StormyMist: Not many people reviewed to this…and none of my other fics either. :sad face: I was expecting more since this was going to be a multi-chapter one, but I guess it just wasn't long enough.
Warnings: language, angst, tragedy,OOCnessand randomness.
Pairings: SasuNaru and maybe others.
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.
Genre: Romance and Angst (?)
Me: This is a pretty pointless chapter, but the beginning of this is important enough for you to need to read it. I'll make the next chapter more entertaining, just you wait and see! Enjoy this one for now!
Chapter 2: Selfishness
"What do you mean, you can't find him!" Sasuke shouted, slamming his hand down on the desk and making the accessories on it tremble and tilt.
"Please, calm down, Sasuke," the hokage said, rubbing her head from the upcoming headache. "I've tried my best, really! There is no sign of him anywhere; everything's clean and there's not even a speck of dirt that shows traces of him anywhere."
She paused and looked at the angered Uchiha then sighed, clasping her hands together. "Look, I'll send a message to the kazekage. I'm sure he'll be willing to help," seeing Sasuke was about to speak she quickly added, "but you have to be patient. Fuming over this will not help! Understand that I'm doing all that I can. You're not the only one who cares for him, Sasuke. There are others as well; including me."
He said nothing, there was no emotion on his face; all blank. He lifted his hand off the table and turned, walking out the door and slamming it behind him with a loud 'boom'!
Tsunade grimaced and sighed again, slouched against her chair.
Ever since Naruto, Sasuke has been quite hectic. And Naruto had only been away for about five days! A ninja isn't labeled as missing until about four weeks, and not many people will start to panic yet, but she and Sasuke knew that he had run away even though nobody else knew.
It was the letter the blond ninja left before he disappeared…Proof.
Dear Sasuke,
I know you're probably wondering why I've sent this to you, but please listen to what I have to tell you in this letter. To start off, well…damn, it's kind of hard to say, um, well, I won't be here anymore. Yeah, you read this right. I won't be here anymore. But…I'm sure you're glad…Uh, well, yeah. Technically that's all I wanted to say, but there's something else. I, erm, like you. Just hear me out! You probably think that I'm some weird ass guy that just has a crush on you, but…but I really do like you. I just never thought of confessing to you because I thought you'd be disgusted.
That I'd be rejected.
But to put it out more clearly, I…love you. I knew we couldn't be like that, but I thought we could at least be friends. That happened…sorta. And I thought if it's like this then I'll be satisfied. Being friends was enough…but no. That didn't happen; I ended up wanting to be more than friends. It was selfish of me.
Selfish.
Disgusting.
But if you took the time to read this, I'm glad you did. And I hope you can forgive me. I didn't want you to read this kind of stuff from me, but if I'm going to go away I thought I might as well tell you. So good bye, I hope you live happily.
-Naruto
There were also tears stains on the note; it was probably both Naruto's and Sasuke's, but, then again, it could be rain droplets. Who knows?
Naruto does.
That voice kept nagging at Tsunade's mind, it was quite irritating and yet calming.
Naruto…, she thought.
"-Where are you?" the woman asked loudly to herself.
There was no answer. Only the sounds of the clock as it ticked to the next second to the next second, to the next.
Tick…
Tock…
Tick…Tock…Tick…
Tock…
It sounded so slow; was it usually like that?
Why?
"I just want to know," she asked the voice.
Why?
Tears glided down her cheeks, but she remained motionless.
"I just want to know."
Where have you gone, Naruto?
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"Damn it!" He shouted. Today, he felt more angry and frustrated than previous ones. Maybe it was because it's been...how long? Five days? Five days felt like a million.
Sasuke was lying on his bed, his arms and legs spread apart as if he was going to make a snow angel. Scratch that; snow thing. There were no such things as angels. Never were and never will.
There were saviors though. They helped you and they seem so much like how people describe angels. But they're not; in the end they end up hurting you. Hurting you more than anyone else could do to you in a lifetime.
Pain.
So much pain.
He reached towards the ceiling and gazed at his hand. To him, they were ugly. It had been tainted from blood of many people; some were even of the innocent. He let his hand fall down, limp next to him.
Sasuke closed his eyes and let the soft sounds of the swaying branches of the trees outside, lull him into slumber.
Nothing seemed worth it anymore, everything seemed pointless now that he was gone. How could he jump to such conclusions without asking?
Rejection.
Was he really afraid of that? Rejection? Was it such a big deal?
Disgusting.
How was it possible for him to think of himself as disgusting?
Selfish? How could he think that?
How could he not know of the feelings that he, himself, had? Wasn't it obvious enough?
You hurt him…
You teased him…
You hated him…!
"It's not true!" Sasuke bolted up-right, sweat running down the side of his face. That wasn't a nightmare, but why was his heart beating so hard? And the questions?
He sighed and got up, hitting his forehead lightly with his palm, as he walked towards his bathroom. He stopped in front of the sink and looked at himself in the mirror; a wreck.
His skin was paler than usual, there were bags under his eyes that showed people around him the lack of sleep, and he looked so old. His eyes seemed dull and, as always, showed no emotion, but the hurt in his eyes was so obvious…and so were the hate, anger, and the feeling of betrayal. Scratch the no emotion thing; practically all of his negative emotions were showing now.
Sasuke fought back the tears that pricked at the edge of his eyes.
No.
The lack of sleep was getting to him.
No.
Yeah, that's it.
No.
But he couldn't help, but let the tears fall. It was just too strong.
No…
Why?
"Why did you leave? You could have asked! You could have asked me!"
Why?
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Me: Don't ask, but please review. I was in the depressed in my mind yet happy on the outside mood:3 REVIEWS! I need them. I have to get at least FIVE! Grrr. XD Any-a-ways, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and don't blame me for the many errors. It's pretty late where I am. So sleepy. Again, review!
