Ch. 3 I Miss You

(Maddie's POV)

It's been a year, Zach

A year since I have contacted you

I regret it so deeply

And I am so sorry

You want to know what happened then?

I went to Harvard, got good grades

Excelled to the fullest

But something more happened, too

I was pregnant, Zach my love

Pregnant- with your child

I had the baby, and named her

Margaret Rose Martin

I didn't know what to do

I still love you so

I didn't quite school, oh no

I couldn't, didn't know how, to tell you

Raised the baby, went to class

Missed you every day

Found out, Zach, on your birthday

August fourth, was 2 months along

Still love you, Zach, can't deny it

God, I can't help it

Told Margaret that she'd see you

And know you very soon

Still don't know how to tell you

I can't, not just yet

You're only 16, after all

Not ready for this baby

I was, that's a good thing

Not going home this summer

Told my parents not to tell you

Nor anyone else

I'm so sorry; Zach, but I still love you.


It's been 2 years, Zach

Two years since I contacted you

I regret it so deeply

And I am so sorry

You want to know what happened then?

I went to school, I got good grades

Margaret walked and said her first word

It was "Ma," by the way

I still don't know how to tell you

You're only 17!

I honestly don't think you're ready

For this huge responsibility

Margaret is beautiful

Just for your information

Dirty-blond hair, ocean green eyes

And so smart for her age

(Maybe it's living at Harvard)

Raised the baby, went to class

Managed to balance it out

Don't worry, Zach-my-love

Never came close to cheating

Regret that night? No I don't

It was my book of Revelation

That you're my only

I still don't know how to tell you, though

She turned 1 on March 19th

Asked me, "Where Da?"

I cried, because I didn't know

What to tell her, and I still don't

Sorry I haven't contacted you

I still don't know how to tell you

But I love you

Don't ever forget

Don't forget I love you.


It's been 3 years, Zach

3 years since I've contacted you

I regret it so deeply

And I am so sorry

You want o know what happened, then?

I went to school; got good grades
Maggie is so smart
I miss you so much

Maggie- that's Margaret's nickname

She's tall for 2, and unimaginably sweet

Unimaginably smart

And she doesn't know you

I so deeply want to show up

On your doorstep, love

With Maggie holding tightly to my finger

But I can't do that

It wouldn't be fair, love

I'm still not sure if you're ready

You're 18, the age I was, sure

But I'm so scared of telling you

I'm so scared of what I know must happen

At night I cry myself to sleep

Out of missing you

And out of fear

I hope, I pray

I beg to the heavens and God

That you are going to Harvard

So I can see you again

God, this was so stupid of me

Keeping Maggie from you

But you weren't read at 15, 16, and 17

Not sure if you're ready now

I miss you so much, Zach

And I know why I'm not contacting you

How much are you hurting now?

I can only imagine

I swear to God I still love you

Baby, I can't stop

I can't wait to see you again

Because I will, very soon

You're going to find out soon

And we will be reunited

I hope you still love me

Because I still love you, baby

I still love you, Zach, and I am so sorry.

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