o.O;;; I just got through watching Crybaby in like the longest time (cuz I forgot what happened. The only part I remember was when he was singing in jail and beating up the cops) and ANYWAYS, I never realized how DUMB they made Johnny Depp look. Lol, funny, but dumb. And man, even if his kiss was…well, let's say…weird, I'd rather be the one there! I wouldn't have doubted Crybaby once when that slut said that she was pregnant with his kid. Stupid Allison. Oh well, it was kyool.

Sorry, sorry it's so late. I've tried and tried to work on it, but I couldn't. I've opened it like 8 times before I finally continued it, after I got inspiration, somehow I got it from myself, and I typed! I'm so busy with school work, I know you don't care, but I have a math project worth 50 points, I need to make a DNA structure and answer the questions, I need to do 45 or more words of science vocabulary, I have an English project, and a huge ass history project! Argh! My parents where going to actually write a note to my history teacher and say that the work she's giving us is way out of sophomore year, because my mom's boyfriend is just now doing it and he's 30 years old and in collage. shakes head GOD!

People sometimes say that Hawaii students are stupider and slower then mainland students. But I have like…5 mainland friends and they ALL said that the mainland teachers don't go into detail as much as our teachers do, and Hawaii teachers take more time so that we can get each concept. They said, unlike Hawaii teachers, mainland teachers are more along the lines of…NOT going into detail I guess…the only reason we're so behind is because we spend a lot of time on things.

ANYWAYZ!

Ashiteru; Wo Ai Ni; I love you.

Chapter Nine: Breakdowns

By: Nalu gurl

Syaoran walked around a large house. He knew it was not his, but who's was it? He had no clue. He walked down the stairs when he heard a scream. He knew that scream anywhere. It was Sakura's scream.

He ran as fast as he could, but somehow he was being kept back. After what seemed forever, he finally reached her.

What he saw made him freeze. There, laying on the ground was Sakura. His Sakura. She was laying in a pool of blood. Syaoran looked up and saw Logan. A smirk playing across his lips. "What do you think?" He asked in a low, cold voice.

Syaoran looked back at Sakura, noticing her pregnant with his kid. She was knocked out, blood running from her head.

Syaoran sat up straight, sweating. Closing his eyes, he took in calm breaths. 'why are you haunting my dreams, Logan? Why are you doing this!' He thought, getting up and going to the bathroom. He brushed some water on his face, looking at himself in the mirror. He gave a startled cry and pushed himself away from the mirror, hitting the wall and falling to the ground. Looking at the mirror once again, he noticed it was just himself. Damned it all! Why was Logan everywhere?

When he looked into the mirror, he stared into icy blue eyes looking straight back at him. "Damn it! You better not touch Sakura…" He whispered.

The sound of knocking on the door made him jump. He sat there for awhile, trying to register who'd be up at…? What time was it? He stood up and looked at the clock. It told him it was two in the morning. He sighed, looking back at the door as another knock hit it. "Hold on…" He muttered, walking towards the door and opening it.

The sight of Sakura shocked him, even more when he saw she was crying. "Sakura? Sakura, what's wrong?" He whispered, pulling her into his arms.

"I had a nightmare." She was shaking, he noted, and he gently brought her into his room, quietly shutting the door, at the same time holding tightly on to his precious Sakura.

"Sakura, clam down. I'm here now, okay?"

"I'm sorry…" She started, her voice soft as sobs filled in between. "I didn't know who else to come to. I don't want to worry anybody, but I needed someone, and you where the first person I thought of, I don't know why. I'm sorry for bothering you, I'm—"

Syaoran pushed her the slightest away, and gently wiped away the tears. "I'm not going to ask you to relive it for me." He whispered. "It's not a problem, I'm glad you came to me, I'd feel heart broken if you hadn't." He smiled at her and she returned a small one. "Do you wanna sleep in here?" He asked her, unsure. The last time they slept in a bed with each other, Sakura had come out pregnant.

However, she nodded her head and rested it on his shoulder. "Yes…" The tickling sensation of her breath on his neck would drive any man insane, but he wouldn't be doing anything.

He nodded slightly, standing up straight and pulling her towards his bed. She got on, and laid on her side so that he'd be facing her.

She rested her hand on the pillow and he gripped it, just watching their clasped hands. How he'd long to do this in public, to have her love him like he loved her.

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A month passed, every once in awhile, Sakura had claimed the bed with him to sleep, her nightmares, as she told him, got worst and worst. She was, as it is, a month and a week pregnant, but they hadn't talked much about it. Maybe when she started showing, they would. She did, however, have a talk with Wei, who told her what types of things she could and could not do, things to stay away from. Sakura, upon hearing she shouldn't smoke, felt insulted that Wei would even think that she would, but he quickly, and nervously, told her that he knew she wouldn't and what he meant was not to go by people who smoked in the chance of getting second hand smoke.

As well as Sakura's dreams, Syaoran's got worst. Many different dreams, many different scenes, all one person dying: Sakura. Sakura always covered in blood. He remembered Logan's words in one of his dreams; I'll raise the child, he'll be just like me: perfect. The maniac!

Syaoran failed to talk about the dreams with anyone. Not Sakura, the girls, nor his best guy friends. That section of his mind became trapped by walls, and he suffered, damn, he suffered. It haunted him, and he was ready to explode.

News from the party seemed to have flowed fast. The headline of the newspaper for almost a whole weeks was A Li Heir: Syaoran Li gets friend pregnant! Dealing with that, he had interviews about his company and clan, and it all ended up with the topic of him having an heir. Besides that, he had a few things to work on with the company. For two days, he had gone back to Japan to go to some meetings. In the process, he had ended up talking to Yukito and Touya. Jo, Yukito's wife, was ready to give birth around the time he was there, and ended up having a baby girl named Roxy a week later. Syaoran, knowing Yukito was happy, also knew Yukito wanted a boy. As he heard from Sakura, Yukito was giving it another try.

Touya sadly explained that they wouldn't be able to make it up any time soon, with the new baby and their hectic schedules, they'd try to make it up as soon as possible.

Later, Syaoran had taken Touya somewhere private to discuss what had happened between he and Sakura. He told Touya that a guy named Jeremy from the club had spiked Sakura's drink and had gotten her drunk. She asked to sleep in his room, and one thing led to another. He explained that it was all his fault, and he took entire blame for it. He also told him that although Sakura and he where not a pair, they'd be raising the baby together. This, to his surprise, seemed to make Touya disappointed, but he said nothing.

Syaoran had also spoken to both men about Logan's appearance. They had been furious, and had started to work even harder to get home.

When Syaoran had returned, within a weeks time of being home, he was forced into meetings all day, every day, for a week and a half. Everyone had seemed to notice that Syaoran was getting grumpier, and when he finally snapped at Sakura for bothering him while he was working, he had stopped going to the meetings, calling every thing off.

He quickly apologized to her, and that same night, she ended up sleeping in his bed due to nightmares.

Within this time, the dodge ram had come in, and Syaoran quickly handed the keys to Sakura, who was as happy as she could get.

A couple nights back, Syaoran, who was sitting out on the balcony, had heard Sakura's cry, and went running to her bedroom. She was tossing and turning, sweating, and seeming to have been running a fever. Wei did everything in his care to get her better, saying her being sick could effect the baby, and within 3 days, she was seemingly back to normal. However, the nightmares continued, and every night, Syaoran stood by her door, waiting for her cry to come.

She needed to get out of here. He needed to get out of here. They needed to escape. The pressure of it all was harming both of them, and perhaps their child as well.

The night before, an idea came to mind. It was the best thing he could come up with, and he didn't know how things would hold up.

He sat on the couch in the living room and looked over to Sakura. She was watching TV, and then turned to him, smiling. You could see she wasn't getting much sleep, she was becoming weaker because of the dreams. Wei had pulled him aside and said she had to get better, or the child could be harmed greatly.

"Sakura?"

"Yeah?" She asked, sitting up from her laying position.

"How'd you like to get away with me?" He asked her softly. She looked at him, blinking.

"Get…away? What do you mean?"

"As in, getting away from this home. Going to the summer house I got. It's august, summer time. We can stay there as long as you like. Just me and you." He told her, looking excited. He so badly wanted to get away from here.

"Syaoran, what about everyone else? I mean---"

"Sakura! You can't worry about everyone else! I mean, yeah, you can, but right now you're sick. Sakura, you're becoming thin, you're supposed to, if anything, gain wait. You've gotten much paler. Being as sick as you're getting, it could harm the baby. Please, please think about the baby." He told her, putting a hand on her cheek, rubbing his thumb gently against it. "Please."

"Syaoran…"

"Don't give me an answer right away, but soon would be better. Think about it, okay?" He whispered, kissed her on the cheek, got up, and walked away.

Sakura watched him and then got up, walking into her room and into her bathroom. She looked at herself in the mirror, and sighed, noticing exactly how pale she had become. She grabbed a small foot stool and stood on it to get a full version of herself in the mirror. She noted that she was thin when she should have been gaining at least a little more weight. She collapsed to the ground. She really couldn't take this!

The dreams, nightmares…they where so bad…so…horrible. Gruesome…

She cried. She cried hard. She let everything out, right there on the tiled bath room floor. Her head resting on foot stool. She cried and she screamed out the only name she could think of.

Syaoran had ran in, quickly finding her on the floor. He sat down, grabbing her, pulling her into his arms and rocking her. "Shh, it's okay. I'm here."

Meiling and Kyoshi had come running in, followed by Nadeshiko, then Tomoyo, Eriol, and Yelan, and soon enough, Wei. They silently watched as Syaoran held on tightly to the frail girl, who was crying as hard as she could.

Sakura looked up into Syaoran's eyes, tears still running down. "I…I can't do this…" She whispered, her voice soft and full of sobs. "I can't…it's to hard. I'm to young, please Syaoran…I can't take it…"

Syaoran quickly noted what she was talking about, and from the apparent gasps of everyone, so did they.

"Sakura…"

"I can't do it, Syaoran. Please, please, I'm begging you. I can't…"

Syaoran shook his head. He was worried, sad, upset, and angry. "You will not kill my child, Sakura. You will not kill our child. I will not allow it!"

"Syaoran….it's so…so…hard…" She tried to push away, but he wouldn't allow it. "I don't want anymore nightmares!"

"No!" He spoke firmly, but quietly. "I forbid it. Sakura, I told you we can do this, please come with me to the summer house. Let's get away from here. Everything will be okay. The nightmares will go away, everything will be fine, understand?"

"Syaoran…"

"Understand?" He asked, calmly, holding her to his chest. "I wont allow it, Sakura. You can't do that to me…"

"No…no, I can't. I'm sorry, Syaoran…I'm…sorry…" She cried once again.

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"Syaoran, stop thinking about it…"

Syaoran turned to face Eriol and Kyoshi, glaring hard. "She wanted to kill the baby!" He hissed, quietly so that the girls in the other room couldn't hear. "After all we've been through, she wanted to kill it."

"You know it's tough on her, Syaoran. She really didn't mean it, she's just confused."

Syaoran sat on the bed, putting his head in his hands. A sob escaped, and the two boys eyes widened. "Syaoran…?" They whispered, moving towards him. another sob escaped, but it was muffled, and could barely be heard. Kyoshi looked at Eriol worriedly. He didn't know what to do.

"She wanted to kill it…I couldn't…I was ready to cry in there, as soon as I heard her say that…" He looked up. So far, only small tears had fallen. Both men knew Syaoran wasn't one to cry, and quickly worried. "When you get your girls pregnant, you'll know how it feels. Damn it, I created life! Do you know what it feels like to hear that the mother of your child, the child that you haven't even met yet, wants to kill it? Do you?"

"Syaoran, Sakura is confused. She agreed to come with you, she doesn't want to kill the baby, you know that. You know deep down there in your heart, she wont ever want to do that." Syaoran nodded, and both Eriol and Kyoshi grabbed him before he fell to the ground, no longer crying, but just totally worn out.

"I love her…" He whispered, shocking both of them before his eyes closed completely, and his weight got heavier.

Kyoshi looked at Eriol, holding the dead weight in his arms as Eriol soothingly rubbed Syaoran's back, as if to calm his nightmares. "A nervous breakdown, perhaps?"

"Perhaps…We should just let him sleep. Help me get him on the bed…" Kyoshi nodded, and gently laid Syaoran on the bed. Kyoshi drew the sheets on him, and shut all windows and curtains, making the room as dark as he could. Eriol helped, turning on the AC to low so he wouldn't burn up. They both walked out, and pulled the girls, besides Sakura who was also sleeping, outside the two sleeping peoples rooms.

"Syaoran had a nervous breakdown. We put him in bed, but we're worried." Kyoshi explained. "Don't wake him up, and try to keep Sakura from going in there. We just want him to rest."

All females, the two younger ones and the two older ones, nodded, looking quite worried.

"They'll be leaving to the summer house tomorrow, hopefully then, Syaoran will be calmed down, and he and Sakura will do well." Eriol explained. "He is, as he told us, in love with Sakura. With that, he also fears for her safety as well as the child. He had to hear Sakura say she wants to give up the baby, and he also has to deal with the company. And I'm most likely sure he is suffering from the same nightmares as Sakura. Besides that, he'd been keeping everything inside, and it's been building. Trying to be strong for Sakura. He's going though a lot, taking in he's taking not only his problems in and rapping them inside with him, but Sakura's as well. It is all hard on him. He really does need to rest."

"We just need to pray…" Yelan whispered and everyone nodded slowly.

Well, that's it. It's a very…sad and emotional chapter. I had wanted Sakura to brake down, it was in my plan. But I didn't really plan on Syaoran. I didn't know what to write when I ended with Sakura's breakdown, and I figured I wanted to write on Syaoran. I then thought I wanted Kyoshi and Eriol to comfort him and I wanted him to tell them that he was in love with Sakura. A friends moment. Then I thought, you know, Syaoran's going through a lot. He's really stressed, if Sakura broke down for the apparent reasons, Syaoran should be able to as well. And I don't think it's unmanly to break down, do you? It fit in well. So I really got into that, almost cried, but it really touched me…As it is, this was a new chapter.

Well, thanks for ALL your suggestions. I picked out a few, and put them all together so I could build up to what I want to happen. You can already see that this chapter started someone's idea, the idea of them escaping together.

Oh, I do, however, have a question. I'm planning to have a memory chapter. It wont be for awhile. It'll be on Syaoran's memories with Sakura. I put it that way because Syaoran is, in a way, watching Sakura grow into something beautiful and something he wants. And I thought it better to do it that way instead of Sakura having the dreams. Would you rather me post that chapter or not. I just wanted to know. I may or may not go with your answers, but I'd like to know anyway.

I guess I can tell you this, so that you can, well, I don't know…get interested if you're not already. Syaoran is going to break down once again. Later in the story though. I thought about this part really hard, and I finally came to a conclusion that that part would be necessary to go with. Well, I hope you enjoyed, please review. Imma gonna go read this over again.

This was done on May 5th 2005.

P.S. There's this online comic called "Pandect" by Dina…sumthin… go here: www(dot)morbid-prince(dot)com From there, press "enter" and at the bottom of the page, there will be "comics." Click on that, and two different comics will appear. Read both if you will, but I suggest read pandect first, it's newer and more upbeat, as in, she updates faster. Like, three times a week. It's a really good comic, very nicely drawn. My fav. Is Ice and Kouros. (Read it!)