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Season: Any
Spoilers: None
Character/s: Sam Carter and Jack O'Neill
Pairing: Sam/Jack
Author's Note: I heard this song and thought how true it can be at times and thought it would fit Sam and Jack nicely. This is based on Terri Clark's – I Just Wanna Be Mad. Sorry it's so short but it's all the muse would let me write. Enjoy…
I Just Wanna Be Mad
I woke up this morning and all I could see was the bedroom wall. I wondered why I wasn't spooned in front of you, and then I remembered. We'd argued last night and gone to bed not talking. We'd already said too much in anger. I faced the wall and you faced the window so that we wouldn't touch in the night. Very childish but that was what we did.
Still feeling the anger coursing through my veins I got out of bed and went downstairs - despite the early hour I knew I would not get back to sleep. I made coffee and sat on the kitchen side and contemplated my life. If someone had told me 10 years ago that this is where I would be I would have laughed out loud at them.
We've been married for seven years now, sometimes it feels like twenty-one. I suppose that feeling comes from all the years we worked together before we became a couple. Those years together were amazing but, looking back, felt so long in comparison to how quickly the past seven years have gone.
I'm sitting here, still nursing my coffee when you walk into the kitchen. You walk over to me and try to run your fingers through my hair but I move of the side and walk to the sink; I know I'm being stubborn. I hear your suggestion that we should go back upstairs and 'make up' but I pretend I don't. I'm not going to let you sweet-talk your way out of this one; I'm going to leave without a goodbye kiss. And as I'm driving off I know that I need to let you know that I just wanna be mad for a while.
I ring up the radio station that I know you listen to while getting the kids ready for school and request a song for you with the message, 'Jack, I love you but I just wanna be mad for a while, Love Sam'.
'Cos as I'm sitting in my car I know that I'll never leave you or stray from you, my love for you will never change but I'm just not ready to make up yet. We'll get around to that. Thinking about what we were arguing about last night, I think I'm right and you're wrong but I know that I'll give in before long. I know that when I next see you, you are going to give me the wounded puppy dog look that you know I can't resist; it always makes me smile.
I don't want to smile right now; I just wanna be mad for a while. But you know that we'll make up, and soon; probably as soon as I walk through the door tonight. I just can't stay mad at you for long, so just let me be mad for a while.
Please review. Thanks to Alyssa for beta-ing this for me.
