Steve's Thoughts

(Steve POV)

Steve wakes up feeling a body rub against him, he smiles as he looks down and sees Iris sleeping with her head on his shoulder peacefully, he's looking directed at her, she looked stunning with the sunlight catching her face and making her hair shine, he gets a whiff of her scent...she smells so good. God, he really is falling in love with this beautiful woman! He ran the back of his knuckles on the side of her cheek. He takes a deep breath...he was still reeling from last night.

Before he went to talk to Iris he was fully planning on taking Natasha's advice and show her he wasn't going anywhere. He wanted to be calm and understanding even though those hurtful things she said kept repeating in his head but he kept shaking it off, telling himself to not let it upset him again. Before he knocked on her door he took a deep breath and told himself to not let her call the shots, that she would hear what he had to say...even if that means having to give her some tough love, he was not going to back down. Then she opened the door and she looked breathtaking! He didn't know why he found her so attractive when she glared at him and that's exactly what she was doing. She was wearing the shortest pink skirt and her matching shirt wasn't hiding much of her amazing breasts but he put it in the back of his mind and wasn't going to lose focus.

He barely got two words in when her big mouth went off and she hurt him even more and he totally snapped! He had never talked that way before and it scared but thrilled him. The way she was pressed up against him, her chest heaving in and out, not even realizing that she was rubbing against him so seductively and he just couldn't take it anymore! In amazement she was turned on just as much as he was, he saw it in her eyes before they attacked each other. He exhaled in relief, it was nice getting it out, after everything he's been through he had so much pent up aggression, not just from her but everything. The only time he could ever get it out was punching a punching bag but sometimes that wasn't enough, it was all very therapeutic.

They acted like animals, his body was tingling just thinking about it. What was with them? They did something similar the night before too, sure it wasn't as aggressive as last night but it was still really intense and animalistic. How did she turn him into such a sexfiend that craved her touch and yearned to be inside her? He couldn't get enough of her body pressing against his, almost like they were morphing as one. She doesn't even know that he's never had sex before her. How did he know what to do? How did he know how to please her with his hands and mouth and know where to touch at just the right spot? Other than bossing him around (another turn on) she didn't have to tell him what to do once and he knew exactly how to make her go wild! Why wasn't he more nervous or intimidated being that she was far more experienced then he was? What they did last night...that was not something Captain America should be doing...it was dirty, wrong and not gentlemanly...but it felt so damn good! He couldn't wrap his head around how turned on he was when she would bite or scratch him and from her moans and responses she got off it to. Man his mother would have been appalled! God, she was going to be the death of him!

He was a little taken back and so happy when she actually finally agreed to try and go slow with him and give them a chance. She brought out feelings in him that he never thought he could feel. He did love Peggy once and in a way she'll always have a place in his heart but with Iris it's different. After Wanda showed him his vision he was convinced that he could never have the white picket fence and live a normal, happy life...to find someone he could really connect with and he finally accepted that and was fully committed to being Captain America for as long as he could...I mean what else was there to leave the fight for? Of course that all changed when he went jogging and saved this amazing woman!

He noticed when she would sleep her eyebrows would crunch, like she was dreaming about something intense and not in a good way. He had to admit when she told him about her past boyfriends that she may have been exaggerating a bit, I mean what man would harm her in any way? When she went into more detail about what her last boyfriend did to her he became secretly enraged and wanted to go after him and every man that hurt her. He saw how scared she truly was of him after three years. He knew he had to do everything he could to make sure that didn't happen and she needed to feel protected and safe.

It helped him understand more why she pushed him away like she did the other morning and he knew he couldn't push or force her to be with him and he would respect her wishes if she told him to leave, he would be very heartbroken but respect it nonetheless. He was not going to mess up this time and move too fast, she needed to realize on her own that she could truly trust him completely and that he would never hurt her in anyway. He looked at her again and saw her eyebrows crunch again, he put the back of his hand on her cheek and her face changed, her lips starts to morph into a smile. This was the third time he saw that happen, the second he would put his hand on her faces she became calmer and that just made him fall more in love with her.

He couldn't shake this feeling though that told him she was still hiding something from her past, something bigger then anything else she has confessed to him but again he was not going to push her. He touched her face again, gently outlining her lips, she gave a smile "...Steve," she mumbled in her sleep, he smiles and gives her a little peck on the lips that she returned back while she still slept. "Don't screw this up Steve." he thought to himself before drifting back to sleep.


I hope you liked this chapter, I know this is a little bit of a filler chapter but I thought it was important to know some of Steve's thoughts about their heated night!