Excuses, excuses, excuses. It's been awhile since I have updated. When was the last time, August? Well I'm sorry, but my life has changed a lot. For the better! New friends, a social life. Yup I actually have a life. This is the first time for a long time that I haven't anything going on. Thank god for summer. Ok I should start writing now.


Two years. It has been two years since that incident has happened. Now I am 18, and just about ready to graduate high school. My life has changed drastically since that night. I've become more suspicious of people, and jumpy. I haven't dated much either. And I don't like people getting to close to me.

For the first year was hard for me. Life was just too different for me. My life had taken a wrong turn. I changed schools for a while because I couldn't take going there anymore. My appearance changed too. I died my hair black and everything I wore mostly dark colors for a while was black. My friends left me, and so did my family. They were there physically, but they just gave up on trying to reach me. I just couldn't talk to them. There was no way they could understand.

Joey got amnesia after being hit in the head. That lasted three months. Everyone was trying to help him remember things that they forgot about me. I couldn't stand being around him. I felt to guilty. I remember this one incident when we were hanging around the card shop on a Saturday------


Tea leaned against the wall with her arms crossed, watching her friends chatter happily about duel monsters. She pulled down the hood of her dark blue hoodie as far as it could go. Duel monsters didn't interest her anymore. Now it was just a childish game. Their laughter was starting to agitate her.

"Hey Tai," Joey said to Tea. "Want to play duel monsters?"

An unknown anger erupted in Tea. "My name is not Tai you fucking moron!" she screamed at him. Yugi and Joey froze, looking confused at Tea. Joey's eyes started to cloud over with tears.

"I'm sorry," he apologized as the water began to fall from his eyes.

"Tea, its not his fault!" Yugi said, trying to comfort Joey. "He can't remember anything. It's ok Joey, she didn't mean it."

"Yes I did!" Tea spat out, much to her surprise. She had no idea where this was all coming from. Yugi shot her a glare. Something that he has never done to Tea before. Now she didn't know what to do. She mumbled something under her breath and left Yugi's grandpa's store.

"Fucking duel monsters," Tea grumbled as she kicked a random can that was lying in on the sidewalk. She thought over what had just happened. Tea growled angrily and kicked the can, sending it flying. She began to run home.

It was empty again. Tea went straight to the bathroom. "God damn it what's wrong with me?" she asked her self loudly. She began to pull at her raven hair as she screamed. "What the hell is wrong!"

Slowly, Tea brought herself up from the floor, gripping onto the rim of the sink for support. Her entire body was shaking furiously. With much trouble, Tea looked at herself in the mirror. Her eyeliner and mascara was running down her face, making black streams of tears. "What have I become?" she asked herself in her mind. She closed her eyes tightly as more tears seeped through them.

She saw a razor blade laying on the small surface about the sink. She picked it up and grasped the handle tightly. Slowly, she pushed up the sleeve of her hooded sweatshirt, and placed the blade right above her wrist. For a moment she stayed there, not moving. She could feel the cold metal on her pale skin. Then she broke into a hysterical fit of laughter. The blade clattered to the floor. "Who the hell am I?" she asked through her laughter.


That day was one that will always haunt me. Even though Joey doesn't remember it, but I always will. So would Yugi. He hasn't looked at her the same way since then. All of her pictures of her old friends were put away. I couldn't stand looking at an image of Tristan. Thanks to me, Tristan was dead. Many people tried to convince me that it wasn't myfault and he died a hero. But deep down I knew that everyone knew that it was. If they hadn't come to save me, then Tristan would still be here.

Only one person had the guts to tell me it was my fault was Tristan's mother. It was after the funeral when I went over to apologize for the loss of their son. Tristan's mom just started yelling and saying that it was my fault, and she should be the one dead. It caused a big commotion and Mrs. Taylor had to be pulled away. My mother told her not to take any of it to heart; Mrs. Taylor was just delirious over Tristan's death. It didn't help much. It was the worse feeling that I have ever felt. It was like someone had shot me right through the heart, and I was dieing slowly, feeling every thing.

This year, my senior year, I returned to myold school. Everyone there seemed to be happyto see thatIwas back. Things are just so diffrent. I wish they were the same before all of this happened.The first semester was hard. Just being in the building started to giveme flash backs andI had to leave school early often. The worst room was Mr. Walkachica's old room, where I have a study hall in. I can't stand beinging in there. It makes me feel sick.

Mr. Walkachika was put in jail of course. But he was getting out in the end of May on bail. Tea's family was outraged that anyone would want to pay for him to get out and they were trying to come up of an idea to keep him away. They tried assured me that he wouldn't dare come near me, and that everything was going to be all right. But I could tell they were lieing. They weren't sure of what they were saying. You could see it in their eyes. So I am waiting. Waiting to see what will happen next.


And that's the end of that. I was thinking about starting a new story of Tea's life when she goes to the new school, and when she comes back. Something like that. So what do you think? Should I do it or not? Sorry it wasn't much of an update, but yeah… Sorry.