Is this story any good so far gentle readers?

I need at least one other review! I must know what you guys think!

Yeah, well here's another chapter. Oh and if I get any names wrong forgive me, I know them I just have trouble spelling them. Yeah love Japanese people to death but their names are super hard.

Super super hard… --;

And I took down that stupid dream prologue thing, that thing was stupid too so maybe you guys can just pretend it was never there…

Argh…

"There really pretty Shinji." Shinji smiled at Misato's comment. "The flowers yeah, there red like Asuka's hair." He clutched the bouquet tighter. "I hope she likes them." Misato nodded. "Shinji, I want you to expect Asuka to be, well, I just don't want you to get your hopes high. She's very sick Shinji, and she probably won't recognize much of anything." Misato place her tiny hand on Shinji's shoulder.

"But at least were allowed visitation you know? Commander Ikari could have specifically made it so nobody would ever see her again." Shinji huffed in annoyance at the mention of him. "It surprised me when there was no ban on seeing her, I mean he enjoys torturing everyone else around him after all." Misato clenched down on Shinji's shoulder painfully. "There will be none of that kind of talk alright. Let's just pray this is a pleasant visit."

She released her grip on his shoulder as they entered the hospital. A nurse at the entrance helped them get orientated and to the appropriate doctor. He was an older gentleman, short, a little less than Misato, and a little on the pudgy side. His black hair was thinning, and he was starting to get folds in his eyes. But he looked friendly despite his profession. He reached his hand out. The other held a small metal clipboard.

"I'm doctor Ito Hiroshi, and I've been hoping that someone would come visit Miss Soryu for a while now. If I may say so she's a very interesting young girl, I was hoping she wasn't all alone." Misato took his hand and shook it. "Yes well were here now, it's just been hard these last few weeks." Shinji kept his eyes focused on the flowers, beautiful red roses he had gotten that morning.

He had no interest in this doctor. "Miss Soryu is in her room right now, I'm sure it would be okay if you were to visit her there. Uh but I'm afraid only one at a time, I don't want to upset her with to much stimulation." Misato shook her head, "That's okay, Shinji can go see her, and I was just going to wait here anyway." That surprised Shinji and he looked at her but saw a little formation of tears in her eyes and understood.

She was scared to see Asuka, scared to see what she might have become, scared and saddened. The doctor nodded and looked at Shinji. "Well let's go then, your mother will be fine here in the waiting room." Shinji blushed a little; he had called Misato his mother. Misato smiled, it was sort of true in a way. He opened the doors for Shinji and led him down a bright and depressing hall.

Doors on either side of them and a few scattered nurses here and there. The doctor turned and led him down another hall, the same as the last but Shinji could just feel the presence of Asuka here. "She's the last door here." Shinji nodded but the doctor couldn't see. They made it in front of her door. It was white, like the hall, very boring, and the number 1-15 was above it on a small pale brown plaque. Beside it were papers and files in a little plastic holder, from what Shinji saw they were all about Asuka.

The doctor opened the door and had Shinji step in with him. Unlike the outside this room was dark, the only real light came from the cracked window shade. It was still pretty visible though. "Miss Soryu, you have a visitor." Asuka, who was sitting on the bed shifted. "Can you turn on the light so I can see whoever it is." Ito flipped a switch by Shinji and smiled at him. "I'll give you some privacy, say ten minutes before I check in?"

Shinji nodded in approval. "He brought you flowers to Miss Soryu." The doctor left them and shut the door behind him. Asuka's blue eyes fluttered up to Shinji. "It's you." the un-amusement evident in her voice, "Yes it's me Asuka, I wanted to see you." Shinji found a chair and sat himself in it at the foot of her bed. "Oh and you did bring me flowers to!" She scooted a little closer to him.

"That makes me just want to vomit." She then grinned a big smile of pleasure. Shinji frowned. "I just thought they would make you feel better today. I wanted to do something nice for you." Asuka stretched and cracked her knuckles. "If I remember correctly you're the reason I'm here in the first place. So tell me how some stupid flowers, given by you no less, are going to make me feel better."

Shinji sighed; this wasn't what he had in mind at all. "Well I'm giving them to you anyway." He stood and approached a small desk sitting by Asuka's bed placing the flowers on top of them. "They need a vase, I'm sure I can get you one too." Asuka snorted at his comment. "Don't bother I'm not expecting to see you again." Shinji turned around to look at her. "Why not!"

"Oh look at me I'm so scared! The great Shinji who always saves the day is yelling at me! You think your special to me Shinji? Hardly, I don't worship you like everybody else, that pisses you off doesn't it?" Asuka moved off of the bed to stand next to Shinji. "I don't want you to visit me, I don't want you to come near me, stay away from me! I'm crazy after all right? Don't you know not to fuck with a crazy person? But Shinji you're so stupid after all right, maybe I should-

"Shut up!" Shinji interrupted. "I'm trying to be nice to you Asuka, I'm trying to cope with what I did! You, you just sit here day in and day out sulking because you say I stole your purpose, trust me I don't feel any kind of pride in that. I hated the Eva's, I truly did, I only did it to try and pretend like I myself had a reason for living, like maybe my life would matter if I held the power to save or damn man. That and I wanted my father's attention, so badly."

"I wanted it so very badly." Shinji could feel tears in the corners of his eyes.

"I see, then Shinji your even more pathetic than I thought. When I piloted the Eva I did it for nobody but me, I did it to be stronger, I did it to prove that I could keep fighting in this world. Nobody else ever liked me, and I was okay s long as I had a purpose, at least I could tolerate myself. You, you can't even pretend to do that and that's why your going to kill yourself in the end and I'm going to laugh over your dead corpse."

Shinji fell silent. What could he say to this? This was all some bullshit anyway. Shinji instinctively touched the bandages on his arms, his burns. "Aw and what's this Shinji have a boo-boo? What did you fall?" Asuka squealed. "How nice, the great Shinji can actually fall like everyone else too, what's next, wonder-girl Rei will actually talk? I can't wait!"

"You know Asuka you have a very big mouth." Shinji interrupted yet again.

"And it says really mean things all the time." Asuka crossed her arms and glared at Shinji.

"What if I didn't want to hear it anymore, what if nobody wanted to hear it anymore. What if I broke your face so you couldn't talk anymore."

Asuka walked over to Shinji till they were just barely apart. "You want to hurt me? Go ahead and try, you can't hurt me, you're weak, Shinji and your to dumb too. I could be killing you right now and all you would do is curl into a ball and cry, you make me sick to my stomach. I hate weakness, especially in men. Shinji and your one of the weakest ones I have ever met, how is it that your this legendary prodigy and I'm nothing!"

Asuka shoved Shinji once, twice, three times. "You can't do anything, you make empty threats, you won't hurt me because your to scared. Why the fuck are you so special! It's not fair, there's absolutely nothing special about you at all! I hate you! I fucking hate you, I wish you would just die so I wouldn't even have to hear about you anymore! Wouldn't have to think about you, waste my time all on you, maybe I could even get out of this damn hospital!"

She shoved Shinji so hard he fell on his ass and slammed his arm against the tiny desk. It stung violently on his burn. "How do you like it on the floor? I really do think it suits you." Shinji rubbed on his wound not saying anything. "Now get up and leave me alone to rot in peace." Her gaze never left Shinji. It never left him when he stood, and it never left him as he pressed himself to her grinning. "Asuka can I tell you something since whatever I say can't possibly get you more upset?"

"Sometimes at night when I sleep your all I can dream about. We do all sorts of things, I like the one where your bent over the bed. Sometimes I think about you in the shower so I just pretend you suck me off when my hand creeps down there. Sometimes though I dream about more violent things, like one I had the other night when I sawed your hands off."

Shinji coiled his hand into a fist and slugged Asuka hard across the face. She fell onto the bed and clutched her bruised cheek. "Sometimes I just want to kill you and keep you under my bed so I'll never miss you again." His eyes widened and his face became almost sick looking. "Asuka, we can just pretend you fell right?" She looked at Shinji and began to scream.