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Edward held me for what felt like forever. I've missed this so much and I hope it never ends. These past few months have been torture. Edward was my life and when he left I felt like part of my heart was missing.
I have been like a zombie for the past two months. It was all because of this Beautiful man. He told me he didn't love me and that made me pull away from his embrace. He looked at me confused and his face dropped.
"Bella?" He questioned. I slid further away from him. I pursed my lips not knowing how to start this conversation.
"Why are you here?" I asked him. He opened his mouth to say something but I cut him off. "You said you didn't love me anymore." I would let him answer now.
"Bella, Love… Leaving you was the hardest thing I've ever done. Please let me finish before you say anything. I don't know if I'll be able to say this all in one try," He started. I nodded and motioned for him to continue.
"Okay… I-I lied to-to you," Edward said while not meeting my eyes. I gave him a confused look when he looked back up at me. "And when I lied, you believed me so easily."
"It hurts that you would believe me so easily. I really don't understand that you could ever want someone like me," he said sadly. He didn't talk for about a minute so I asked the question I needed answers to.
"What did you lie to me about that would make you think that?" He looked at me with regret. I hate that look.
"I told you I didn't love you," He stated. I could not be more confused. "I told you I didn't want you."
"Yes, I know you told me that. But, what did you lie to me about?" I asked him.
"Don't you see, Bella?" I shook my head and he continued. "Bella! I lied about not loving and wanting you!" He shouted. I'm glad Charlie is a heavy sleeper.
I looked at him with disbelief. How could he do that?! The last couple of months have been terrible because he told me he didn't want anything to do with me.
"Edward, how could you do that? Why did you do that?" I asked him. Why would he leave me if he still loved me?
"Bella, please let me explain," he pleaded. I glared at him but nodded. "I… leaving you was the hardest thing I've ever done. I did it for your benefit. At least, that's what I thought I was doing."
"When I left, I thought that it would make you safer. I realized that you aren't the danger magnet… I am," he paused, taking a deep breath even though he didn't need to. "Ever since I met you, you always get hurt. You get hurt more with me than without me. You got targeted by vampires and got multiple injuries from that. You don't know how bad I felt about that."
"I thought that if I left, then you could have a better life…"
"But, I can't!" I exclaimed.
"Yes you can, Bella! You can grow old with a husband. You could have kids and grandkids. You can't do that with me; you can't have a normal life with me!" Edward stated.
"Edward, I don't want a life without you in it. In fact, I can't have a life without you in it," I started. "These past couple months have been torcher without you here. I've been constantly waking up with nightmares because you weren't there holding me. I dreaded going to sleep because I knew I would have the same dream about you leaving in the woods."
The look on Edward's face was so pained and I almost felt bad. Then the realization of what he put me through made me think he deserves all he is getting. I do know he would have had to have gone through some pain with leaving but he is the one that left.
"Bella, leaving was the worst thing I could have done. It was so hard but I thought it was what's best for you. I can see now that it only hurt us both," he started. "I will never forgive myself for what I did to you. I hope that in time you can forgive me. Maybe we could have another chance? If you don't, I understand completely."
I just sat there looking into Edward's pleading eyes. Can I do this? Of course, I want to be with Edward. I want it more than anything! How do I know he won't leave me again, if and when something happens? I don't think I could live with him leaving again.
"How do I know you're not going to leave again?" I asked looking down at my hands. He lifted my chin gently with his fingers and I had to look into his black eyes. Once he knew I wouldn't look away he let go of my chin and took my hands in his.
"You don't know that I won't leave you. You just have to trust that I will never leave you again. I can promise you that I won't leave you again. I promise I won't leave again," Edward told me. Each time he said something, his expression got more and more pained. "Please, just give me another chance," he pleaded.
"Okay," I said. He looked confused until he realized what I said. The look of pure joy on his face was amazing. I missed that smile so much and the images in my mind didn't do it justice.
"Okay, as in you'll give me another chance?" He asked me. I nodded and he pulled me into a tight hug. Well, as tight as he could hug me without hurting me. "Oh Bella, baby, you have no idea how happy I am right now. I can't live without you and I promise I won't leave you ever again."
He looked down at me and I looked up at him. The next thing I knew, I was in a heated kiss with him while trying to stay away from his venoms teeth.
"Bella, you should get some sleep," he said when we pulled away. "I promise I will be here when you wake up," He told me.
I nodded at him and laid my head on his cold, hard, chest. "I love you, so much, Edward."
"I love you, too, Bella. Now get some sleep." And with that, I fell into my first nightmare less sleep since he left.
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