"lololol Seriously, I never thought I'd be so glad to see Seven's hiya hey hey lololol," Zen typed into the messenger. Jumin read the entry once, then twice and even a third time before he finally typed in a response: "Hiya hey hey."

Zen was confused. Did Jumin actually write that just now? "…," was the only possible answer to that.

"Wow^^," MC continued the chat conversation. She actually loved this gap moe side of Jumin a lot. She found it cute how he was trying to be nice to Zen while simultaneously trying to get his attention. For her it was pretty obvious that he liked him even though she had only known them for a couple of days and on top of that only via texts, chat conversations and phone calls. Still, she was certain that there was something going on between the two of them and she really hoped that at some point they would realize this as well.

"I'm going crazy," Zen answered because this was frankly the only thing he could think of at this moment. What was that supposed to mean? Was Jumin making fun of him or actually trying to be nice? "What is going on with that jerk?", Zen wondered to himself.

Jumin was confused. "Did he really not understand? It was meant to be nice…", he wondered and decided to ask, at least indirectly: "You must be glad," he typed in.

"Glad? GLAD? OK, he is just messing with me again. How could I even think for one second that he was just trying to be nice?", Zen shouted out loud while tearing his hair. "You….. You're….. God seriously…." Zen hit the send button. "Maybe I should emphasize my point with a distressed emoji. Done. Let's see what this robot jerk has to say next!"

Reading Zen's response provoked an awkward feeling inside of Jumin. On the one hand he found it funny because he really enjoyed teasing Zen but on the other he was also disillusioned or at least he thought that this feeling must have been disillusionment. Why could Zen just not recognize his efforts? And… why did Zen not seeing him trying to be nice make him feel so uncomfortable all of a sudden? And how was he supposed to respond now? What could he write so that Zen would not take it the wrong way again?

Zen stared at his phone wondering why Jumin was not answering. "Speechless now, huh?", he said to the phone as if Jumin could actually hear him. He started nervously tapping his right index finger on the phone.

""Zen, it is very hard to satisfy you" should do it," Jumin thought and hit the send button.

Zen winced when he heard the messenger sound. He read the message and his eyes widened at the sight of the words that formed Jumin's sentence. This time it was Zen who read the message not only once but three times in a row. He suddenly felt his heart racing and his face burning. His hands were shaking causing him to let is phone fall on the bed he was lying on at that moment. He screamed: "AAAAAARRRGH! What the hell!" He slapped his face screamed again and then grabbed the phone to agitatedly type in his response: "Woah… Don't say things like that. You're seriously…," and while he was sending his message he suddenly remembered a similar chat situation between him and Jumin. It was a discussion about cat hair and he had wondered how Jumin could possibly sleep on a bed covered in this disgusting c-hair. Jumin had teased him at that time by answering with "Did you just imagine my bed?" Zen was now all messed up. What was all that about, Jumin Han?

Jumin sighed when he read Zen's answer. "No matter what I do… it seems…," he said to himself suddenly feeling even heavier than before. "I didn't know that things like that could actually get one down so badly." Jumin stroke Elisabeth's head and sighed again: "Seems like you are the only one who understands me, hum?" He looked back at his phone and decided to cut this conversation by changing the subject. "Anyways, Luciel seems to be stable, so I guess everyone else can focus on the party now."

Zen couldn't believe his eyes when he read that. "First he is just messing with me and then he seriously talks about the party again even if two members still are in terrible danger? What the fuck is wrong with that robot?", Zen wondered and sent an annoyed emoji as response. Jumin continued writing about the party as if nothing else mattered to him at this point.

MC had read all the messages Jumin and Zen had exchanged at least three times as well. Her heart even skipped a little when she read these sentences full of subtle attraction between the two of them. And she was sad that it again didn't work out for Jumin. Again he had not been able to really bond with Zen. She felt a strong sympathy for Jumin at this point and thus decided to now at least help him talk about the party in a way that even Zen would listen to it.

They continued writing about the party and that it would be great if people would suggest more potential guests. However, MC got really worried when she saw how the conversation continued especially when she read Jumin subtly dissing Zen for not having influential and powerful contacts that could be useful for the RFA. She really hoped that Zen would not get aggressive and angry over these comments again.

Jumin reread his message. "Maybe this was a bit harsh…" He shook his head. "No, it wasn't!" He really was mad at Zen for constantly calling him cold, ignorant and profit-related. Did Zen really think that way about him? Did he really believe that this whole messed up situation with V and Rika would not bother him? Two people were still in serious danger, his best friend seemed to have lied to him for so many years and he himself could not do anything but watch for the time being. His mind was a mess; a total chaos in which feelings like disappointment, sadness and fear tried to conquer each other. But he just couldn't let this get him down. He had to be steadfast and strong for all of them now. The anchor they could all grasp on; the voice of sense and logic while the others could barely hold their emotions at bay. He just had to. If he couldn't do anything for V, Saeyoung, Saeran and MC he could at least do anything to keep things stable here. Even if that meant that he had to hold the tears back. He typed an answer to Zen: "You only care about your work and not the RFA?"

Little did Jumin know that this provoked something in Zen because like this he was holding up a mirror to him. Zen realized that Jumin had a point. They were still a group that worked for a good cause and even if things were tough, this group, which he considered his family, needed help in different ways and one of these ways was the party. Zen made a guest suggestion which made Jumin again make a sarcastic comment about how amazing Zen was. "Ok… I was too fast again… he simply is a jerk…," Zen thought to himself but decided to let his anger go: "God... Never mind. I don't want to get mad because of you."

I don't want to get mad because of you.

It was like Jumin's heart stopped for a second when he read this sentence. This small sentence implied so many negative feelings towards him: Anger, rage, disillusion… and above all and probably worst of all it felt like Zen was done with him, like he just made no difference to him anymore. He didn't know what to answer to this but there was no need to answer anyhow as Zen continued: "But… You're going to have the party regardless of what happens to V or Seven?" Yes… Zen just didn't understand what Jumin was going through und thus Jumin decided to just leave without even trying to make Zen see what was really going on. There was just no use to it. He would not understand because Zen was just so driven by his emotions. Jumin decided to make his answer look witty by using a chat bubble that looked like cat. He just wanted to stay strong and don't crash in front of Zen and MC. "Just keep on believing whatever you want Zen…," he thought while typing his answer "Of course. I remembered something to confirm just now. MC, see you later." Jumin sent the message which even he figured sounded like the dumbest excuse ever and left the chat room.

Zen was flabbergasted when he read Jumin's response. He ran away? What a coward! And he didn't even say goodbye to me only to MC? WTF Jumin? He was outrageous: "!? He doesn't even say good bye to me now?!"

MC was sad. "Well… isn't it kind of obvious why he didn't do it Zen?", she thought to himself and answered that the party still had to happen if RFA wanted to continue, trying to make a point that she still was on Jumin's side.

Zen couldn't believe that MC seemed to be so kind towards Jumin especially considering her and Saeyoung's situation. "That's true! But he should take it down a notch considering everything. Isn't he being selfish?" Zen hit the send button. "Why am I even talking about that jerk! Not worth it! So not worth it: "Anyways… I should stop talking about that jerk. *Happy emoji*" And that was what he did.

Jumin stared at his phone. His hand was shaking. He thought about re-entering the chatroom but that would have uncovered him as a coward even more. Elisabeth rubbed her head against his leg and meowed softly as if she could really feel his troubles. But Jumin didn't even feel like petting her. He let his head sink and closed his eyes. "This is just disillusionment! Just disillusionment…," he thought to himself.

But if it was just disillusionment then why did it hurt so much?