Here's the second installment. I didn't get that great of a response to the first part. I'm working on another story so, entirely different in style and content. Hopefully I'll get it out within the next couple of days. Anyway, enough of my rambling—enjoy the story. If I don't get a better feedback than before this will probably be the last chapter.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
Chapter Two:
The sun shinned brightly through the blinds which Meredith forgot to close the night before. Groggily she reached for her clock. It was a quarter past seven. Meredith began to climb from her bed as the events from the night before slowly came back to her. She looked down at herself still dressed in her black gown. Meredith knew that she couldn't keep running from this situation, but maybe she could wait a few hours before she dealt with it.
Meredith jumped in the shower. She was almost sad to clean off his sent. This same sent that in some ways allowed her to slept through last night. Something about it was comfortable and familiar to her. It reminded her of simpler happier times. Time where Derek really was hers. Before Addison. Before Finn. The cool water ran down her body. She had little drive to get out of the shower, but she knew she couldn't stay here forever.
After she got dressed she looked into Izzie's room. Izzie was lying in her bed. Her make up we smeared across her face. Her beautiful pink gown was lying on the floor. George lied beside her in the bed. He held her as if he was never going to let go. Izzie needed some kind of contact; a human touch and George provided that for her.
Meredith thoughts were interrupted by the doorbell. It was time to face life. She slowly walked down the stairs. She didn't want to see what awaited her on the other side of the door. Her entire body tensed when she realized it was Finn. She had no idea what she was going to say to him. She still had no idea what she had decided to do.
Meredith took a deep breath as she opened the door. Meekly she said, "hi." Finn just stood there. He didn't say anything but rather stepped inside. The two of them just stood there for what seemed like an eternity. So much needed to be said, but neither of them was willing to say it.
"Meredith I knew you were scary and broken, but I never had any idea how broken you really were. I had plans, and they included you, but there's only so much I can do for you. There's only so much you'll let me do for you. I can't fix you. I can never make you feel complete. You need something else. Something I can't give you, and it's not fair to either of us if we keep moving forward. Something happened last night, and I don't know what, and I'm pretty sure I don't want to know."
"Finn," Meredith began.
"Shh," Finn replied, "Let me finish. This is over, I know this. I really like you, and I can't sit here and try to love you try to help you all the while watching you suffer. I'm not angry. I don't resent you in anyway. I just need to protect myself."
Silence once again filled the room. "Bye Finn," Meredith finally said.
"Goodbye Meredith," Finn said and he walked to the door and shut it behind himself.
Meredith fell to the floor as the tears began to run down her face. Finn had left her, so why did this decision feel so hard so heavy. Derek was in fact still married. Regardless of last night, Derek made no indication that he planned to end his marriage. Perhaps what happened in the exam room was the result of simply lust and jealous rage. Perhaps she really was a whore. Meredith just sat there. Unwilling to make anymore steps forward, at least not for now. She needed to figure out how to deal with the now. Meredith just sat there and let her thoughts race through her mind.
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