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Chapter The Explanation
PLACE: Rory's Apartment
Rory was still buried in Jess arms for over 20 minutes. They pull apart. Jess wipes the tears from Rory's face and said, "Okay so do you want to tell me what happened?"
"Well how much time do you have because people might mistake me for you." she said with a slight giggle almost proud of the little joke she had made.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Jess said in the sarcastic tone he used all the time pretending to take offense.
"Nothing. I just really need someone to talk to.
They sat there for hours. She told him everything -- Yale, Logan, and the fights with her mom, why she is in New York and left nothing out not one little detail. While she said this she broke down into tears and leaned into Jess and laid her head on his chest.
Jess smiled, sitting there breathing, he did not want to move thinking if he did she would move her body away from his. He liked the feeling of having her there, laying in his arms. He finally broke away from the thoughts of Rory in his mind and said, "Do you want to know what I think?"
She gave him a stern look and he finished what he was saying, "…I think you need to go back to school and finish what you started. You are to going to listen to some political nut who doesn't know what he is talking about. I believe in you and so does your mom and Luke and everyone else in stars hollow…everyone but you. I mean what happened to you going overseas like Christiane Amanpour? You got it Rory, you know you do…and you know your mom cares about you. She just doesn't want to see you throw your life away on one stupid person's opinion. And your boyfriend who just broke up with you is an idiot and has no idea what he's missing. Does he know how many people would kill to be in his spot." saying this wishing he had been Logan. Logan must be stupid to give up Rory like that. Now he realized that.
Rory found herself comforted by everything Jess had said. For the first time in a long time she felt as though everything was going to be okay. She missed him and soon she started to believe what Logan had said….was she still not over Jess.
"Wow you really have changed." Rory sat there a little surprised that what her mom had told her was true.
"No, not really. I have just grown up and realized I need to stop screwing up."
"Yeah, my mom told me all the stuff that you've gone through and I am so proud of you."
He could tell that she was sincere and genuinely happy for him and he smiled at that fact. "I want you to know that I don't have any regrets and before you throw me out or say something I want to explain everything. I couldn't talk to you about it before. But I can now and don't say anything until I am done." There was a silence until it was broken with Jess' deep breath and he started his explanation.
""Well let's start with the day of the party… I couldn't bear to disappoint you again so I kept it to myself. Then you came into the room, things started to heat up because I didn't want to loose you. I felt like I was and I wanted to hold on to you as long as I could. Then I saw you with Dean and just figured it would be the easy way out if I just left. I went to California to run away from everything. I couldn't bear to tell you good-bye, but I needed to get my life together…I just needed to get out and go. In California I started to straighten out and then I came back and told you I loved you….I just needed to let you know that I cared and then ran in fear of rejection. Then the night I came to your dorm, I went about it all wrong…I just wanted you in my life and decided what the hell and went for it. I decided that was it and moved into a better apartment, fixed things with Luke, and got it together hoping the next time I saw you I could explain."
"I guess I kind of understand why you left. I appreciate you staying and listening to all my crap. I needed someone…you were right, I couldn't count on you before but I can count on you now."
