Rating: R I don't think it's that bad but better safe than sorry.

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JmQt831: The reason why people already have reviewed 11 chapters is cuz i have posted this story once but took it down to revise the chapters and add some new ones. I did this cuz I wasn't too happy with how it was written earlier. This time it's a new chapter.

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Chapter 8

The following days went by the same way with both Haley and Lucas fighting to come to some kind of decision. As a consequence they isolate themselves more and more especially Haley, who is fighting a losing battle against her morning sickness and is scared to death that someone will find out her big secret before she is ready. Peyton and Lucas' relationship are not going well and since they have barely spent any time together, she is getting more frustrated by the minute.

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It's Saturday evening and Haley has once again opted for a night at home in sweatpants and is currently laying on her bed going over some of the brochures regarding abortion they got at the appointment.

Abortion

There are two different kinds of methods to have an abortion. Either you can have a medical or a surgical.

Surgical abortion is also called D&C (vacuum aspiration). The procedure takes 10-20 minutes and most women can go back to their normal activities already the following day. This method involves minor surgery without incision but anaesthesia can be used.

Medical abortion reminds of a miscarriage. At first you will get either a dose of mifepristonepills or an injection of methotrexate. Then you'll get a pill called misoprostol. Most of this can be done at the woman's home. The whole process from the intake of the first pills to the abortion is complete takes a couple of days.

A knock on the door scares Haley back to her current surroundings, which isn't a good thing given her situation.

X- What the hell? I'm suppose to be home alone! -X

She quickly jumps off the bed and tries to find a hiding place for all the brochures, but before she has found a good one there is another knock on the door.

X- Oh shit -X

"Just a minute"

She hurriedly shuffles them underneath the bed praying that whoever is at the door won't look in that highly unoriginal place and lays back on top of the bed in a casual manner.

"Come in".

The door opens and reveals none other than Lucas. Upon seeing him Haley immediately lets out a breath she didn't even know she was holding.

"Thank God it's just you... Wait a minute, how did you get in?"

"With these."

Lucas dangles his copy of her keys in front of her.

"Right... I forgot you still have those."

"Yeah, well what can I say? They come in handy sometimes. So what's cooking?"

"Not much. I'm just reading the brochures we got from Planned Parenthood. Care to join me?".

"And to think I was going to stay home", Lucas answers her sarcastically.

"Oh shut up".

Haley throws a pillow at him, which he unfortunately for her catches easily but instead of engaging in an all out pillow fight Lucas simply puts the pillow behind him before turning back to Haley.

"So where is this reading?"

"Huh?"

"The brochures Hales? And people call me absentminded"

"Oh right, they're underneath the bed. I thought you were mom, so I hid them, I'll get them."

She fishes them out and hands some to Lucas.

"Here you go".

"Thanks."

Lucas places himself on the bed next to her and starts reading.

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Half hour later they both have finished their respective reading and the room is resting in silence until Lucas breaks it.

"Interesting, detailed, reading".

"Mmm"

"But don't you think we ought to go a little on feeling, you know what we want and not just facts".

"Facts are always good to have Luke. This isn't a fairytale, it's reality and I for one would like to know the facts about the different options I or we have before I make up my mind, which I have by the way".

"You have what?" Lucas asks surprised.

"I've something for you", Haley says instead of answering him and before he has a chance to call her on it she gets up and takes something from her dresser before she starts explaining to a clueless Lucas.

"Remember the assignment we got in class the other day? The one where we were to write a letter to someone", Haley stops to see if Lucas is still with her and when she sees him nodding she continues." I addressed mine to you and it contains some of my thoughts about my pregnancy and you. But some things have changed since then but… O God I'm making any sense am I? Basically what I'm trying to say is that I've made up my mind about what I want to do".

"And that is?"

"Classified until you've made your choice. I wouldn't want you to go all Hugh Grant in Nine Months on me".

"Huh?"

"Sorry I just watched that movie yesterday. Anyway he didn't tell his girlfriend he didn't want the baby cuz she wanted it and I want you to say exactly want you want without any pressure from me"

" Aha, And what if what I want isn't what you want?"

"Why don't we cross that bridge when and if we come to it, Ok?.".

"I don't get it. How can you be so calm right now?"

"Because I know what I have to do. Don't get me wrong, it has been far from easy. I've probably changed my mind at least a hundred times a day but the thing that was decisive for me was a mother and a baby I saw on the bus yesterday. I just sat there and watched their interaction, ya know how she tried to calm him down because let me tell you that kid was screaming bloody murder. I watched how hard she had to struggle and she looked so exhausted, but when she finally got this content look on the baby's face she wore one that mirrored her son's. It made me feel sure about the decision I was leaning at already before that episode."

After finishing talking Haley takes her teddy bear and cuddles up at the head of the bed watching Lucas's reaction to what she just said. Lucas just sits there in complete silence trying to gather his thoughts and being totally floored by how at peace Haley is with her decision and wonders why he can't have that moment of clarity. At the same time he knows deep down what is the right thing for them to do, but can't bring himself to decide a 100 on that course of action.

"A penny for your thoughts" Haley tries to get him to open up.

"Sorry, guess I zoned out there".

"You think", Haley replies sarcastic.

"Well excuse me for breathing".

"Let's not do this now."

"You're right" Lucas signs wondering why all he does lately is trying to pick a fight with Haley, Peyton or whoever happens to be in his presence.

"So how do you feel about all this? I mean we haven't really talked about it in a while. Has anything changed?"

"Let's worry about it tomorrow".

"Come on Luke. We can't procrastinate this much longer; time is running out and I…"

Lucas silences her with a kiss but after the initial surprise Haley pulls away.

"Damn it Luke! You, we can't keep doing this!" she almost screams at him pointing between them.

"Doing what?" Lucas innocently asks as he starts kissing her on the neck.

"I'm serious here!"

At this point Haley abruptly pushes him off her, gets up and walks to her desk on the other side of the room to get away but no such luck because Lucas follows her. When he reaches Haley he forces her to look him in the eye.

"So am I. I love you Haley James and I really want to see where this is going. That is if you feel the same".

"I do. But what about Peyton?" Haley weakly protests as Lucas launches on that spot that makes her legs tremble.

"Shush, let me worry about her", Lucas answers putting a silencing finger against her lips.

"But..."

"No buts"

Lucas lifts Haley up and carries her to the bed, where he starts kissing her again and this time she lets him.

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The next morning when Lucas wakes up he finds the bed next to him empty.

"Hales, where are you?" he calls out

"I'm here."

A very exhausted and ghostlike looking Haley enters the room, wearing his sweater and lays down next to him with closed eyes.

"Where were you?"

"Take a wild guess".

"Again?"

"Well, it's called morning sickness for a reason."

"Yeah, but you're throwing up like 24-7."

"Yeah, but the mornings are the worst".

"Sounds fun."

"Oh it's a blast and let's not forget about the sore breasts, the constant need to pee and the dizziness. And for the love of all good and pure in the world stop moving you're making me seasick."

"Sorry. It's just I'm hungry."

"Well I'm not but you know where the kitchen is."

Lucas gets up and pulls his sweats on before he goes downstairs to get something to eat. Haley then immediately upon his departure situates herself flat on her back in the middle of the bed with closed eyes hoping to avoid another trip to the bathroom.

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Not before long Lucas shows up again with a sandwich and a cup of java. Haley feels her hopes getting shattered as the smell of coffee fills the room and makes her stomach turn inside out again.

"Get rid of that coffee", she screams as she heads for her second home these days, the bathroom floor.

When she comes back Lucas has thankfully emptied the cup.

"Sorry, didn't know java had that effect on you".

"Well, now you do."

"Just one question".

"Shoot".

"How can you still work at mom's café if one cup has that effect on you."

"Your mom does all the coffee and a certain amounts of visits to the bathroom" she says with a smirk as she sinks down on the bed laying on her side.

Lucas positions himself on his side behind her putting his hand on her stomach and in this spoon like position they fall asleep.

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Hours later they wake up to the sound of a door slamming shut and look up only to see a fuming Mrs James just inside of it.

"What the hell is going on here!"

TBC

All the information in this chapter about abortion is from Planned Parenthood's website and since I have no personal experience from the subject I only write the way things are in my little fantasy world but what I want to do is not to make it all happiness as many other fanfics do.