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Faye had pulled back on her gears as she slowly lifted out of the hatch. She had already seen Spike lift off and leave. Her stomach did a flop and Faye's heart plummeted. Go to her Spike…You bastard…you know how superficial she is…just go..! Faye had nothing much to say to the man she loved…No- The man she loves! Faye shook her head violently and growled. She refused to cry, refused to cry- REFUSED TO CRY! Now look at this- back to square one. Alone. A bottle of rum… A zip craft... And the whole nine yards of running away. Yes…yet again it was her old past time. Run away from the things that hurt you. Delete the memories. Remove your heart and stick it in a jar for the freezer.

I'm sleeping my way out this one

With anyone who will lie down

I've been so fixated on one song

When the world is crashing down

Spike eased back in his seat. It wouldn't be too long before he reached Mars. He closed his eyes and forced the tension of his body to ease. Suddenly he was assaulted with Vicious and Faye in heated passion of sex. Spike shot forward! Wait- Wait- how could the two timing bitch dare hound him for leaving when she eloped with Vicious. Hang on. That wasn't Faye…it was Julia…Julia..? Julia…Spike grabbed his hair in frustration. Argh! Some fine time to remember this shit! God Damn the Human Brain! He reached under his seat and pulled out a bottle of mariposa rum. He took a swig- oops! Too fast and like a lighting bolt another memory struck. This time his conscious got it right. It was Spike and Faye in heated passion. This time the memory was painstaking and caused Spike's head to sway. Once gain. Damn the conscious of the human brain.

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds

Faye lifted out of the Bebop and launched off. She was ready. So why wasn't she singing the song of freedom. How did it go again…Born free…free as the….yeah that's as far as she remembers…Faye tossed her head back in laughter. How hilarious! What a fine time to sing a freedom song. Sounds like she's some run away slave. Faye double in laughter again and suddenly she just couldn't hold back any more…run away slave! Sounds like something Spike would say! That Jackass! She chuckled. Here she was thinking about the very thing she wanted to forget. Faye knew she would never she couldn't… can't would be the correct word.

I keep telling myself

I keep telling myself

I'm not the desperate type

Spike wished deep down he could have left on simpler terms with Faye. He still wanted them to remain friends. He still wanted some relationship to remain between them. It was ironic. So ironic, that this warning started off as a whisper. The whisper years ago when Julia started to stare heartbroken into his eyes. Then came the brick. The brick of a secret between Julia and Vicious. Lastly came the wall! The wall that barred him from Freya, ruined a relationship with the only man he ever trusted, and a woman he always knew would break his heart. Spike tossed his head back and laughed. How hilarious… how hilarious…this same feeling of wishing to continue a relationship came the day he hit Freya over Julia. Why was he doing this to himself? COULD SPIKE NOT SEE THE WALL! He was flying straight to it! Julia equals wall. Julia- wall! Julia-wall! He vowed he'd never crash like that again and here he was déja vous!

Sitting out dances on the wall

Trying to forget everything that isn't you

I'm not going home alone

Cause I don't do too well

Sitting out dances on the wall

Trying to forget everything that isn't you

I'm not going home alone

Cause I don't do too well on my own

Faye eyes began to brim over. She hadn't told Spike. She told him she loved him, but that wasn't what bonded them. It was the secret she was carrying with in. Thank god it would be another month before she started showing. Faye hadn't said anything because she didn't want to be one of those women who tried to tie a man down with a burden like this. Not to get her wrong. She was thrilled that it was Spike and not some other man but all the same. To think after all that was said and done. The years she spent on the Bebop waiting for him to make a move. Faye never ever regretted a moment of it. Now…however, would it be a crime for her to have the doubts and regrets?

The only thing worse than not knowing

Is you thinking that I don't know

I'm having another episode

I just need a stronger dose

He tried. He really did try. He wanted to stay with Faye, he really did. With Faye was where his heart was but when his mind starts to play tricks…Julia was where he'd end up. Spike could have fought the old emotions for Julia but he didn't. Did that not make him a weak man? No it didn't. It made him an incompetent deluded man. Maybe he was just going out of curiosity. Why would Julia suddenly resurface? Maybe he was going out of justification. Spike remembered the day he ditched Jet when he got a lead that Julia was on Callisto. With his famously heroic line "I'm going to get my woman!" How foolish was he to continue to entertain such thoughts?

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds

I keep telling myself

I keep telling myself

I'm not the desperate type

Faye had exhausted all efforts to keep a straight mind. Mars was in sight and soon she would have to kill to get what she needed to survive. It was time to push Spike out of her mind.

Sitting out dances on the wall

Trying to forget everything that isn't you

I'm not going home alone

Cause I don't do too well on my own

Spike geared down for he could see Julia waving at him from the side lines. How happy she looked regardless of how the years took a toll on her. He smiled…

Neither knew the irony…