AN: Here's the rest of the fic. Sorry it took so long for me to put up. Things have been very busy for me. Hope you enjoyed the story. As always, I appreciate feedback.
Meredith pulled into the parking lot of Seattle Grace. She couldn't help but shake the feeling that this entire mess was her fault. Addison was right. She should hate her. Meredith walked into the hospital and silently cursed her luck when she saw Derek approaching her. She had nothing to say.
"Seriously?" Meredith screamed at him. Derek gave her a puzzled, hurt look. Meredith ran to the stairwell and began her slow ascent up the stairs. It couldn't be this simple. He couldn't just divorce Addison and expect the two of them to live happily ever after. It just didn't work like that.
Meredith exited the stairway and Derek was leaning on the adjacent wall looking at her. That same look that made her heart melt every time. Their look. "You know the elevator is a hell of a lot faster than the stairs," quipped Derek.
"Derek not now. Not here. Not like this. Just leave me alone. This is all too much. Just stop, please. I'm exhausted," Meredith cried as she turned to walk into the locker room. Derek followed her.
"Stop please. I can't deal with this not now. Izzie and Christina, and Finn. I broke his plans, and Addison. Who loves you so much, but God I love you so much, and I don't want to. I just want this to stop. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of crying. I can't do it anymore. I can't do it," Meredith cried.
"Mer," Derek began.
"Are you listening to me? Please stop. What do you need from me? I love you. I love you. I love you so much, but it's not enough," Meredith sobbed. Derek stepped forward and took his body into his arms. He held Meredith's small frame in his arms as her sobs wrecked through her body.
He wanted to hold her forever. He never wanted to let go. He ran his hands through her hair. He wanted to say something, anything. He wanted to tell her how sorry he was. He wanted to tell her how much he loved her, but he knew that there was little he could do in this moment to begin to repair her heart that he had so badly broke.
The two lovers sat there, neither of them wanting to say what needed so desperately to be said. Derek knew he had to say something. "Meredith I messed up, and I know that. I wanted to do the right thing. I wanted the easy way out, and I'm miserable. You're miserable. I just made a big mess out of things. Regardless of the mess or my need to feel like a good guy, I love you. I love you, Meredith, and I'm so sorry for hurting you so much. Last night was the first time in a long while that I felt whole. Everything about the situation was so wrong, but it was right. I can't go back and change anything, as much as I wish I could. I just know that I love you, and I want to move forward with you."
Meredith finally heard the words that she so desperately needed to hear. There was nothing left to be said. Not now, not today.
Silently Meredith and Derek walked out of the locker room and out of Seattle Grace. Silently Derek drove Meredith home. Silently they went into her house and into her bedroom. Silently they took off each other's clothes. Derek softly placed Meredith on her bed and kissed her. Soft. Silently they made love.
Neither of them had ever felt more complete in their lives. Before they had known so little about one another. But now they knew each other's dark truths. They far too familiar with each other's ugly sides. Similarly to the night before, Derek made love to all of Meredith. But unlike last night it wasn't rushed or wrong in anyway. They were simply two people who love one another, expressing their love.
Meredith rolled on her side. Derek grabbed her and pulled her into his body. They laid there silently. Neither of them knew what was going to happen next. Were they a couple? Would they be okay? What should they do next? There was so much they needed to talk about. So many things they needed to figure out, but they could wait because they had figured out the most important thing of all. They loved one another, and there was nothing they could do about it. They would just have to move forward. Together. The rest would fall into place.
--fin.
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