Hey! Only a few more chappies! Heads up, a lot of romance! And thank you all my endearing reviewers! Especially that Greg guy for being so brutally honest. I love it! And I'm telling you right now that some of you (esp. brutal guys) will think this chapter is very OCC and the real JN characters would never do anything like this, but you must understand that in this certain fanfic the characters are much older. Also, due to natural hormonal influx and concealing their emotions for years (I mean come on) they have got to spit it out sometime! And this fanfic is my depiction of this mean of confessing. Please take into consideration this author's note before reading. Thanks!
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If Only
Chapter 12
He watched her as she walked down to the water's edge. A cool breeze blew over her as she reached the water. Jimmy sat there, pondering what to do next as he gazed at her, dress flowing in the wind. He felt the cold breeze blow over them again and watched as she crossed her arms over her chest and began to shiver. He let out a defeated sigh as he took off his jacket and quietly walked up behind her. He carefully slipped it over her shoulders and wrapped his arm around her waist. She kept her face turned away from him as he tried to catch her eye, but he soon gave up.
"Come on," he told her and led her to a small log a few yards away. As they sat down, Jimmy slowly removed his arm from her waist and placed his hands on his knees.
"I'm sorry," she whispered, clutching his coat around her shoulders.
"Don't be, I'm sorry. I should have just come out with it instead of blabbing on like that." he told her with the ut most sincerity in his voice. An unendurable silence filled the air as the couple just stared out over the water, the moon and the candle light mixing together creating brilliant colors rippling through the small waves. Jimmy slowly turned himself towards her and gingerly touched her face. Cindy closed her eyes and absorbed the tingling feeling. As he pulled his hand from her cheek, she placed her hand on top of his, holding his shaky hand in place. She also turned herself to face him. They gazed into each other's eyes as Jimmy gathered his thoughts.
"Cindy, I...," he started, but couldn't form the words.
"Yes," she replied, urging him to continue. He wasn't sure what to do, so he did what the logical side of his brain told him not to. He decided it was finally now or never and that even if she torn him down like an old building, he was going to ask her the question that had been burning a hole in his ample brain the entire night and for several years.
"Cin, can I kiss you?" he asked as a playful smile formed on her face. She had been waiting so many lonely nights for him to speak up and concluded that she wasn't about to let this amatory moment slip away, even if it meant admitting her attraction towards the gentle genius. Cindy Vortex does not turn down a challenge.
"Depends," she responded and slipped her arms around his neck. He could feel his knees growing weaker and his stomach twisting into knots as he glided his own arms around her and rested his hands on her back, under his jacket. All reasoning seemed to slip away as he softly held her. Only his love for the intoxicating girl genius flowed through him, like the water in a steady stream. He admired everything about her and he realized that in a few years he could be with her forever, and with that came a thought of losing her forever if he did not release his sentiments now, and it clouded his mind for a single moment. Love induced determination overwhelmed him.
"May I, if I told you that I love you," he informed her. The words penetrated her heart as tears rolled down her cheeks. His own tears glistened in his eyes as pulled her closer. "I always have and I always will," he said as his tears finally escaped. "I'm so sorry I didn't tell you sooner, I was just afraid. And I'll understand if you don't feel the same way," he replied as he began to turn from her, but she stopped him.
(too emotional to write anything)
