Chapter 4

Dean stared at me for what seemed hours, but looking at the clock with my blurred vision i found out that only minutes had gone by. "Sam." Dean's voice was different, harsh, angry. "Damn it Sam, what the hell is wrong with you?" I honestly don't know, i feel as if i haven't got control of my body, why am i being naïve, i know i haven't got control of my body, i never have. "Sam!" Dean is shouting now. But i can barley hear him, he rushes over to me, something catches me as i fall, its Dean. His strong arms catch me, i didn't know i was falling, but I'm on the floor now. Aware that my body is shaking out of my control, Dean panics, i can't panic, i don't know what's going on. I know one thing, my secrets about to come out.

I know he found it, he hasn't said anything, but the glare in his eyes says it all, looking at the clock its been three hours since my latest episode. I must have fallen asleep, no, more like passed out, i feel like shit, like i always do, but this shit feels worse! And Dean staring at me, his eyes full of disappointment makes me feel insignificant. "Dean..."

"Save the bull Sam, we got work to do." Okay, i deserved that, but that hurt. "Some one else is dead."

"What, who?"

"Paula Connell."

"What happened?"

"The sea monster, obviously." Damn, his tone, his bitterness.

"When? I thought the ocean was cornered of."

"You can't corner of the entire ocean, its every where. She was found on the shore. Looked as if she was drowned."

"All the other bodies was never found, maybe she did just drown."

"Teeth marks on her leg almost bit of her feet, looked as if she struggled to get away."

"How do you know?"

"Well when you was taking your power nap, i went out."

"oh."

"yeah, now get up, we're going out. I'm hungry."

This is so awkward, he defiantly knows, he is silent, but not his normal brooding silent, this silence hurts. "Look Dean..."

"I don't want to hear it." So i didn't press it any further. With out any more things said, with out one more glare, Dean walked on, as usual i followed. I didn't know the plan, he didn't intend on me knowing the plan just like i didn't intend on him finding out my dirty little secret.

"Agent what was it..."

"Fletcher." Dean cut in, and showed the badge once more. "Another death. Not looking good is it, surfers saying the beach is cursed."

"That's stu..."

"Yeah, what ever, any way. What we got here?"

"Another one sir. Shark attack by the looks of it."

"Yeah, in California, don't think so."

"What else could it be? Teeth marks, some thing big did it, almost ripped her legs right of."

"Well sharks don't usually come as far out as California."

"It can happen sir."

"Anything else"

"No."

"Bye then." Dean said, and walked of. I followed, lost dog following his leader, his owner, his best friend.

"Dean, do you think..."

"No," he said bitterly. "It was the Fob."

"How do we kill it?"

"We can't."

"Then how.."

"I don't know Sam. Why don't you give it some of your drugs, see what happens then!"

"Dean..."

"Save it for some one who cares," and he was of, he threw me the car keys, and walked of, more like ran off.

Where is he? Its been two hours since he walked of, he left me. The middle of a hunt, and he left me. There's something out there, and it wants him dead, only i know it, he don't, he is walking around blind out there, i can't sit around doing nothing, What would Dean do? Kick me in the balls, for being a dick, that's what he'll do. I feel weak, ashamed, i need something, i need more of it. So i take it. Nothings going to stop me now. I'm going to find my brother! And I'm going to save him, and then, I'm going to give it up, go home, out of his life where he wants me.