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This one was really hard to write. I wanted something else to happen, something aside from Tommy leaving, something big enough to shatter the foundations of Jude and Tommy's relationship. I racked my brain trying to think of something else that he could have done, but what I came up with wasn't good. So, I fell to my backup plan, the worst thing I could think of happening. These next few letters will be kinda rough. The rating is for the language, and mature context.

Tommy,

You told me tonight that you cheated on me. I haven't stopped crying. How could you? You said "it didn't mean anything." How am I supposed to believe that? How could you claim to love me more than anything, but still cheat on me? I don't understand. I'm so mad. I'm so hurt.

I don't know what's going to happen, Tommy. I love you, of that I'm sure, but how can I after you've cheated on me. I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. I feel like I'm dying. God, Tommy, how could you do this to me? What have the past few years been to you? A big game?

How can I be sure that you ever loved me? That you still do? Surely a man who's in love with someone wouldn't cheat on that person. You were gone for a week, Tommy. One week away from me and everything we've had is gone.

Did you think? At all, about what you were doing? Was there a moment when you thought you ought not do it? Did you call my name out when you came? Was she pretty? Prettier than me? Was she a good fuck? Did you cry?

I'm going to stay with Sadie and Kwest for a while. I don't know if I'll be back. God, I still love you, but I can't even stand to look at you. I can't stand to be in this apartment, where we've lived for so long, because there are memories of us here that I don't think I want anymore. If we do end up together, we'll have to start over, and I don't know if I can trust you.

Jude