Ch. 3 I Miss You
(Maddie's POV)
It's been a year, Zach
A year since I have contacted you
I regret it so deeply
And I am so sorry
You want to know what happened then?
I went to Harvard, got good grades
Excelled to the fullest
But something more happened, too
I was pregnant, Zach my love
Pregnant- with your child
I had the baby, and named her
Margaret Rose Martin
I didn't know what to do
I still love you so
I didn't quite school, oh no
I couldn't, didn't know how, to tell you
Raised the baby, went to class
Missed you every day
Found out, Zach, on your birthday
August fourth, was 2 months along
Still love you, Zach, can't deny it
God, I can't help it
Told Margaret that she'd see you
And know you very soon
Still don't know how to tell you
I can't, not just yet
You're only 16, after all
Not ready for this baby
I was, that's a good thing
Not going home this summer
Told my parents not to tell you
Nor anyone else
I'm so sorry; Zach, but I still love you.
It's been 2 years, Zach
Two years since I contacted you
I regret it so deeply
And I am so sorry
You want to know what happened then?
I went to school, I got good grades
Margaret walked and said her first word
It was "Ma," by the way
I still don't know how to tell you
You're only 17!
I honestly don't think you're ready
For this huge responsibility
Margaret is beautiful
Just for your information
Dirty-blond hair, ocean green eyes
And so smart for her age
(Maybe it's living at Harvard)
Raised the baby, went to class
Managed to balance it out
Don't worry, Zach-my-love
Never came close to cheating
Regret that night? No I don't
It was my book of Revelation
That you're my only
I still don't know how to tell you, though
She turned 1 on March 19th
Asked me, "Where Da?"
I cried, because I didn't know
What to tell her, and I still don't
Sorry I haven't contacted you
I still don't know how to tell you
But I love you
Don't ever forget
Don't forget I love you.
It's been 3 years, Zach
3 years since I've contacted you
I regret it so deeply
And I am so sorry
You want o know what happened, then?
I went to school; got good grades
Maggie is so smart
I miss you so much
Maggie- that's Margaret's nickname
She's tall for 2, and unimaginably sweet
Unimaginably smart
And she doesn't know you
I so deeply want to show up
On your doorstep, love
With Maggie holding tightly to my finger
But I can't do that
It wouldn't be fair, love
I'm still not sure if you're ready
You're 18, the age I was, sure
But I'm so scared of telling you
I'm so scared of what I know must happen
At night I cry myself to sleep
Out of missing you
And out of fear
I hope, I pray
I beg to the heavens and God
That you are going to Harvard
So I can see you again
God, this was so stupid of me
Keeping Maggie from you
But you weren't read at 15, 16, and 17
Not sure if you're ready now
I miss you so much, Zach
And I know why I'm not contacting you
How much are you hurting now?
I can only imagine
I swear to God I still love you
Baby, I can't stop
I can't wait to see you again
Because I will, very soon
You're going to find out soon
And we will be reunited
I hope you still love me
Because I still love you, baby
I still love you, Zach, and I am so sorry.
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