Disclaimer/AN: I don't own anything. I'm so bloody confused about the episode. I want to write a letter from Jude to Tommy and vise versa later, and I will, prolly after this set. Reagen is their daughter from the last letters….hope you like it.

Dear Tommy,

The bottle broke today. Our beer bottle, with the rain in it. Reagen didn't mean to, she was running too fast through the house and I'm too slow right now to follow her.

She knocked into the table and the bottle teetered on the edge, then smashed on the floor. Then I yelled at Reagen. I yelled and yelled for so long. I was so angry and sad, Tommy. But then she looked at me, and she was about to cry, and I've never felt so guilty. I tried apologizing, but she won't listen. God, who knew a three-year-old could make you feel like this?

When she left the room, I sat down and cried. I've never cried so much, Tommy. All I could think was that our only relic left was gone. The soap is all gone, and now our beer bottle is too.

I was never this emotional when I was pregnant with Reagen, so this child that I'm having now better be worth it. Ha. Maybe it's just because you're 3,000 miles away. I miss you. Or maybe it's because I'm realizing that I'm a terrible mother. You've never yelled at Reagen like I just did. Why? Doesn't she frustrate you sometimes? I love her to death, but I was so mad at her. Now I'm too ashamed to go try and make it up to her.

Maybe we shouldn't have anymore kids after this one.

Come home soon, I can't do it without you.

Jude