Ginny's POV
You ever get that feeling where you've wanted something for so long, but when you've finally got it, you don't want it any more? Well those are my feelings exactly towards Harry right now. Ever since Ron said we could date i started to love him less and less with each passing day, is that wrong? I mean did i actually only love him because i loved the challenge of having to hide it from everyone?
"Gin? What are you thinking?"
"What? Oh Harry, nothing important." I said with a fake smile. The great thing about my fake smile and my genuine smile, it's impossible to tell the difference between the to.
"OK. Hey, what are you doing later? Cuz i was wondering if you wanted to go for a walk or something."
"Not today Harry. I'm not feeling all that great."
"Oh." Harry said frowning slightly. "OK. Well maybe you should lie down for awhile."
"I will, see you later." she said as she gave him a quick kiss on the cheek.
"Feel better!" He called after her.
I hate doing that to him. I just feel like I need sometime alone. I began to think over my feelings for Harry and just how deep they really are and before i knew it i was at the portrait hole.
"Snuffle bum." I said.
"Right you are." the fat lady said as she opened to let Ginny through.
"The common room was empty but i wanted to go to my dorm in case Harry came in. I feel bad for thinking that but i just think it would be better if i didn't talk to him right now. I went and laid down on my bed and sleep over came me.
When i finally woke up I looked at the clock.
"8:30? wow I've been asleep for 2 hours." I mumbled to myself as i got up. I started walking down the stairs when i heard Harry's voice.
"-ink Ginny's been acting weird around me? I mean sometimes I feel like she doesn't want to be there."
"I dunno mate," I heard Ron say, "maybe it's her time of the month."
"Ron!" Hermione said. "That wasn't very nice. Listen Harry, If you want I'll talk to her and see what's bugging her. I may not be able to tell you but i can try and convince her to tell you herself."
"Would you?" Harry asked, "Thanks Mione!"
I heard footsteps coming towards me i ran up the stairs and had just pulled the blankets up to my chin when the door opened.
"Ginny?" Hermione said as she walked over and sat on my bed with me.
"Hey"
"Harry wanted me to talk to you. I won't tell Harry anything you don't want me to tell him, but he's worried about you. He feels like you don't want to be around him anymore. Is that true?"
"Well i guess kinda..." I answered truthfully.
"Why? I thought you loved him!"
"I thought so to..."
"So you don't anymore?"
"OK Mione. You have to promise you won't tell Harry or Ron."
"Cross my heart and hope to die!"
"OK, I think i may have tricked myself into thinking i loved him when i really didn't. I loved the thought of how rebellious it was to be with him. It was secret and Ron couldn't find out about it and it was exciting like that. But then Ron decided he was fine with it and now i don't have that excitement anymore. We don't have to worry about Ron coming in and finding us together... I guess i'm just bored now."
"Wow."Hermione said, "You have to tell him you know."
"I know... i just don't know how to."
"I'm sure you'll think of something. But it's just not fair to string him along with false feelings."
"You're right I'll do it soon... tonight even." I hate it when she's right but she always is.
"OK... Coming down soon then?"
"Yeah but only to talk to Harry."
"Fine, but eat something too. Tell you what, I'll run down to the kitchens and grab you something while you go talk to harry and it'll be waiting for you when you get back."
"OK. Sounds great thank you!"
"Good luck" She said and gave me a hug.
"Well there's no time like the present." I said to myself and walked out the door.
I found Harry in the common room.
"Hey Gin. Feeling better?"
"Um yeah a bit... Harry can i talk to you?" I glanced at Ron and Dean, "Er.. alone?"
"Yeah sure."
We decided to go for a walk. We walked down towards the lake and i could already feel tears stinging in my eyes. Finally we stopped.
"OK. Um... Harry there's really no easy way to say this," His face fell when i said that. "I don't think we should see each other anymore."
"W-what?"
"I'm so sorry Harry," Tears were flowing freely and my voice was coming out high and squeaky. "It's just I think i need some time to sort out my feelings."
"B-but Gin... I love you." Tears were forming in his eyes to now.
"Please don't make this harder for me! We can get back together i promise, just not right now."
There was a long awkward silence.
"Well I guess i can't change my mind, I think i'm just going to go to bed, I'll see you in the morning. But Gin?"
"Yeah Harry?"
"Remember that i love you and I'll never stop."
"I will."
With that he walked back to the castle leaving me to think about what had just happened. Soon after i followed him into the warmth of the castle wondering if i made the right choice or not. I knew we wouldn't be getting back together... not soon anyways.
A/N
OK i know you guys probly hate me but don't give up on me it's all for a reason! R&R!
