Taking A Break?

(Iris POV)

I thought kissing Steve with a beard would feel a little weird but it's not, it feels nice...it makes my lips tickle and I love that feeling and I also love running my fingers through his soft hair. As amazing as it feels to kiss him again this was all happening too fast, he had only come back into my life a few hours ago and I should still be mad at him and I realize I still am mad at him...he left and was gone for 2 years without a word! I understand that he was only trying to protect me but it doesn't take away the past year feeling...abandoned, so alone, heartbroken and betrayed.

"Wait Steve..." I breathe out as I pull his body away from mine, "this is all happening too fast." He exhales as I step away from him to create distance. I know what will happen if I'm too close to him.

"Okay...I understand...I'm sorry." He breathes softly.

"No I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lead you on..."

"No, don't be..." He replies putting a piece of my hair behind my ear, "I shouldn't have kissed you like...I just..." He doesn't finish his sentence, he wanted to say more but he left it at that.

Damn he's making this really hard! "I understand why you left, really I do but...it's just..." I can't find my words, "...Steve, this is not going to work...and I'm not sure if it ever will...I need some time." It's very difficult to tell him this, I try to stay strong but a few tears start to run down my cheeks.

"How much time?" He asked me for a little hope.

"...I don't know...but for now we just need to take a break..." I answer as he nods his head accepting my answer but looking away from me, "Steve..."

"Iris, I get it...I really do...as long as your safe that's all I care about...I knew it would be a long shot..." He says with a smile that held such sadness in them, it was like I was breaking his heart.

"I'm sorry..."

"Don't be." He softly replied, he was going to gently touch my face but he retracts it and instead rubs my arms to warm them, "you look freezing, I'll go outside and get some wood to make a fire." I shake my head.

After he steps outside I put my hand over my mouth to stop myself from crying but can't, I feel guilty but I have to be honest. As much as I want to be with him I don't know if I could ever fully trust him again and it's not fair to him or me if I stay with these feelings and thoughts in my head. It doesn't help that after all this time he still has this strong pull over me and it's scaring the hell out of me! It broke my heart to see that look on his face as he tried to be understanding for me.

As I am going through all these thoughts I hear a phone buzz, it was on the kitchen counter, it's Steve's...should I answer it? He never minded before but things were different now...I hesitate, I wipe the tears from my eyes and take a deep breath and I pick it up and answer it.

"Hello?" I answer hesitantly.

"Hello?" The voice asks back confusingly, "Iris?"

"Yeah."

"It's Natasha."

"Oh, hi."

"Is Steve there?" She asks me.

"Yeah but he's getting firewood from outside."

"Oh okay, yeah that place gets cold at night."

"You've been here?" I ask her.

"Yeah, the night we left we stayed there for a few days." She answers, "I was just calling to let him know that so far we're in the clear but just to be safe we'll keep our distance for a little bit longer." She tells me.

"Okay...Natasha, thanks for saving my life tonight."

"Your welcome...if it wasn't for Steve we never would have found out you were in trouble."

"Yeah, he mentioned that." I say softly.

"I see you two made up!" She guessed excitedly.

"Well...we talked and...I know why you guys had to leave but...it's not going to work." I confess, I don't know why I was telling her all this but maybe I just needed to talk to someone.

"What do you mean?" She asked confused.

"It's just...he left and I went through the two years thinking he abandoned me or was hurt...I can't just get over that...I just don't know if I could ever trust him again, he broke my heart." I explain softly, "I told him that I needed time, that we need to take a break and I wasn't sure about us ever getting back together..." Steve walks in with wood and starts to make the fire, "as difficult as it is." I finish telling her trying to be quiet looking at him.

"Iris...I know its none of my business but I think your being selfish." She quite coldly confessed.

"Excuse me?" I reply shocked trying to not get too upset so Steve doesn't hear, I want to tell her to fuck off and indeed it's none of her business!

"You are just thinking about yourself and what you went through. Do you have any idea what leaving you did to him? The second he left you he changed, he became dark and hardened. Sam and I have never seen him like that before. All he would do was find Hydra bases, put his life on the line when we did find a base and risked being captured at any moment. He never thought about himself he just thought about protecting you, he knew you wouldn't forgive him but it never stopped him. When he wasn't fighting Hydra he was down the basement punching his punching bags until his knuckles bled. The only time he smiled was the moment he saw your picture that Hill took not too long ago...Do you know the risk he is taking now but saving you tonight? And being back here? Do you even realize why they were trying to capture him to begin with? They plan to brainwash him and turn him into a emotionless killing machine like Bucky. He loves you...he never stopped." She ranted in one long sentence.

I'm speechless the whole time through her rant, no words can come out. I just stand there looking at Steve leaning down making the fire, "really?" Is all I could get out.

"Yes! Iris...he's been a broken man." She replies softly, I just can't stop looking at him, "why do you think he stopped shaving and cutting his hair? He just didn't care, he just cared about getting back to you."

"Yeah...okay, I gotta go." I quickly hang up on her.

After hearing all that Steve went through something is happening to me...I don't know maybe Natasha snapped me out of my own self-pity because everything is becoming clear to me, "okay, the cabin should start warming up in no time." He spoke softly trying to stay upbeat and not showing being upset about our earlier conversation. He walks to the couch, "If it will make you feel more comfortable I can sleep on the couch." I don't know why but that's all I need, he picks up a pillow and blanket that was already on the couch starting to make a little bed for himself. I don't say a word, I just walk right up to him and never hesitate or pause, I snatch the stuff out of his hands throwing them on the ground and grab his face kissing him with all the passion I can. He's not really kissing back, he's confused and shocked. "Iris...Iris...I thought you said..." He starts to say as he's stopping me from kissing him.

"I know what I said...I was wrong." I breathe out and just kiss his face, chin and back up to his lips.

"Iris...I think your emotional and I don't..." Every time he tries to stop it just makes me want him more!

"Steve...please just kiss me." He gives up and wraps his arms fully around me and kisses me back passionately. I run my fingers through his hair using my tongue to open his mouth which he accepts greatly, our bodies are pressed together so tight.

The kiss becomes so heated, he moves his lips to my chin then to my neck while I massage his scalp and raise my leg up a little trying everything I can to get even closer then I already am, I moan as I throw my head back giving him more access. "I missed you so much." He breathes in my earlobe as he kisses and nibbles it, he put one hand on my upper thigh and wraps it around his hip and massages it, he put his other hand in my pants rubbing and squeezing my ass. "Oh God I missed you too." I moan. I almost forgot how amazing his mouth and hands were, they always drove me crazy.

I'm grinding on him as he keeps lifting up my thigh higher in the air as I am on my tiptoes with the other leg...l need more...I'm still not close enough! He must have thought the same thing because he suddenly takes his hand out of my pants and puts both of them on my upper thighs and hoists me up so my legs are completely around his waist and immediately brings both hands back inside my pants stroking my ass, I moan in his ear.

He begins walking us to the bedroom but I couldn't and wouldn't stop kissing his neck and face so instead he sits me on the kitchen counter, my legs are still wrapped around him. I bring his mouth back to mine and he pulls up my shirt and I let him take it off. After it's off he runs one hand down my front until he strokes my hip/thigh sensually while the other is stroking one of my breasts, bringing his hand inside my bra. God, his hands feel so good! I am trying to take off the top half of his suit but I can't without being able to see it very well and it's hard to concentrate, he starts to help me. After taking off the tight t-shirt underneath his suit I begin to kiss, rub and scratch his neck, shoulders and pecks. God I missed this body! He takes my face in his hands and brings our lips back together as he shoves his tongue down my throat as he starts taking off my pants as I am trying to unbuckle his belt.

He caresses my thighs as he starts to kiss my neck for a few minutes before kissing down my body, he kisses and rubs each breast through my bra and keeps going lower. He drops to his knees, puts his hands behind my knees and forcefully shoves my body more towards him, my ass is even closer to the edge of the counter. He kisses with his tongue my upper inner thighs, I softly moan, wanting him to go higher. He suddenly moves my undies to the side and begins to eat me out by bringing his tongue in first, I begin to hold onto the edges of the countertop. He puts both my legs around his head as he is now able to go inside me more, he is still rubbing the back of my thighs. I arch my body and lean back a little so he can go in even deeper, the friction from his beard causes a whole new feeling that I have never felt. He doesn't let up, he just keeps licking, kissing, sucking and biting, I am moaning so loud. He out of nowhere inserts 3 fingers in me, "Steve! Oh fuck!" I shout. I need to pull on something, the countertops are not enough so I bring one of my arms up and pull on my own hair while the other pulls his hair. I arch my bottom half and am humping his face helping with pushing his face and fingers more in me. I suddenly feel his thumb, I cum hard! "Oh God! Fuck me Steve! Fuck me!" I shout.

He stands up quickly and is about to take me off the counter but I stop him. "No now, I can't wait! I need you now!" I quickly demand as I am trying to pull down his pants while he lifts me off the counter just enough to pull down my undies. He pulls my knees to him even more and my ass is half off the counter as he doesn't even bother waiting for his pants to be pulled all the way down before thrusting in me hard! My head goes back and he kisses my neck. He rips off my bra and begins sucking my nipple while rubbing the other one. He is nibbling and flicking my nipple with his tongue. "Oh God! Yes!" I moan as I am scratching his chest, pecks and shoulder. I know I am going to bruise from the counter but I don't care.

While he is still sucking and rubbing my breasts he wraps one of his arms around me lifting me off the counter with my legs still around him. He starts walking but hasn't stopped kissing or rubbing my breasts, I keep running my fingers through his hair, trying to thrust in him but with not much luck because he had me up so high from sucking on me but I wasn't complaining, it feels amazing! It was always such a turn on when he showcased his superhuman strength when we had sex, I felt like I was light as a feather.

We don't really know where we're going and I'm desperate for him to be inside me again, I run my hand down, stroke and squeeze him hard, he groans loud. He slams me hard against the hallway wall and he's immediately inside me again. We are going so fast, his hands are on my ass while mine scratch up and down his back. He suddenly put my feet on the floor and I thought for a second he was going to stop, I'm about to say something until he hooked his hand behind one of my thighs lifting it in the air and immediately put it around his hip and thrusts in me again, it causes him to get into a new position inside me. He will lift my leg higher and higher and every time he brings my leg up he goes in deeper that causes me to moan louder and louder. He rubs my ass again and began to put his fingertips inside me from behind, it was a tease, that bastard! "Oh God!" I moan as I bite his shoulder and hug his body to mine, we are rubbing our bodies together so tight as he continues to tease and pleasure me, we're pounding on the wall so hard, I hear him moan loudly. I move away from the wall and guide him to the bedroom.

We finally get there and I decide I'm going to be a little tease, "stay right there." I breathe as I lick his lips while I run my finger down his bottom lip. I won't let him kiss me and I walk slowly to the bed making him stay right where he is and I sway my hips. I look back at him every once in a while, his eyes are filled with lust and determination, I love teasing him! I bend over VERY slowly and crawl on the bed on all fours VERY slowly while my back is to him, I spread my legs wider arching my back.

I suddenly feel two hands on my shoulders forcing me to go on my knees, "hey...I wasn't..." I start to pout because I wasn't done with my teasing but he stops me by turning my face quickly and kissing me immediately, bringing his tongue deep in my mouth sucking on my bottom lip, that shut me up real quick! I bring my arm up behind me and caress the back of his neck. While he's standing up off the bed and still kissing me he brings his arms around me and caresses both of my breasts, he's squeezing them hard. I'm still on my knees on the edge of the bed and while he's pleasuring my breasts he takes one of his hands and slowly runs it down my body but then real quickly puts his whole fucking hand in me! He then starts to fuck me from behind aggressively. The sounds I'm making change from moans to full fledged shouts and screams, thank God we're in the middle of nowhere! I'm helping him pleasure me...I feel my own fingers inside me, our fingers intertwine and God it's driving m crazy! Every time I pull on his hair he will thrust and squeeze my breast harder and all while fucking his hand as fast as I can and grind my ass on his manhood by arching my back. Thank God I am flexible! I go on all fours and crawl more onto the bed and he effortless follows me without ever losing his pace. I'm able to grind my backside more by using my hands to push with, he pulls on my hair yanking it back, "oh Fuck! God Iris!" He shouts loudly as he holds my hips which helps him fuck me faster. The room is the smell of sweat, heat and the echos of our heaving moans. I feel him move my hair to the side of my shoulder and kisses my back, he strokes one of my shoulders near my neck as the other stays holding my hip. My mouth is wide open with my eyes shut so tight loving every minute of it!

I soon flip myself around so I'm on my back again, I pull him down by the back of his neck and kiss him again, he puts both hands on the sides of my head through my hair while he I keep arching my back for him to go harder but it's just not enough...I can't get enough! "That's it? Is that all you got? Come on, show me what you got!" I challenge with authority.

"Are you seriously trying to challenge me?" Steve asked very assumed, he spreads my legs wider and so much so I'm practically doing the splits.

"Yeah...(I evilly smirk)...Fuck me Steve! Fuck me harder! Harder! Faster!" I yell very loudly as I am clawing his shoulders leaving marks, I hear him hiss in pain but a very pleasurable pain. It causes him to go onto his knees bringing my bottom half with him and goes so hard that my hips and ass are completely off the mattress, he's holding my hips and ass in the air. My head keeps hitting the headboard hard but who cares! I hold onto the headboard using it to push myself to match his thrusts and I cum hard and I feel him cum with me. He lets me go and I go limp back on the mattress and we both just collapse and he lays on me. We're holding each other breathless, covered in sweat and he's laying his head right down my chest, I'm softly stroking his back. "Shit!" I hear him say.

"I know." I can only make out, I'm still trying to control my breathing.

He brings his head back up and kisses me again, I hold both sides of his face kissing him back. He lays his head back down and we both drifted off to sleep.


Were you worried there for a moment? She's going to have to thank Natasha for giving her some tough love! And they needed to let that out, making up for lost time!