What is one thing you have learned from your past?
People you love will let you down. That's something I had to learn the hard way, along with the fact that you can never live up to what everyone else wants. You have to just be yourself and do what you want and hope that's enough to get you through life. No one is going to live it for you. All those years I spent trying to prove something to my father and I never had any chance. His expectations were too high and I was never going to live up to them.
Then again I guess he was never going to live up to mine. Not that my expectations are unrealistic, all I ever wanted was to know that he cared. I wanted him to be there and be interested in my life beyond becoming the doctor he bragged I would be. I wanted him to not drink everyday away until he was unrecognizable to the people that loved him. Maybe I wanted too much but he let me down. They all let me down.
I guess I also learned that you just have to deal with that and move on. You can't dwell on the past or it will tear you down. Not that I always practice what I preach. Unless you call chasing a phantom through the jungle as letting go I don't always deal properly.
They'll always let you down and it's up to you to keep moving.
