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Addicted

Chapter 1 Still There

Jay Hogart turned over and stared at the picture on his night table for the millionth time. It was the only picture he had of her, Emma Nelson. It was a picture from the school production of 'Dracula', she looked so beautiful and was amazing in the play. Jay felt somewhat empty without her around. After the STD business Emma had stopped coming to the ravine and had returned all of her bracelets, Alex had dumped him and started dating Craig, and Amy, well Amy still wanted to hook up with Jay but he wasn't interested anymore. He had turned her down so many times that he had quit going to the ravine all together. It wasn't the same without Emma. Jay couldn't figure out why she got to him so much, much more than Alex ever had. All he wanted to do was to be around her, to talk to her. It didn't help matters much that she wouldn't even give him the time of day when they were at school, of course it got easier after he had been expelled and he didn't have to see her everyday. Then summer came. His new buddy Gavin 'Spinner' Mason had gotten him a job at the local hang out The Dot, who were catering a movie shoot at Degrassi. Unknown to Jay and Spinner, Emma had gotten a job there also, but not working at the shoot. When Jay found out he asked his boss for as many shifts with Emma as possible, this way he thought he could start to repair some the damage he had caused. Emma didn't seem to mind working with Jay but she was still very distant, understandably. Jay turned over and tried to get Emma off of his mind, tomorrow was the last day before school started again and thanks to some large donations from his parents, the board had decided to let Jay return to grade 11 at Degrassi.

"It can't be that bad," Jay thought out loud. "Emma might be in some of my classes." Jay rolled over and fell asleep hoping that Emma would be more open to a reconciliation in the new school year.

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Emma rolled over and looked at the clock for the hundredth time. It had been three months since she severed all emotional and physical ties to Jay and the ravine but thoughts of him were still there.

"He would still be there," Emma thought contemplating going to the ravine. Emma shook the thought out of her head. She saw Jay enough at school and now when they worked together, which was often. Tomorrow was supposed to be one of those days but she had switched with Spinner. Emma thought about the last three months and the progress she had made. She had gotten rid of all the bracelets and evidence that she was ever involved with Jay Hogart. She had finished out the school year and took some summer school courses to make up for the ones that she had ditched in second semester. Emma smiled to herself, she had her grades, friends and reputation back just the way she wanted it, so why did it feel like there was something missing?

"Jay is probably down there with Amy or some other hoebag," Emma told herself as she rolled over and fell asleep.

Emma's Dream

He looked amazing in his black swim trunks and tight wife beater and of course his signature backwards cap and sunglasses. Jay Hogart, her boyfriend, sat on the hood of his orange civic grinning at her. Emma Nelson didn't know what she had done to deserve such a loving boyfriend but she enjoyed it. She bounced down her front steps in her white flip flops, purple swim shorts, white tank top and a peak of her purple bathing suit straps.

"Hey, gorgeous!" he said pulling her into a kiss by her waist.

Wrapping her arms around his strong shoulders she said, "Not to bad yourself, babe. So, what's the plan for today?" Emma asked.

"Well, I thought we could go pick up Ellie and head up to Wasaga and surprise Sean with a day at the beach with his best friends. What do you think?" Jay responded as he opened her door for her.

"Sounds perfect lets do it!" Emma said getting into the car.

"Will you call Ellie and tell her that we are on our way?" Jay asked as he got behind the wheel and handed Emma his cell phone.

"Sure". Emma said dialing Ellies number.

"Hello?" Ellie answered the phone sounding slightly out of breath.

"Hey El, it's Em. We are on our way to pick you up." Emma said into the phone.

"Okay I should be ready when you guys get here. I just have a few more things to put into my bag, see you soon bye." said Ellie before she hung up.

"Okay hun, see you in a few, bye." Emma said as she hung up the phone.

"So, what did she say?" asked Jay.

"She said she has a few more things to get ready and should be outside when we get there." Emma explained.

"Okay, sounds good." Jay said.

When they pulled up to Ellies she was just coming out and locking the door. She was wearing black flip flops, black swim shorts, a black one piece and a black and white striped jacket and carrying a black bag.

"Is everything you own black?" Jay asked jokingly as Ellie climbed into the back-seat.

"No, not everything. Some of my socks are grey." she said with a laugh.

Emma and Jay let out a laugh as they pulled out of the driveway and headed to Wasaga beach. Jay dropped Ellie off at Sean's and told her to bring him to the beach. At the beach Jay and Emma built sandcastles and waded hand in hand until Ellie walked on to the beach with Sean.

"SURPRISE!" they all shouted at once.

"Whoa! This is great guys! And I have a surprise for all of you. I, Sean Cameron, am coming back to Degrassi this year!" Sean said.

Ellie, Jay and Emma started shouting and hugging Sean with excitement all at once. The four of them sat down on the blanket and had lunch. After lunch, Ellie and Sean went to rent a paddle boat so Emma asked Jay if he wanted to go for a swim.

"You're on. As long as that cute little tank top of yours comes off." Jay said with a smirk.

"Okay, no problem." Emma said as she took off her swim shorts. Emma removed her tank top to reveal a dark purple string bikini. Emma looked up at Jay and thought he was about to pass out. "Is something wrong Jay?" Emma asked.

"Not a thing Em, not a thing." Jay said taking her in.

Emma had developed quite a bit over the summer and had managed to keep it hidden as best she could from Jay, and from his reaction she had waited until the perfect moment to show her new body off. After their swim Emma decided that she wanted to get some sun. She lied down on her towel and grabbed her sun lotion from her bag.

"Jay will you rub some lotion on my back?" Emma asked sweetly.

"I have a better idea." Jay said playfully. With that he rolled her on her back and pressed his body against her and kissed her passionately.

End of Dream

Emma woke up in a cold sweat. "Oh my God." she said sitting up. Even in her sleep Emma couldn't stop thinking about Jay. Emma looked down at the clock and sighed.

"5:46! Way too early to get up. My date with Chester isn't until 11:30." Emma said to herself. Emma set her alarm for 9:30 and rolled over.

"No more thoughts or dreams about Jay Hogart. I am moving on with my life and I am moving on with Chester." Emma told herself as she drifted off into a dreamless sleep.