a simple child story (my pain)

im so lost

im so confused

the day began

but it will just end

i see life pass by

time never stops to ask why

its this unending time i loath

yet its this unending time i admire.

while time is able to go on

i am wasted away in the memories of my past

memories of hate in my heart as they walked by

tolorating

pittful

unwilling to truely see me.

all they saw was what defects i had.

what defects i couldnt change

"poor thing"

"wretched mother"

"defiled child"

these words were not unheard in my child ears

my spirit grew strong and was warm to those i felt wouldnt twist and break it

in the end,

no mortal out of my family was willing.

no one cared

all they saw was a "helpless child"

all i saw in thier love was a lie, an immatation.

but then i found all of you.

my spirit was able to finaly open up and i soon realized.

im not alone.

there was such thing as REAL acceptace, friendship, real love.

and in reture,

i'll keep smiling.

my spirit will not fail u if u keep beliving it.

this is my purpose in lif

my calling.

i'm here cause ur here.

and for that

this once unbeliving child

can and will belive.

memories shall be nothing more than an old breeze.

an old wound

they'll never leave me

but they'll never rule me.

i feel my trust starting to broaden from my bariers that i so desprately hid behind.

im willing to befriend. im willing to be honest and faithful.

just plz dont destroy it like it was so long ago

all this sadness turned to joy

this is a child's story of learning to forget and move on

this is my story.

plz heed it

dont mistake it.