Human fears and mine
It scares me to watch
scares me to do nothing but stand here
and do nothing
to look the other way
when i know what im doing for u
is really just as wrong
as what ur doing to yourself
what do you expect me to think
when you tell me the things that you have seen?
i wont cry
wont tell you what i think is best
wont try to lead u the way a parent would
to their child
thats not what i am
so why would take that place?
what good would i be to u
to be just another voice
nagging
trying to help
when you dont want help
but a person to get it off to
im only human,
but im also a sister
and when a brother or sister of mine
is in pain
i dont want them to hold in and walk away form me
that is my fear
i dont give a damn if it hurts
if it pains you to know
that i could get hurt
im human!
we all get hurt!
we all feel pain!
what we dont realize
is that we need to let out that pain
that hurt
cause if we dont
we find ourselves wandering away from those we love
those we care about
and in the act of "saving" them
we could more likely kill them
people do not want thier family
thier friends
to run like that
its not our nature
we came here as a group
one that strays
to save the others from thier pain
causes more pain
its not this way for everyone
but for me
its what i have become
you want me to forget?
forget my past
forget my pain?
then i will.
but if you dont let me
like i try so hard to let down my walls
all for u
then what difference does it make?
if we're humans created by a loving god
or just simply compositions of chemicals
like they all try to simplify us as
flesh
the spirt was put in by some unseen force
all different
yet all the same
we all hunger with a need to be around those
who share our thoughts
dreams
love
hate
pain
humor
goals
my spirit is among them
i hunger for kinship at last
after a childhood of being
an exception
a pitty
im not the child i once was
i have what i want
but it's sliping as the years pass
changing and turing
not quite going away
yet not staying the same either
that is what i fear.
to be alone again.
not physical
but to know a friend
one who i conisder family
who earned my trust and loyalty
to distance them selves from me
trying to keep me from thier pain
like i said
we all have pain
so why keep it?
when it hurts
why not get rid of it
when someone willingly wants to help
why
the hell not let them?
because u dont want to hurt them!
if they were afraid of that,
why would they ask to help you?
