What is the thing you regret most NOT saying?

Jack's never been good at expressing himself it's a trait he blames on his parents because they never let him express himself. He was steel to them, ready to be molded into the perfect figure of who they wanted him to be. Only he was never quite up to their standards and he'd realized sometime in the past 5 years that he never would. There's plenty of things that Jack regrets in general and plenty more things he regrets he didn't say.

"Please stop drinking Dad,"

He wonders if maybe he'd gotten up the nerve to say things like that; maybe, just maybe his father would have listened. Then that little bit of hope gets slammed shut because his father never listened to anyone and his father was dead.

"No, I will not go looking for him,"

His mother never helped anything; she used guilt to her advantage like she was Jewish or something. When really all she liked to do was take the responsibility away from her. He thinks maybe he wasted too much of his discontent on his father's memory and not enough on his mothers.

"I can't do this, I'm sorry Sarah,"

Maybe if he'd just walked away he'd have saved her some heartbreak, maybe she could have been happy for those two years instead of waiting for him to find his place among the thorns. Maybe if he'd shown less compassion, maybe if he hadn't gotten so caught up in the idea – maybe she wouldn't look back on his memory now with a bitter taste in her mouth. Maybe her dreams would have come true.

"Can I sink too?"

Jack's never been good at expressing himself; he's never been able to convey to people how much they mean to him. He thinks a lot of that has to do with the fact that he's insecure enough about his feelings and he can never seem to sort them out. How do you express that you need someone anyway? He's never really been able to do that, never say what he's feeling, never ask for help. He was taught that it made you appear weak; he was suppose to be molded steel.