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The Slightest Things

"Sometimes the slightest things change the direction of our lives, the merest breathe of a circumstance, a random movement that connects, like a meteorite striking the earth. Lives have swiveled and changed direction on the strength of a chance remark" The Power of One

Chapter 3

I'm walking down the hallway, with my guards. I start to think about how easy it would be to just beat them up and escape from here. But then I realize I have nowhere to go. I can't go to Angel's cause I'll just mess up everything he has going, and I'm sure Wes would freak out. If I get out, I'll just be running for the rest of my life. I'm tired of running.

She opens the door and I enter and go to my usual spot on the couch, maybe I should lay down this time, like the people do in the movies. But then I'd feel weird, with her staring at me all time.

She was sitting with her legs crossed with her notebook on her lap a splash of her honey-blonde hair fell in a gentle wave across her face, while the rest was done up in loose ponytail. She was back to business casual and wearing glasses. She still looked too young.

"So what do you think, we should talk about today?"

"It's up to you"

As she says that she brings her hand to her chin and rests her elbow on her notebook and looks at me with those piercing blue eyes.

"How is that you expect to help if you've never been through what I have."

"Do you think that in order for me to help you, I have to have done the same thing you did?"

"A lot of people said they were trying to help me, they said I was sick, like I had a disease… Is killing people a disease?"

"Do you think it is?"

"Your really annoying when you keep doing that"

"I'm just asking you, what you think"

"I don't know"

"You can say anything"

"Am I supposed to confess my sins?"

"If that's what you want to do"

"Are you like those preachers who come in here, and tell us to find God"

"No"

"Good, cause finding God, I've seen things that you couldn't even imagine existed"

"But your not going to tell me, are you?"

"Believe me, you don't want to know,"

I'm sure she's seen and heard some pretty horrible stuff, since being here. But nothing like the stuff I could tell her. I mean who would believe that vampires exist and have been living with us and feeding off of us for centuries. It's better off to be in the dark about stuff like that, cause once you get involved, you can never really go back.

"So how long have you been working here?"

She laughs

"I've been working here for about 4 years"

"So are there other shrinks here besides you?"

"Yes"

"Oh"

"Do you want to tell me what you're thinking about, Faith?"

"See I knew you knew by name, those preachers think that cause I have a religious name, I should follow God. I didn't name myself, a Priest did."

"Really?"

"Yeah at the Base Chapel"

"Base Chapel?"

"My Dad was in the Air Force"

"Oh, so you grew up on an Air Force Base"

"Only until I was eight"

"Why did you leave?"

"I don't want to talk about that anymore"

"Ok that's fine"

She puts her pen down, and gently wipes the hair from her face, then places her hands in her lap. I don't know if I want to talk about past yet. I have problems trusting people, I mean I trusted that Post woman first and then the Mayor. Those were bad choices, but then I found Angel and I know I can trust him. He was going to risk sunlight for me, that's noble, I don't know if I would be ever be willing to die for anyone, except maybe my watcher, it should've been me to die that night not her. She took me in off the streets and tried to make me a better person and I've failed her.

I noticed that a lot of people keep trying to save me, even though I don't think I'm worth it, but somebody wants me alive, or I wouldn't still be here…. I guess I'm finding some enlightenment from my time here and it's only been a month or so, I don't really keep track of time, it's not worth it. I'll be here for awhile.

My time's up, I don't really mind talking to her, I guess it's easier to talk to a stranger about your problems. Well now it's 11, only 2 more hours until I can go out for some air.