im so lost
im so confused
the day began
but it will just end
i see life pass by
time never stops to ask why
its this unending time i loath
yet its this unending time i admire.
while time is able to go on
i am wasted away in the memories of my past
memories of hate in my heart as they walked by
tolorating
pittful
unwilling to truely see me.
all they saw was what defects i had.
what defects i couldnt change
"poor thing"
"wretched mother"
"defiled child"
these words were not unheard in my child ears
my spirit grew strong and was warm to those i felt wouldnt twist and break it
in the end,
no mortal out of my family was willing.
no one cared
all they saw was a "helpless child"
all i saw in thier love was a lie, an immatation.
but then i found all of you.
my spirit was able to finaly open up and i soon realized.
im not alone.
there was such thing as REAL acceptace, friendship, real love.
and in reture,
i'll keep smiling.
my spirit will not fail u if u keep beliving it.
this is my purpose in lif
my calling.
i'm here cause ur here.
and for that
this once unbeliving child
can and will belive.
memories shall be nothing more than an old breeze.
an old wound
they'll never leave me
but they'll never rule me.
i feel my trust starting to broaden from my bariers that i so desprately hid behind.
im willing to befriend. im willing to be honest and faithful.
just plz dont destroy it like it was so long ago
all this sadness turned to joy
this is a child's story of learning to forget and move on
this is my story.
plz heed it
dont mistake it.
