand to indicate Ricky's actions.

"...He made me believe that he was different, saying the same things I've heard over and over again...he lied to me, he had a record for several assaults and when I told him it was over he...punched me to the floor, I knew I couldn't make it to the front door so I ran into the bathroom to try to get out of the bathroom window but he broke the door down before I could...he..." I try to explain but can't finish the rest, the scary events are replaying in my head. "Let's just say my landlord found me bloody on the floor...he knocked one of my teeth out, I had two broken ribs, obviously a broken wrist and a concussion." I told him as I put my head back down onto his chest, I can't look at him anymore.

He rubs the back of my head and kisses my forehead, "I'm am so sorry that happened to you." He could only say, "what happened to him?" I can hear anger in his voice.

"I pressed chargers on him, he's back in prison and has been there for over three years now...God I am terrified he'll get out...I mean someday he will." I'm starting to really worry, I hadn't thought about that in a while. After he got sentenced I had so many nightmares that he was going to get out and come after me!

"Hey look at me," I look up with my eyes watering, "I will never let that happen, I know it's hard to believe me but he will never get to you." He spoke with conviction soothing my head, all I can do is kiss him with a tear running down my cheek. He gently put his arms around my torso to hug me while we continue to kiss as I run my fingers through his already messy hair. After we finish kissing we press our foreheads together.

"Iris...if you really don't want to be with me and want me to stop seeing you...and this was all a one time thing...I'll respect it...and I will stay out of your life...I'm not going to force or push you to be with me...I came here tonight to show you I want you and I'm not going anywhere...but if you don't...I'll understand...if that's what you really want."

I can't breathe, "Steve I don't want you out of my life...I want to be with you more then anything but it's just..." I try to explain but I just can't find the words, I'm starting to crack a little, he brings a hand up and gently caresses my cheek.

"What do you say we take it one day at a time then, go slow?...Iris, this (pointing to him and I) is real. I know your afraid and understand why...I don't want to scare you, make you panic or think you have to throw me out because again I'm not going anywhere." He declared tenderly, "please don't punish me or each other from having something truly special...you deserve something special." I look in his eyes for the longest time.

"Damn you with your amazing speeches." I softly exhale and I hold his face in my hands, "...okay Steve, we can take this slow and give this a try...I want to try with you." I finish while he gives me a smile and I bring his face to mine to give him a lite kiss.

"So I guess this means we won't be sleeping together for little while then..." He said with a smirk on his face.

"Well, lets not go that far." I responded with an flirty grin.

"How did we end up on the floor anyways?" He asks looking around.

"I have no idea." I giggle as I bend my head down to nibble on his shoulder a little bit. My mind starts wandering back to earlier in the night, we really went at each other hard but God it was hot! His lips are red from me constantly biting them and both of us have red marks all over our bodies and I'm still sore!

"I hope your neighbors didn't hear us." He sighed.

"Uh, who cares at this point, it was amazing." I hum before kissing his pecks, neck and shoulder while he rubs the back of my head.

"Yeah, it was." He agreed as he plants a kiss on my forehead. "I didn't really hurt you did I?" He asked worriedly, I stop what I am doing for a second and look up at him.

"No, you didn't. Did I hurt you?" I answered with a smirk. He didn't say anything, he just shook his head no with a smirk of his own. I go back to running my hands on his shoulders and biceps while kissing his chest and neck. "You do realize you have to clean up the mess you made." I breathed in between kisses.

"What mess." He asks with his eyes closed enjoying my assault on his body.

"What mess? Look at my kitchen!" I snap my head up as he gives a confused look. He sits up, raising me up with him.

We look to see broken glass, food, papers all over the kitchen floor. We had moved my fridge, the door was open a little bit, condiments and other liquids in jars were broken and dripping out of it and pots, pans and some more dishes were either broken or on the floor. We look further then that and see we had knocked over my small book case, the frame picture on the hallway wall was shattered to pieces.

"We did all that?" He asked confused.

"No, you did that." I answered with a grin.

"We have got to stop acting like animals in heat!" He breathes out.

I don't say anything at first, he's still sitting up looking around the apartment when I start to ride him a little bit while kissing his neck.

"Why?" I whisper in his ear.

"Because...we're not...animals...we should...be able to..." He tries to say but it's just mumbles, he gives a low groan and kisses my neck and thrusts up in me, he caresses my hips and helps me ride him. He's moaning, "you feel so good." He breathes into my ear as I ride him.

"So do you." I whisper in his ear before wrapping my arms under his arms holding onto his shoulders kissing them and pushing myself down onto him more. He brings both hands behind my head and guides my lips back to his and then immediately puts one hand high up my back between my shoulder blades while the other went on my lower back/ass stroking me and I grip onto him tighter as I moan into his mouth.

Without warning he stands up with me still attached to him and with us still passionately kissing he starts to walk. "Where are we going?" I moan between kisses wrapping my arms around his head and raking my fingers through his hair.

"The bedroom...the one place we didn't make love in yet tonight." He's only able to say through moans, I smile and we finally make it into the bedroom. He lays me down in the middle of the bed, he stops kissing and looks me in the eye and put his hand on my face, "God your beautiful." I can't speak, a single tear goes down my cheek and he wipes it away with his thumb. I just kiss him again while he quickly but slowly enters me and thrusts, I grab the sheets above my head to hold on to as I arch my back and raise my knees higher to match his thrusts. He slowly ran his hands up my arms and intertwines our fingers and I cling to them. Our thrusts start to go deeper but still going the same speed. We both let go of our hands, "you won't leave me?" I desperately ask. He holds my face with both hands and looks me directly in the eyes, "never...I'm yours," he softly but firmly assured before kissing me again. I hold onto him so tight while he does the exact same thing to me as we move as one and we continue to make love for hours.

Steve was right, he terrifies me...every time he kisses me, looks into my eyes or smiles my past just seems to disappear. Even though I have been in a lot of relationships I have never felt like this with any one of them. Maybe that's why I pushed him away the other morning and panicked the way I did, maybe I'm more afraid of this actually working out and terrified that I'm not good enough for him. I honestly don't deserve love, especially from how I have been treating him. I mean I don't deserve to be with Captain America, he could be with anyone he wants, why me? I am no one special, I'm damaged goods. But as much as I just want him to go away and end this before I go in any deeper and torture myself, before he figures out what I really am I just can't seem to do so. I've tried to fight it, I've tried pushing him away but he is so damn persistent and thank God for that! When he told me he would respect my wishes and stay away from me if I asked him to I knew I couldn't let that happen...I actually felt sick to my stomach at the mere thought of him not being in my life! Hell every time I'm not with him I miss him, even when I know I'll see him the next day...I've missed him just these past few days while avoiding him. I realized I can't let him go, he pulls me to him like a drug...I need and want him so much...I don't want to lose him...hell I almost did! I have to stop running away from my feelings, stop lying to myself and just go with it and give him and us a chance. God I hope I am right about him!


Yay! She's going to give him and chance and take it slow!