Jason waited for her response but the look on her face told him she didn't really know. The conversation between he and Sky replayed in his head, his father words of how much of a nightmare watching him with Courtney had been. He wondered if her act of leaving was an act of desperation and as ashamed as he was of it was glimmer of hope that he would get his life back and Elizabeth back where she belonged with him.
Haven't decided yet.-
Oh well there some much your clearly good at. - Sam said.
I know, um Sam are you okay I need to get some air.-
Sure no problem.-
Jason watched her as she walked past him.
Are you okay?-
Fine why wouldn't I be?-
You seem a little nervous about something.-
Nothing.-
Liz nearly ran into the bathroom, once in there she ran into a stall and threw up. She knew that as long as he was good with it, he'd never know. Even if he found out it would be to late for him to do anything about, it was already was too late. Liz sat on the floor of the bathroom breathing hard. Truth be told she was scared mindless, that's why she hadn't left him along time ago. She had accepted him not loving her back, she has accepted her place in his life because she was too scared to do or be anything else then what Jason Morgan needed. The days of being strangled by her place in this world had come and gone, the tears where something she could get used and deal with. But it was the fear that ate at her, the made her afraid to leave the confines of this place, his life, his work. All she had to do was walk out the door, her last ditch effort to protect him from himself.
Are you sure you're okay. - Jason asked.
I just need a day to myself that's all.-
As long as its one day. - Liz looked at him.
I'm joking.-
She tried to smile she did but it was there again that fear how far and how fast could she get away before he found out. He noticed she was quite on the drive home.
Elizabeth it accurse to me the you don't know what your going to do next.-
I don't but that's the point taking chance isn't it.-
Yes but I hate for you to have to struggle.-
I'm used to it.-
Elizabeth, stay.-
Not this again. - She said annoyed.
Hear me out.-
I'm listening.-
Part time take over for Sam in her position better the pay and…-
You don't quit do you? The whole point is not to do the same shit I've been doing for ten years.-
I get that but you need to start somewhere.-
I did and got stuck there for 10 years. No.-
Elizabeth.-
NO! - She jumped out of the truck.
He fallowed her.
Its all about you isn't it. - She said.
No, it's about you now; I understand that you think you wasted your life. But I don't.-
You don't mater anymore Jason.-
The blanched at that comment.
Oh.-
Yeah, just like I was background noise you're an after thought. Good night I see you the day after tomorrow.-
He stood at the door for five minute before he finally walked down the stairs. Jason was so deep in thought the road ahead just blurred. Skye words came back at him again, he just kept leaving it at that, work, for some reason things with he and Elizabeth could never go beyond personal.
One day, one fucking day and all hell breaks lose. His hand itched to call her and tell her she was needed stop this foolishness and come back to work for good. Her phone ran but everyone was to busy to pick it up, he almost scream for Elizabeth when he realized.
Hello Elizabeth's desk.-
Courtney came into his office with a smile.
Is it true?-
Is what true. - He said with his hand on the phone.
Did you finally fire her?-
No, she retired.-
Hello is anybody there?-
I wanted to speak to Elizabeth.
Jason froze.
Why…- He looked at Courtney and cleared his throat.
Why would you want to speak to her?-
Its Thursday we always talk on Thursday. I like Thursday, how've you be Jase.
You've been call Elizabeth every Thursday for how long Xander?-
Courtney jumped up, fear on her face.
Sense that night Jase, the night we shared something so special together.-
Anger and rage overcame him, the bitch slept with Xander. Even after what he did to Courtney and everyone he loved.
Your lying.-
Oh know ask her, ask her about that night you where all huddle in the office trying to protect the blonde, we had ourselves a night. - Xander began to laugh. Jason slammed down the phone.
He's out?- Courtney cried.
No I have to go don't leave.-
The rage just built up until his insides boiled, all he could think was she did it to hurt him. Fucking women were all the same, she held her head up and called him everything under the sun and she fucked his worst enemy.
Open this fucking door you bitch.-
What the fuck is your problem now!-
Liz backed away when she saw the rage.
I don't believe you, you bitch. You slept with him, the man who tried to destroy me. You fuck him like some stinking whore.-
He grabbed her, not seeing the hurt and fear in her eyes.
You talk about trust and stand by me. You fucking liar, fucking whore. Don't bother coming back I don't ever want to see you again. Do you hear me.-
Your hurting me.-
I could do so much worse.-
You have, now get out. - She bit back the trembling in her voice.
tbc
