I know that I'm not supposed to be posting an author's note on fanfiction. net and that they restrict it but I feel like I need to update you, my readers. I posted an update on my bio page and sent a note to a few of my readers but couldn't send one to all of you.

It kills me that I can't write and that I can't seem to find any inspiration for my fic. I know exactly where I want this to go and how I want it to end but I can't physically sit down and write it out. I want to write more than anything right now but it's not looking like that's an option right now. I just can't motivate myself to do much of anything right now.

I'm still in the process of moving, my parents are officially now divorced and I'm still stuck in this new place where I don't want to be. I think things are just too disorganized in my life right now to focus on this fic like I want to. I guess moving isn't really an excuse anymore because it's all coming to an end soon. I'm just trying to get myself used to the idea that I'm here, my friends aren't and I have to make new friends. I feel like such a wimp for not being able to make through this without problems. My parent's divorce isn't really what's bothering me. It's the fact that now that it's official the fact that my father doesn't want me and doesn't care about me is really hitting me hard. I mean I know that he's my dad and everyone tells me that he loves me and stuff. I mean, even he tells me that he loves me but I keep wondering that if he loves me so much why does he abandon me? Why did he give his attention to his girlfriend all the time and no attention to me? Am I being selfish for wanting him to love me and for him to care about me and my feelings? Am I being selfish to want to be his little girl? Am I being selfish for wanting a dad, and not someone who shares my blood but actually cares for me and wants to be around me and know how I feel and what's going on in my life? Is it wrong to be selfish? I feel as though we'll never get those years back and he'll never be able to make it up to me. I feel as though we've lost each other and in the time we spent apart we became strangers.

I know that was a little rant about my life and my screwed up emotions but I needed to get it out and right now my friends aren't here and I need something, anything. Basically, those are my reasons for not updating the story and for not being able to write. I don't want to LTaC on hold but that's looking like what I'm going to be doing unless someone wants to take it over for me and I'll just be kinda like a beta and give you my opinions and tell you the story outline. Then I'd want to take it back over once I got my head back together. This unfortunately isn't looking like anytime soon. I'm just so messed up right now and I'm such a baby for letting all of this stuff get to me. I just need to get my anxiety, stress, and depression under control. Let me know what you want me to do. Just review and I'll let you guys decide where this goes.

I know fanfiction. net might delete my fic because I'm posting this author's note but I'm hoping no one will report me because if this gets deleted I won't be reposting it.

Anyway, I wasn't just going to post this author's note. I noticed that I forgot a disclaimer in one of the chapters so here it is.

Disclaimer: I do no own HP. I wish I did and I wish I was as brilliant as JKR but I'm not.