Chapter Four: Marco
Where to start… well I'm gay. Ten years from now, I'll still be gay. And hopefully ten years from now, my dad will be accepting that. How it looks right now, that won't be happening. He got so mad at me when I told him… well told everybody. What was I thinking in that one moment when I got on stage and told my dad, along with half of Toronto, that I was gay? Do I even use my brain for reasons other than grades?
Okay, that was a rant. I should talk about my life. Things I'd want to remember in ten years. Things that when I'm watching this ten years from now, I'll laugh at myself for.
So how about I talk about boys?
I broke up with Dylan almost a year ago. And I'm completely over him. I really am. And I kind of have feelings for this new guy Tim. But what if he doesn't like me. Paige is convinced he does. Craig was convinced he does, before Craig ran off to Vancouver. Jimmy is even trying to hook us up. What is up with that?
Ellie says that maybe I'm just scared to fall for another guy again. After Dylan, who could blame me? It's like how she was scared to trust anyone after Sean left. I guess maybe she's right. Maybe I am afraid.
Or maybe what Paige said is right. Maybe I'm just not really over Dylan. But I am. I know I am. I haven't been thinking about him. That much at least. What do you expect though? He was my first love. I don't think I can ever just get over that miraculously. Even though that would be quite the miracle to wake up and not have the worry of seeing Dylan with some other guy.
Fine, I'll admit it. I'm not really over him.
But I'm ready to move on. I'm so ready to move on and just let last year be last year. Which is why I forgave Spinner. Which is why I'm going to ask out Tim.
In ten years, I really hope to be successful. I'll be out of college and hopefully with a steady boyfriend and with a good job. One day, I hope to adopt a little girl. Maybe a little boy. I hope to stay friends with all these crazy people I see everyday. I hope to never lose myself. But more than anything, I just want to find someone to be happy with. And I want my dad to accept me.
Marco turned off the camera and shook his head. He couldn't believe he had just told a video camera, and his peers ten years in the future, that he was still in love with his ex. A sigh escaped his lips and he turned the door handle, letting himself out of the confession booth.
Next time: Alex Nunez shows people her softer side.
Author's Note: I haven't forgotten this thing. I swear. I just never got around to updating. I'll actually try to not make it a month before I let you guys see Alex's side. Oh and I'm sorry if Marco sucked but I'm just not that good at writing Marco.
