Ah, so long since I wrote an update on a fic. Sorry for the wait, I was just damn lazy and my brain wouldn't work like it should. And might I say... this brain of mine just doesn't give me enoughh ideas at all!
Italics are still thoughts and sometimes for emphasis. It starts in Sasuke's POV but changes into Naruto's later. Don't worry I indicated the change of POVs so you won't get confused
Disclaimer: Naruto does not belong to me. And its characters aren't mine as well. They belong to the god-like being that made it.
Ignorant Lover – Chapter III
"Sasuke…I…"
I didn't know what to do. Heck! I wished this moment would just end. I never even imagined this would happen. Someone once told me before that dreams can tell you what will happen in the future, but I didn't think that it would happen! It just seemed all so impossible. Maybe this was just another dream, and a bad one I might add, but it just seemed all so real!
I tried to muster all the courage I never knew I even had to begin with, so that I could take whatever it is he had to say. Be it 'I love you' or maybe even 'I hate you' or even anything nonsensical! So long as I could take it.
Wait… what am I... thinking Him saying I love you… that's ridiculous! He doesn't have feelings for me. Or does he? What's wrong with this! Oh God help me! Just take me away from here!
"Sasuke…I…" He kept repeating the same phrase. It would seem as though he wasn't sure of what he was going to say. Nervous? Perhaps… but I couldn't be too sure. How was I to know, I wasn't a mind-reading God. "Naruto, what is it?" I tried to act calm, although I was absolutely trembling inside. I don't know what to do anymore.
Please… someone… just take me away!
"I wanna ask you something… if it's alright with you…" He finnaly spoke. But what is it that he was going to ask me? Maybe it's about my frequent blushing today.
I-If he asked that… then what do I tell him? I can't tell him that it was he who was making him blush! What would he think of me then?
Even as nervous as I was, I want to know what he was going to say. I took a breath and tried to act normal. "Sure go ahead" I finally was able to speak. I was curious yet terrified of what he was about to ask. "Well… Sasuke… I was wondering…"
Oh heck! Get on with it! You're going to kill me here!
"Well… I was wondering… how you knew that'd I'd be outside at this time." That was it? That was all he was going to ask. "Why do ask that?" It seemed strange that he asked that question. He wasn't the type to actually care if he met up with someone. "It's because… well… it seemed strange, we always bump into each other, and I really do mean that we bump into each… a lot…"
Ack… how'd he notice such a thing! He's not the kind who pays attention on little things. What should I tell him? I can't tell him that I had his whole normal schedule burned in my head!
It's confusing. It had my head hurt, I couldn't think of what to do or what to say. Should I tell him the truth? I'm not exactly good in lying. Wait… maybe I could pass off a lie to him. He's not the type to actually be able to distinguish a lie from the truth as long as it was reasonable. "I-Is that… so? I-I guess th-that it was just c-c-coincidence. Yeah, coincidence… that's it."
What am I doing? I'm being nervous and all. If he notices that then I'm sure that he'll know that it was all a lie! Someone please, kill me already!
I want to die already! I can't take it anymore. The pressure is just killing me. He's going to find out about it! Then he'll hate me and be disgusted with me and he may never even pay attention to me anymore! He'll just ignore me like with what he had done with my affection towards him.
"Is that so…" He finally spoke. His voice ended the quarrelling inside my head and has brought my head back into reality. "Y-yeah…" I was nervous and all my words seemed messed up and cracky. I just hope that he didn't notice that though. "I see! I guess I was just thinking too much." He then smiled, back to that happy-go-lucky smile which had also hinted that asking that was just a stupid question. "Ne, Sasuke, let's continue our walk, shall we?" It seemed like nothing happened, he was smiling again and the pressure of him figuring out how I feel was gone. It seems as though that his smile just made it go and fly into the sky not to be seen again. "A-Alright… let's go."
We walked that path for some while. He pointed out things that he deemed was funny or interesting. He pointed out to the man playing with his dog on the fields. We even greeted Kakashi-sensei, our teacher who was coincidentally also walking in the same walk way. And also a few people we knew here and there greeted us.
After a while we were at the end of the path. It wasn't that long though but we stopped every now and then when we saw people we knew.
At the end of the pathway was a beautiful view. The seashores were just below platform we stood on. The waves crashing against the poles that supported the platform and the heavy weight of the people it carried. It was almost for the to sun set. They say that this was the place is where the sunset was extremely beautiful since you wouldn't see all the building and anything else that would ruin the beautiful moment.
"Look Sasuke! The sun's setting!" He tugged my arm and pointed to the direction of the sun. Indeed it was setting and it was beautiful too. It seemed very romantic… this scenery… I could imagine two lovers watching the sunset together and then suddenly kissing each other in one long passionate kiss.
"It's really beautiful, isn't it, Sasuke?" "Yeah… It's beautiful…" It really was beautiful, it was wonderful and soothing, it takes all the stress you have away and makes it disappear.
This sunset… it's not as beautiful as you though…This sunset just couldn't rival to your beauty. I wish… that I could tell you… should I even tell you…
Should I tell him now? This moment seemed good enough. We are alone. No one else was here. But could I really tell him? How would he react if I did tell him? I think that he's just going to end up hating me and ignoring me for the rest of eternity… but still… I have to tell him someday.
I might not get another chance like this. This may probably be my first, last and only chance to express how I feel. I don't care anymore of what he's going to say… I have to let my feelings out… If he did reject me, which seems like a huge possibility… I'll probably get over it… somehow…
"N-Naruto…" The sun had finally set and it was dark, the lamps in the area and the stars in the sky were the only things lighting the area. I didn't look at him, my head was facing the ground so that he wouldn't see my face. But despite that, I know that he had a questioned look on his face. "Naruto… I… I… I love you!"
There… I finally said it. Now what… I'm sure he must be in shock. It's not normal for another guy to like another guy.
"Sasuke…" He only said my name. That was no surprise… I'm sure that he must be shocked. He must be confused right now. I know I would be… I already am!
I couldn't take it anymore, the silence, the unknowingness of what to do at that very moment. "I-Its late… I should go…" After muttering those words, I ran away. Ran as far and as fast as my legs could hold. I ran toward home. I just couldn't bear what his reaction could be. But I stopped on the way. I was breathless and tired. I couldn't make it all the way back home. The ramen store was nearby… I think… I could use a bite. It might help me forget. So I went inside and ordered some ramen.
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Naruto's POV…
Sasuke said that he loved me. I think my ears are just playing games with me. It couldn't be true. It couldn't be… Why would he want me anyway? He had all the girls in school falling for him and would be willing to become his slave as long as they were together… so why… I don't understand… not at all.
My mind dazed off in to a world filled with my thoughts as I walked back down the path we were in a moments earlier. Sasuke must already be miles away from where I was at the moment.
I never thought that something like this would happen. Never in my entire life did I think that someone like Sasuke would actually even actually take interest in me. I never even thought that someone would actually even like me… let alone Sasuke…
My stomach rumbled as I was in deep thought. It had me realize, It was already a bit late and I haven't had dinner. I decided to go to the ramen store where they made my favorite ramen. I guess… I could also think more about it when I'm eating…
I decided to hurry to the ramen shop before it became even later than it already was and have them close. I ran toward the store and stepped inside… There I saw Sasuke, he was also eating…
"Sasuke…" I muttered quietly, trying as hard as I can so that he wouldn't hear. I sat at the opposite end trying to avoid being seen at all costs.
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Sasuke's POV…
I heard someone sit down. All sound could be heard since the place didn't have much people in it, so most of the sound just echoes in the room. I looked to where I heard a man sit down. I was surprised of what I saw. It was Naruto, he was here as well. The one I wanted to avoid at all costs was here in the same place I was just sitting across me a few chairs away.
"Here's your miso ramen!" The store owner handed me my bowl of ramen. I just smiled at him as thanks. I noticed that he had another bowl of miso ramen in his other hand. I watched him for a while and saw him giving it to Naruto.
He ordered the same thing I did… He's also in the same place I am… Is this all just a coincidence? Or maybe is it fate just toying with us?
I wanted to end this bowl as soon as I can that I could leave. I sped up my eating pace, trying to finish my food so that I wouldn't see him anymore, so that I could leave… so that won't see him.
Even though I was hurrying with my meal, Naruto finished before me. It was rather unusual, since he only ate one bowl of ramen. He usually ate as much as he could stomach. It was also a good thing that he already left. At least now, I could eat in peace and not choke on my food as I do so. I savored every bit of my meal, trying now to take as long as possible just to be sure that Naruto would be gone by then.
I finished the last bit of soup and noodles in my bowl. The store owner took my finished bowl and asked for the payment. After I paid, I got out of my seat and walked outside. It was getting late. I really should be getting home.
I walked out the door and slid it close behind me. I was walking now and was about to go home. "Sasuke…" I heard a voice from behind me call my name. I turned to my back to see who it was. It was Naruto…
What was he still doing here? I thought he had left ages ago. I even slowed down eating so that could give him time to leave… and yet he waited out here.
I tried to walk away but his hand grabbed my arm to stop me. "Sasuke… why?" I knew that if I didn't tell him something, he wouldn't let go, he always keeps on persisting and asking when he wanted to know something. "It's because… I love you…" I paused for a moment. "There was never a time that you weren't on my mind… and I've always remembered you… but…" I looked away. My anger and impatience was building up. I just started screaming at him. "But all you could ever give me in return was to be ignorant! You don't even care on how I feel!"
With those final words, I just couldn't help it. I had to escape from this nightmare somehow… So I ran… I ran away again…
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Naruto's POV…
I watched him run away. It didn't matter. I had nothing to say anyway… I can avoid him as much as I want. I don't want to think about this anymore… But how am I going to do that… There will be classes on Monday… sure I can avoid him on weekends… but… what am I to do when I am forced to see him once more.
I too went home. I walked away… slowly… fearing the dreadful day that was Monday… He's one of my friends I hold dear… and now… I have to distance myself from him… to avoid hurting him… to avoid thinking of what he said… to be frank… I'm just running away…
Author's Notes: This has got to be the longest chapter I have ever made. It's a record of 2000+ words! I know how to end this story already, I just want some reviews and maybe I could make the ending better. I'm going to end this story in the next chapter already, and no, I'm not killing anyone this time.
Please, review! reviews just make my world go round! oh and dont bother emailing me... since i dont check often... XD
