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Making Amends

Chapter 8 – I Can't Stop Loving You

Jordan stared at Woody for several minutes completely dumbfounded. Then her face twitched slightly and she found herself laughing hysterically. "Me marry you?" she said through her laughter.

He didn't smile. Hisexpression stoic as she laughed at him. "Jordan I think we should get married."

Jordan wiped away the tears that had formed in her eyes from laughing so hard. "Yeah right."

"Come on Jo. I love you and I can't live without you."

"You had your chance farm boy and you gave it up to screw Lu Simmons."

He pulled his hands from hers. "I love you Jordan. I really do. I know that I'm an ass. Believe me I know. However, I will spend every day for the rest of my life making it up to you. I will spend every day proving my love to you. I will prove that I'm worth trusting with your heart."

"Really because up until now you haven't been doing a very good job."

Woody frowned. He tossed back his head and looked at the ceiling. "All right I deserved that. I deserved what you did to my face, but Jordan nothing is going to change about how much I love you. I'm begging you to let me back in."

"Woody I'm sure your intentions are pure but you broke my heart and a few words and a ridiculous marriage proposal aren't going to erase the hurt. You can't take back what you did. I'm sorry but I don't trust you and I've decided I don't want to revisit a relationship with you."

The temptation to start screaming was overwhelming for Woody. He wished he had a pillow he could grab and scream into it until his voice was hoarse. "So what, you want to walk away and move on? You are telling me we are completely over, that when I see you, I should just keep on walking?"

"Why can't you just let go?"

"Because I love you and I can't let you go."

"Well you're going to have to."

He felt the tears start to form in his eyes again. Her words of indifference had felt like a million knives stabbing through the tender flesh of his heart. He rocked back and let himself sprawl out on the floor. "Fine Dr. Cavanaugh, I'll see you around." He stood up and walked to the door.

"Let me out Dr. Macy. We've talked and everything's fine," he lied. He glanced back at Jordan and she was staring at the floor.

Nobody came and opened the door though. Woody was met with silence. He started knocking on it and demanding he be let out. He kicked it hard but nothing happened. They weren't being released.

He looked back at Jordan and he saw her staring at the same spot on the floor. Without thinking he walked up to her and kissed her. She sat there, in shock as he caressed her lips with his. "I can't stop loving you," he whispered when he pulled away.

She looked at him, looked deep into his blue eyes and she started to cry. Tears poured profusely down her cheeks. Her body shook with heavy sobs. She clutched his sweater and cried.

It was his turn to be shocked. He watched her cry and then knelt down in front of her. He pulled her hands into his and looked into her golden eyes. "Please let me love you," he pleaded.

She frowned. "I'm scared to," she admitted.

He smiled. "We can take it slow. Jordan I will do anything for you. You just have to let me in."

"Why should I? I don't even know who you are anymore."

"I need some help. The small amount of counselling I've received hasn't been enough to let me find myself again, but I will and it will be easier with you by my side. I'm sorry I hurt you but I promise you, I won't break your heart ever again."

She looked at him. She looked into his eyes and for the first time since she'd heard the words found out what they really meant. "When somebody loves you, really loves you, when you look in their eyes, you see yourself."

She found herself in Woody's eyes. She kissed him then. "All right Hoyt, I'll let you in but we're not getting married," she said with a smile.

When they pulled apart, she looked at his face. She reached out and touched the bruise that she had left. "I'm sorry about your face."

"I deserved it," he said smiling. "I really deserved it."

"Yeah you did," she said, as her smile grew larger.

"You know if they're not going to let us out, we should probably take advantage of this time alone. You know locked in a room together, all by ourselves."

"Don't be so naïve. Nigel probably has several cameras hidden in here. I don't really want to give him a show."

"You mean they're probably watching us right now?" Woody asked, slightly paranoid, as he glanced around the room.

"You won't find it. He has a way of hiding things in places nobody would ever think to look."

"When are they going to let us out of here?"

"Right about now," Seely said from the open door. "Jesus Hoyt for a while there I thought I was going to have to investigate your murder."

"It was a possibility," Jordan said to him. "I'm sure you would have covered it up nicely for me."

"Yeah right Cavanaugh, nobody would believe me if I tried." They all laughed at that.