To Live Without Her...
Disclaimer: I do not own BSSM or Haruka. But a girl can dream, right?
Chapter 2
Growing up with Her
Haruka turned to look at the clock which read 6:30. She covered her head with her blanket and attempted to go back to sleep. The door opened slowly, making little noise. She crept up to the bed slowly, careful not to wake the other just yet. She slowly pulled back the covers. As the girl stirred, the other giggled to herself.
'This is going to be fun!' She walked slowly back to the door. She ran back to the bed and hopped on top of the sleeping girl.
"HARUKAAAAAAAA!" The other girls' screams were heard throughout the house as Mesa's family sat down and started eating their breakfast.
Haruka sat up and scratched her head and yawned, an energetic Mesa still on top of her, smiling.
"Argh, Mesa! Do you always have to wake me up like that?" Mesa smiled and hugged the others' waist.
"I'm sorry! You know how excited I get when you get to stay over and have my Mesa-chans Special!" Haruka ran her hand thru her hair, yawning wondering ho she could be so damn perky this early in the morning.
"Pancakes and orange juice are just that, why do you call them Mesa-chans Special?" Mesa crossed her arms and began to pout.
"They are Mesa-chans Special because it is the first and only thing my mother lets me make."
"Ha haha. Thirteen years old and that's the only thing you can make! I feel sorry for the person you marry." Mesa flicked the girl in the nose and stuck her tongue out. She got off the bed and walked to the door, her nose in the air.
"Well, if that's how you feel," She opened it and before leaving, turned and gave Haruka 'the look'. She immediately felt a rush of guilt and jumped out of the bed and quickly put on her robe. She ran down the stairs and walked into the dining room, where Mesa greeted her with a plate of warm, delicious pancakes.
"Here, you better get used to them seeing as how this will be the only thing you'll eat till your old and crotchety." Haruka took the plate and sat down. Across the table, Mesa smiled softly to herself.
The past four years seem to fly by quickly for the two girls. They were always together, whether in school, or at home. Being that Harukas Aunt Yelan was very strict, and didn't favor noise, Haruka found herself practically living over at Mesas. When she wasn't with her, they spoke to each other with a pair of walkie-talkies her brother had gotten for his birthday. They went to the same private school and was in the same class, until a boy pulled Mesas hair and Haruka punched him out, getting suspended from school. Which she found herself getting a lot. Not only for fighting, but because she refused to wear the girls uniform. Every morning, Haruka would leave the house wearing the blue and black plaid skirt required for girls, but arrived at school in blue trousers and tie, compliments of Mesas brother. She got away with it for the first three years. Students and the teachers all thought that she was a boy, until she tried following Mesa into the girls room one day.
Flashback
'Tennou, where do you think you're going?' She gave the woman one of her cocksided grins and laughed.
'The bathroom? Where else?' The teacher crossed her arms, getting agitated by the lack of respect she was showing.
'Well don't you think young man that you are going into the wrong one?' Mesa popped her head out the door and grabbed Harukas arm, pulling her into the bathroom.
'Haruka, hurry! I have somethin' I wanna show you.' The teachers face turned beet red, not wanting to know what the girl was implying.She pulled Mesa and Haruka out of the bathroom and to the office. The principal, along with the entire staff didn't believe Harukas true gender until her mother came to pick her up. Slightly embarrassed, her mother convinced the principal that it should be her daughters choice to wear pants instead of a skirt. It was a long and lengthy struggle, but with the help of Mesas mom and several other parents, she was officially allowed to wear the 'boys' uniform.
Every time Haruka thinks back to that day, she can't help but laugh. Not because of how the teacher reacted, or how she seemed to embarrassed her mother and the school, but because of Mesa. That day, Mesa kept insisting on showing her something, which she came to find out was the frogs they were meant to dissect that day in class. She may have escaped suspension for violating the dress code, but they couldn't talk themselves out of that one. They released the frogs and got a week suspension And seeming as how Haruka would either get into a fight, or Mesa would disrupt the class by screaming at the other girl, as an added punishment, they were forbidden to be in a class together. So here they were, the final week of summer vacation. Mesa squealing as her family piled into their van, on their way to the springs to swim.
The park was a lush green and splashing and laughter filled the air. Mesa ran ahead of everyone, leaving them to carry the coolers, noodles, and food. Haruka watched the girl from behind, her long black hair was braided, to keep out of her eyes, and she was wearing a purple whole piece bathing suit. She had on what she called her 'John Lennon glasses' and was waving to the others to hurry up. Haruka sweat dropped as she thought to herself that they would be able to move a lot faster if the other girl helped. At that moment, Haruka nearly tripped on a rock and almost went foward. A second later, Mesa came and smiled as she took the cooler from the other girl.
"Now Ruka, if you fall and break your neck, who will play with me in the water." The other girl smiled and nodded.
"Thanks." They made it over to a gazebo where they placed all of their items on the table. Mesas mom was preparing the hamburgers while her father was heating up the grill. Mesa tugged on Harukas arm, pulling her down the ramp towards the water. Haruka smiled thinking how carefree her friend was and how nice it was to hold her hand...' WAIT! What the heck am I thinking?' As if she heard the others thoughts, Mesa turned to Haruka and giggled. Grasping her hand tighter. A light blush crossed her cheeks as she felt her friends grip tighten. When they came to the water, Mesa jumped right in. She swam to the surface.
"AHHHHH! It feels sooooo good! Haaruukaa," she sang."Come on, jump in!" Haruka dipped her big toe in and pulled it quickly out. The water was freezing! At least 30 degrees. Haruka shook her head,
"Uh uh, no way! The water is to cold! Your crazy!" Her friend laughed at her and tried splashing the other with water.
"Your such a chicken! I thought you were braver then that. Teehee, Haruka scared of the big, bad cold water!" Haruka began seething, getting angry at the others taunts.
"I don't care! I'm not stepping one foot in that water. You can forget it."She crossed her arms and walked over to the railing. Mesas lip pouted,
"Fine, don't swim with me. See if I care!" She dove under the water and began to swim towards the many groups of people. Haruka stood there, in her white t-shirt and blue swimming shorts. She watched as Mesa started talking to a guy with brown hair. She watched as the girl smiled and splashed water towards the older boy. Mesa kept glancing towards her friend, who looked a little more agitated then usual. She continued to have her fun. Though it hurt her that she didn't want to swim with her. Especially since this, other then before and after school and of course on weekends, would be the only time she would be able to spend with the girl.
A strange feeling rose in Harukas gut as she watched her friend with the boy. She didn't know what it was, but the feeling would heighten each time she saw the boy touch her. What was it, she is clearly able to have other friends. She knew that the other had other friends beside her, but they were all female. Never had she seen her friend being so friendly with another guy other then her two brothers. When she saw the boy put is arms around her neck, she lost it. 'No one touches My Mesa,' She jumped into the water, ignoring the cold that pricked her like a thousand needles. She swam and surfaced right in the middle of the two, forcing the boys arms off the other.
"YAY! You came in to swim with me!" Mesa smiled as the boy glared angrily at Haruka, who in his opinion was screwing up his chance to get a nice piece of ass.
"Um excuse me, but we were having a private conversation. So if you could leave now, that would be great okay. Thanks." He swam in front of Haruka and began pulling Mesa away. Her face fell as she felt the boys hand grab her bottom.
"DON'T TOUCH ME YOU PERVERT!" The guy felt a finger on his shoulder, when he turned around he was greeted by Harukas fist. The sound of skin hitting bone rang through the air as blood ran down the boys face.
"You sonofabitch!" He swung and got Haruka in the eye. Mesa screamed for the two to stop, but neither seemed to want to listen. The lifeguard jumped in and put himself between the two fighters.
"Whoa, whoa. Stop right now." He blew his whistle and by that time everyone was staring at the spectacle that just played out. To the so called 'spectators' the fight was described as two guys fighting over the girl, who was now crying hysterically. Haruka glanced over, seeing her friend in tears and stopped. She pulled herself away from the boy and tried to make her way towards Mesa. The lifeguard grabbed her by the shirt collar, informing her that she and the other boy that they had to leave the park immediately or the cops would be called. Mesa swam to Haruka, and placed her hand on her face right where she was hit, making her wince a little. They got out of the water and ran to where Mesas parents were. Her mother taking one look at the girl and dropped the meat from her hands.
"OH my God, Haruka. What happened?" She looked down at her feet,embarrassed. How was she going to tell Mesas mom that she punched the guy just for placing his hands on her friend. She would think the girl was nuts. She just kept her head down, as she listened to the lifeguard explaining what happened. She heard her friend now and then say a 'no' or 'nuuh' but she herself remained quiet. She really couldn't explain why the guy touching Mesa bothered her so much, and the feeling she had was one that had steadily been growing since she met the girl. She just wished she knew what it was.
Harukas mother was furious as she placed the ice pack over her daughters eye. She had tried to be an understanding parent. When she came home with her hair cut short, she laughed it off, saying it would grow back. When her daughter told her that she liked it short, she took no notice. When her daughter destroyed all of her dresses, and used her allowance to buy clothes that would suit a young boy, she thought it a tom-boy phase that she would simply grow out of. But the fights, the fights was where she had to draw the line. She removed the ice pack from the girls eye and sat down in a chair in front of her. She placed her hand over her eyes and let out a frustrated sigh.
"Haruka, I don't know how much I can take of this. I have supported your tom-boy antics thinking that it was just your way of telling me that you miss your father. But I will not, can not tolerate you fighting like a boy!" All Haruka could do was look at her hands, which were now trembling. She hated it when she disappointed her mother.
"Ever since you've met that girl you've been into trouble." Her hand began to tremble more then ever, her heart skipping beats praying that the words she feared hearing would be said.
"You spend all of your free time together, you hardly have any other friends. And whenever she gets into trouble, you gladly go along." She closed her eyes, fighting tears that threatened to fall.'Don't say it, God please. Don't say it!' Her mother rose from the table.
"I have already spoken to Mesas mother. She seems to somewhat agree, that you two need a break from each other." Harukas head shot up, tears falling from her teal eyes as the very words she feared came from her mothers mouth.
"But momma, she's my best friend! What am I gonna do without her!" Her mothers eyes softened somewhat, seeing her little girl in pain was hard. But she knew that this was for both of their own goods.
"You're going to make other friends, and so is she. When you two can learn to stay out of trouble, then you can resume your friendship." Her heart felt as if were being torn from her chest. This feeling, similar to what she felt when the guy touched her. But this hurt a hell of a lot more. She quickly got up from her chair, letting it drop to the floor and ran up the stairs. The slamming of the door was all her mother heard as her head fell into hands, pondering if she had made the right decision.
Harukas tears continued to fall, her chest hurt at the very thought of not being able to see the other girl. She had become such an intricate part in her life. To not see her... She ran her hands through her sandy blonde hair, cursing their parents for the situation they were both in. Her head snapped up as she heard a light tapping on her window. Her teal tear stained eyes met the others tear stained hazel ones. She got up quickly and opened the window, helping the other girl in. She fell into Harukas arms and began crying a new set of tears. She held the girl tightly, stroking her long silky hair. Listening to the other in between sobs. She pulled the other away and wiped her hair from the others face, which was now damp due to the distraught girls tears.
"They, they can't do this. It's not fair! I hate them, I hate them all! Wahh! Haaruukaa!" She pulled the girl to her again, holding onto her tighter. Silent tears ran down her face as she rocked the other girl, trying to calm her.
"Shhh, don't worry. It will be alright. I'll always be with you. No matter what. We'll think of something." The girl nodded and rested her head on Harukas shoulder. They laid down on the bed, still holding each other. Haruka continued stoking the other girls hair as she hummed a melody that she often played on the piano for the girl. Her sobbing becoming less frequent, the two fell into a sleep where they dreamed of memories of each other.
The following morning, both mothers opened Harukas door to find the two girls, embraced in each others arms asleep. Pam looked over to Kimiko and gave her a weary smile.
"Looks like this is going to be harder then we thought."
The rest of the summer passed, the one girl barely seeing another. Harukas mother found a sports camp to send her too, and Mesa had voice lessons, as well as dance to keep her occupied. The two wrote to each other and when school restarted, they met secretly for lunch. They had both made more friends, Mesa joined the chorus and dance team, while Haruka joined track and field. Both stayed out of trouble the best they could, and longed for the day that they wouldn't have to sneak to see each other. The twos final year of middle school came and went. The summer seemed to drag on, and the two began to see less of each other. Haruka barely saw the girl all summer. Her family decided to send her to her grandparents in Georgia. She got the occasional phone call and sometimes an e-mail or two, but slowly the two began to drift in part in body. However, no matter how far away the other was, they felt together in spirit. Their thoughts always of the other.
"Hey Haruka! Hurry up, man. Everyones waiting." A guy with shoulder length black hair yelled from the front door. Haruka was tying the last lace to her shoe when she caught a smell of peonies blossoms in the air. She knew that scent anywhere. Just as she turned around, she was greeted by two arms that wrapped tightly around her waist. A smile graced her lips as she looked into the hazel eyes, which were now filling with tears.
"Haarukaa!" she sang."Guess what, guess what, guess what! We can be friends again!" The blonde tightened the embrace.
"I missed you." She lightly whispered, loud enough for only the two to hear. The emptiness that plagued the girls heart for almost two years, was now being filled with a familiar feeling. A feeling which the young girl could not describe, but had undoubtly grown stronger.
"Whoa, Haruka! Whose the hottie?"
Ha hahahaaaaaaaa! Well, that's it for now. Sorry for the late update. I kinda had writers block --
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