CHAPTER 8 – Kairi
Roxas almost expected the ambush that awaited Kairi the second she walked through the door. The occupants of Radiant Garden's castle had been expecting her back here to report on the successful trip (in vague details because they aren't familiar with other worlds) and must have planned ahead. Their light, happy tones at welcoming her back turn into subtle urgency while speaking of all she missed and what would be "taken care of in only a few days' time if you stayed for a little while longer."
Yeah. Kairi's too nice to say no. Roxas feels bad for her when she throws him a slightly panicked look over her shoulder while she is imperceptibly ambushed by three palace occupants. Two servants and a cook.
Roxas uses the term "servants" lightly. They are more like volunteers who come here and work at the palace out of admiration for the place and its history. People who remember what it was like before it was attacked. Roxas is proud he actually remembers their names—Huntly, Lilian, and Abalone (the cook). Kairi can always correct him later if he happens to be wrong, though. She knows the nine people that reside here more than he does.
"Now what's all this?"
Relief. Sweet relief on Kairi's face when she sees Nona coming into the main entrance. Nona, the castle's main caretaker. A woman who only just passed the middle of her life. A few wisps of gray in her hair and wrinkles around her mouth and eyes, but with a fierce loyalty to life and the good that's in it.
"Kairi's back," Lilith, the young mother, exclaims.
"We were filling her in on all she's missed," Huntly says, a portly man of noble taste (his own words). Nona stares him down. The man clears his throat and tugs at his sleeves.
"The poor girl's taken three steps in the door and you three are harassing her. Leave her be. Let her unpack. Find her at dinner."
"Tha's wha' I'm here for!" Abalone declares. The short, gangly man declares. "I need to know wha' she wan's to eat tonight."
"If you're taking requests, fish sounds pretty good," Kairi says, satisfying the intense man who nods once curtly and jots her words down on paper. (The poor guy never means any harm, but his stare could melt steel.)
"Good, good. Now shoo. Kairi needs some breathing room before she addresses anyone or anything. Understood?"
Nona has spoken. The three other castle occupants obey without further objection, though they do say their goodbyes until they are out of sight.
Roxas hears Kairi sigh in relief. He comes to stand beside her now and takes her hand. She gives him a grateful smile.
Then Roxas feels the weight of a gaze on him. He finds Nona staring at their conjoined hands. It only lasts a second before she looks to Kairi who stares just as intensely back. There is a moment where nothing is said verbally, but Roxas suspects an entire conversation is going on between the two women that he's missing. It's a solid twelve seconds later that Nona nods once, deciding something. Kairi seems relieved at this, even more so than when Nona first walked in (which kind of makes Roxas feel relieved too).
The older woman's wrinkles grow more defined when she smiles at Kairi, finally letting her guard down now that the others are gone. She steps forward and pats the princess's cheek.
"It's good to see you, darling."
"It's good to see you too," Kairi says. "Did I miss anything big?"
"Mostly no," Nona says. "The regular duties and rebuilding details. The Restoration Committee was here two days ago to touch base, but they will want to visit again soon knowing you're back. Or you can visit them. Your choice."
Oh yeah, the Radiant Garden Restoration Committee. Roxas almost forgot. Yuffie, Leon, Aerith, Cid, and Merlin. Others too, but those original members remain here being the head of reconstruction, trying to scrub out the stain the darkness left on the place. Yeah, he and Kairi will definitely visit them.
"But figure it out after you get unpacked and a hot meal in you." Nona ushers them inside. In doing so, she also gives Roxas a pat on the arm. "And it's good to see you again, Roxas."
Roxas feels warmth at the welcome from the bristly woman. Feels good to know the ice of the kingdom can melt. "Thanks."
"Come on, Roxas," Kairi says while giving a light squeeze to his hand. "I'll show you your room then give you a tour."
They had arrived at Radiant Garden in the early afternoon after departing from Cinderella's world. It had been a tearful goodbye on Kairi's part. Once she extracted herself from Cinderella's arms, she went right into Roxas's for comfort (who did not mind this one single bit). She let him drive the ship while she pulled herself together. Roxas kept her distracted by talking about how they still haven't seen his scarecrow in Halloween Town and how they should visit there after finishing up in her kingdom. This got Kairi to laugh through her stuffy nose and bleary eyes. She tells him she has to buy a camera before they go.
Truthfully, Roxas is in no rush to head to Halloween Town (and not only because he's dreading Kairi seeing the scarecrow—he should never have brought it up in Agrabah or reminded her of it today). He rather likes it here in Radiant Garden. His opinion of the place came about when he first visited with the others when they traveled here with Kairi early on.
The place had been a mess, not only from the ravage from the darkness, but because of Kairi's adamant restoration efforts. She has been the person the Restoration Committee needed. She had the power and resources to follow through with their ideas for the place. The kingdom looked a lot worse before it started looking better.
(No doubt some of Kairi's stress came from this. All her effort being put into making the kingdom better and it only looked more like a disaster.)
Yes, Kairi is a beloved leader. The citizens of the newly re-dubbed Radiant Garden see her as an authority despite being only eighteen. Her opinion is highly sought after, and most every decision regarding the castle and the kingdom is run past her first. In short, they see her as their princess.
That's why they willingly tore apart the castle and several parts of town to recreate it into its old glory. The white-grey stones that gleam in the sunlight. The fountains that sparkle with clear water that in turn creates rainbows. And the flowers. They're everywhere.
Roxas notices this on the tour Kairi is giving him. (Though he's been given a tour here before, this is a one-on-one tour with extra details. This place has come far since Roxas's first visit.) The windows are open, casting the light into the hallways. Vases of fresh flowers are set at every table. Decorative flowers also line the walls, some of the doors, and other places. No doubt these plants have gone through the preservation method the bouquets they gave to the other princesses had. When glancing out these same windows, a person is greeted by the delicate yet overwhelming sight of vines littered with flowers and gardens scattered with blossoms.
The castle still has a fair amount of construction to go through, Kairi explains. She covers that fact by growing heaps of flowers. (Beauty to cover the scars of the past.) The majority of it is done, but Kairi refused to finish it until the people's living space is in better shape.
"I'll bring you around town. You should see how great things are looking," Kairi says happily. For someone who dreads ruling, she sure seems to be pleased with how things are going (which might be because progress is actually appearing).
Kairi takes Roxas from the bottom to the top. The front room, the grand hall, the dining hall, the sitting rooms, the kitchen (Abalone says dinner will be ready soon), the servants quarters, the library, the guest rooms, and every random room she can find, until finally coming back to where they started. The royal family's rooms.
It's a long hallway with two rooms on either side and a grand bedroom at the end of it. Kairi says the one on the end used to be her parents' room. She doesn't go in there. On previous visits, Kairi stayed in the guest bedrooms like the rest of her friends, not wanting to be left out. Now, though, she will be staying in her own room while Roxas has the one beside hers.
"It's because the others aren't allowed up here," Kairi says when she goes into her room. It's white with purple accents and a few painted flowers on the walls. The fireplace has two comfy chairs in front of it, and the far end of the room has double doors leading out onto a balcony. Roxas's is much like hers, only his has accents of orange. "Only Nona is allowed, and she keeps her distance for my sake. She knows it still makes me a bit sensitive to be here. Really it would make me more sensitive if I remembered more, but I won't let her know this isn't a big deal because I kind of like having some space."
Roxas nods in understanding. "I'll be sure to leave you alone here."
"Are you kidding?" Kairi's word is accompanied by a very sharp scoff. She plants her hands on her hips and puts her weight on one foot. "You'd better be kidding, Roxas."
"Well, I figured—you wanting a place to your-yourself. I won't get in the—"
And then Kairi's right there. Roxas feels a light whoosh of air pass him from how quickly she comes up to him. "Roxas, did it occur to you that I might want privacy with you too?"
(And suddenly there is blood hurrying to his cheeks and the tips of his ears.) "Oh, yeah. Right, right. Um...great."
Kairi stares at him a second longer (a second in which he wonders if he should kiss her, or if she expects him to kiss her which he wants to do but this whole thing is still new and he doesn't want to freak her out with how much he wants to kiss her) but then Kairi giggles and gives him a quick peck on the cheek and the conversation is over.
"Here, I want to show you the view." Kairi goes to open the doors to her balcony. Roxas follows. A breeze enters the room the moment the glass is out of the way, breathing fresh life into the room. The couple steps out onto the balcony.
It's beautiful. Everything around the castle appears green and fresh, but everything beyond the grounds still looks desolate and grey. Despite having been sunk within what used to be a lake, Kairi has done her hardest to try and make the view still something to behold. And she's succeeded despite the circumstances.
"I'm still working on it," Kairi says, stepping up to the railing. "Merlin and I have been trying to figure out a way make the water flow come back and have everything grow better. We've managed to get this place out of the pit it was in, but that's as far as we've gotten. I plan on talking to Yen Sid the next time I see him to know if he's got any ideas."
"It's nice, though. You've done a great job with the place," Roxas tells her.
"You mean it?" Kairi asks, suddenly unsure. "It looks alright?"
"It looks great. You've done an awesome job at making this place look good again after everything it's been through." Roxas wants to comfort her. Then he realizes he can. She is official with him. So he reaches out a tentative hand and places it on her back. She seems to de-stress somewhat at the touch which further gives Roxas courage. "I mean it, Kairi. This place has come a long way since you came back. It's like it got your pure heart—which I guess it kind of does. You put your heart into this place. It's starting to reflect the beauty in it."
Kairi sighs in a soft way and tilts her head. Her watery smile doesn't scare him because she's looking at him like he's the only thing she admires. "You're the best, you know that?"
Roxas grins and shrugs at the compliment. "I try."
Kairi leans into his touch. His hand slides from her shoulder blades to her lower back. "You succeed. You're already a great boyfriend and it's hardly been a day."
"That means I still have time to somehow screw this up," he says jokingly (though the tiny fear has already lodged itself deep in his chest and occasionally bites him).
But then Kairi leans in further and says, "I don't think you will," and the fear unlatches its teeth.
Now Roxas knows to kiss her (she's too pretty in this perfect moment on the balcony not to). He dips his head and only just connects with her when there is a knock on the door.
Roxas knows they aren't doing anything wrong, but he jolts away nonetheless, extracting his hand from her.
Kairi opens the door to find Nona there. Her eyes flash to Roxas before returning them to Kairi. "Supper is ready."
"Thank you." Kairi looks to Roxas. "Shall we?"
Roxas is by her side in a second, taking her hand, and following Nona out the door.
And this is how dinner goes. When all of Kairi's friends are present, they eat in the main dinner hall and the service men and women stay on the lower level servant's area. Nona demands this more than anyone because she claims with Kairi's royal status, when others are present, she should adhere to it to some degree (and she has to push because Kairi is a rather informal princess). However, when there are no guests, Kairi is allowed to eat with the other castle occupants.
Apparently Roxas doesn't count as a guest, or is an informal enough guest because Nona brings him and Kairi down to dine with everyone else.
Those that hadn't greeted Kairi earlier do so now with open arms and huge smiles. Not only do they greet her, but him as well which surprises Roxas. He wasn't exactly one to stand out last time he was here, but hey, whatever. He's glad they approve of him.
Along with Lilith, Abalone, Huntly, and Nona, Lilith's husband, Aito, the groundskeeper, their son Teejay who often runs errands and messages for those in the castle, and General Corporeal. He is head of the Guard that has restarted in Radiant Garden. He isn't present tonight—he hardly ever is in the castle. Instead, he can be found traveling from post to post making sure the world is being protected.
Roxas met him once when he'd snuck into the nearby Guard Post. It was part armory, part supply hold. Roxas had been curious and bored. No one else was around so he figured why not? He was busy testing out one of the bladed weapons when someone coughed to get his attention. Roxas nearly chopped off his own arm from surprise. Lo and behold, it was the General who, instead of being mad, chuckled at Roxas's reactions. The General spent the better part of the day showing Roxas around and answering all his questions. He's the one Roxas is most looking forward to seeing again while here.
Turns out he's at a far-reaching post that has had more frequent attacks than any other. Those defending it fight valiantly and always manage to win, but they haven't found what's been attracting them to that spot. General Corporeal, Nona says, will be there for a few more days at least.
When supper finishes, Kairi takes Roxas on a tour of the grounds. Plenty more people come around the castle each day, mostly people working on restoring it, but they have gone home for the evening. Those that live there are the only ones that remain which gives the new couple free reign of the grounds.
"It's coming along slowly," Kairi says, bending down to pick up a handful of dirt. It's not the dark, rich color it should be. It's a greyish color. It sifts through her fingers more like sand than dirt. "It's like the place has a heart of its own. A broken heart that's taking forever to heal."
"Maybe it does have a broken heart," Roxas says, scuffing the tip of his shoe against the hard ground. "It's understandable, don't you think? It lost its princess and was encompassed in darkness. There's no quick way to get over something like that."
Kairi's gentle sigh shows her resignation. "You're right. I'm just being impatient. I only wish there was something I could do to help the process along."
Roxas notices the frustrated disappointment in her eyes and nudges her. "I think you should focus on your progress too."
"Hm?"
"You aren't at your happily ever after yet, remember?" Roxas says, thinking back to their chat at Aurora's castle grounds. "You should heal yourself first. Then maybe you can help heal this place a little faster. Until then, maybe keep letting others help and accept the fact that it will have to be a new Radiant Garden."
The frustrated disappointment evaporates as Kairi's eyes are affected by the smile Roxas takes pride in knowing he put on her face. She takes his hand and starts pulling him towards the rear of the castle grounds. "You want to see the part that's actually making progress?"
Then Kairi starts running towards the back of the castle, keeping her companion from really answering before they reach the destination. Kairi pulls him up short then stretches her arms out in a grand gesture which equals the grandness of the area.
A garden. A true, vast, beautiful garden with flowers scattered across every area—on the trees, the shrubs and bushes, and lining the walkways. But they are planted in a tactful way. The colors that are near one another don't clash and the height is strategically placed so little ones could pick the flowers nearby the path while mothers could keep them back from getting lost in the taller ones a little ways back. The intoxicatingly heady scent coming from the area drifts up and out from each precious blossom.
Kairi, Roxas realizes. They smell like Kairi. This place here is what she smells like. She's smelled like this even before she spent significant time here. Huh.
Roxas lets out a low whistle.
"See, this is progress," Kairi says. "Eventually the whole place will look like this. I'll make sure of it."
"It's a good goal," Roxas says. "You put a lot of work into this part, haven't you?"
"I've put a lot of heart into it," Kairi admits. She shares a smile with Roxas.
Roxas tugs her in closer and slings his arm around her shoulders. "I don't doubt it for a second. So what if it will take time? The end result will be fantastic."
Kairi wraps her arms around his midsection in a light hug. "Wanna head inside? It's getting dark. Nona gets anxious if I'm out after dark."
"Sure." Roxas keeps his arm around her shoulders and Kairi keeps her arm around his waist. They leisurely walk to the castle's back entrance, in no hurry to make the evening end.
"Is Nona your nanny or something?" Roxas asks teasingly.
"You could say that. She was my grandmother's best friend. A lady-in-waiting who was only that in name. Basically she was my grandmother's listening ear and advice giver."
"Oh." (Roxas feels slightly embarrassed for teasing her about the woman.) "Wow. Then she means quite a bit to you."
"Yep. That's why I trust her and her advice, but not in everything. Like with you."
Roxas stiffens. "Me? What about me? What did I do?"
Kairi giggles. "You didn't do anything. The last time I was here she gave me a gigantic lecture about dating and boys and waiting to choose. That's part of where my freak-out came from regarding my happily-ever-after. I thought that meant I had to have a freakishly-perfect person by my side that would be chosen for me."
The couple enters the back door and strolls through the hallways. Roxas barely pays attention to their path, too enrapt by Kairi's words. He had been curious about the "prince charming" part about her happily-ever-after too. Mainly thinking he wouldn't be allowed to be that guy. Even if he has that position now, doesn't mean it's a guarantee (which is a thought that makes him sick to his stomach).
"Thankfully not," Kairi says. "It's whoever's right for my heart. Back then I thought it was Sora."
"Did she find out Sora was the one you had an eye on? What, didn't she approve?" Roxas asks jokingly. (He needs a joke right now, thinking about such things.)
Kairi's wry smile dampens the joke. "Actually no."
"No," Roxas repeats dully. "You're telling me someone didn't approve of Sora?"
"She saw me paying extra attention to him, took me aside, and gave me the lecture of a lifetime. It's weird. She's the first person I've been close to who hasn't approved of him."
"Why do you think she didn't like him?" (Roxas is only a little desperate to know. A little.)
Kairi shrugs, bringing Roxas's arm up and down with the movement. "I don't know. I think maybe she thinks he was immature. He kind of is, but that's only one side of him."
Roxas swallows uneasily. "Do you think...she approves of me?"
Kairi looks up at him and grins as they reach the base of the steps. She shimmies out of Roxas's hold in order to face him. She takes the front sections of his jacket and lightly tugs him forward. "Doesn't matter. I approve. I hope that's what matters to you."
Yes, he wants to get Nona's approval, but Kairi's is all he needs. Technically, it's only her opinion that matters in the relationship.
(Relationship. He's in a relationship with Kairi.)
Roxas leans in suggestively. "It does."
Kairi smiles and does this little hmm thing that Roxas likes. She leans in closer. Just when Roxas mirrors her, she shoves him back and sprints up the stairs.
"Race you!" she shouts from halfway up.
Roxas takes half a second to gather himself before sprinting after her. He may be dating her, but he will not let her win.
"Cheater!" he shouts.
"You say that only because you're going to lose."
There are a lot of stairs leading up to the upmost level. It gives Roxas plenty of time to overtake Kairi, lightly shoving her as he passes by, and laughs at her when he gets several feet in front of her, listening to her mock-angry shouts.
When they finally reach the top, they are out of breath and full of laughter. Not a good combo for getting oxygen but a good combination for ending the day on a good note.
"Beat you," Roxas pants, resting his hands on his knees as he pulls himself together.
"This time," Kairi says. She has her hands on her hips and is pacing lightly. "Man, that was great cardio. We've neglected training this trip, haven't we?"
"Oh, I don't know," Roxas says when he stands up straight. "I outran Card Soldiers with Alice on my back. I'd say I trained enough."
"Ok, you got me there." Kairi holds out her hand to Roxas. "Friends? I'm sorry I cheated, but you did beat me. Shows how good you are."
Roxas shakes the offered hand. "More than friends, I hope."
Kairi's already flushed from the exertion, but Roxas allows his ego to think she's also pink-cheeked from his words. (He's gotten better at flirting. It's coming easier now.)
Kairi smiles at him. "More than friends. Definitely."
Roxas yanks her arm (but gently enough so as not to hurt her), successfully getting her to stumble up to him. He can't help the smug grin on his face. "Now, I think we were something like this before you so gracefully shoved me."
"Who me? I thought you were just a klutz."
Roxas leans in closer. "A klutz. Well then, I hope I don't miss the target."
Kairi briefly bites her lower lip. "I hope you don't either—"
The door behind Roxas—Kairi's door—bursts open, and Nona comes shuffling out. The nonchalance she oozes fools neither teenager. She knows exactly what she interrupted.
"Bedtime," she says shortly. "Big day tomorrow. Plenty of details to attend to, Kairi. You shouldn't be kept up too late."
Nona stares at Roxas meaningfully. Roxas instinctively knows to back down from the threat, but something else tells him not to. He steadily returns the gaze. She raises an eyebrow at him before brushing the interaction aside.
"Nona—" Kairi says.
"Goodnight, darling." The older woman pulls Kairi into a hug. She loosens up then. When she pulls away she gives a curt nod to Roxas. "Goodnight, Roxas."
Roxas smiles, not allowing her obvious protectiveness and dislike deter him. (Kairi's opinion of him is the only one that matters in this relationship.) "Goodnight Nona."
A long moment of awkward chokes two of the three present as Nona stands there staring at the two of them. Then Kairi realizes what she's waiting for.
"Goodnight, Roxas," Kairi says. She moves to her door.
"Yeah, goodnight," Roxas says, going to his own door.
They both retreat into their rooms.
Roxas waits for Nona to leave. His ear is pressed against the door. But either Nona has extremely quiet footsteps or she hasn't left yet. Some of Roxas's internal grumbling slip past his lips. Who knew not getting a goodnight kiss would bum him out this much?
To distract himself, he strolls through his rather large room. The bed looks comfortable. The personal bathroom looks clean. The fireplace looks warm. The colors look inviting. Yes, he likes the room. He will sleep well here.
(He would sleep better if he got a goodnight kiss.)
A loud clattering brings his attention to doors leading out to the balcony. Oathkeeper and Oblivion come with barely a thought. Roxas creeps closer to the balcony but only sees the remnants of something through the window panes of the double doors. He releases Oblivion and opens the door to find a flower figurine on his balcony.
"Roxas."
Roxas jolts, ready for a fight, only to feel foolish when he sees Kairi standing on her balcony several feet away. She's leaning on the railing with an eager expression. Oathkeeper disappears too. Kairi certainly isn't a threat. Not with that look on her face.
Roxas steps up to the railing on his own balcony. "Hey."
"Sorry about Nona. That was uncalled for."
Roxas gives a one-shoulder shrug. "Nah. She's protective. I get it."
"Too protective sometimes."
"And you've had enough of overprotectiveness, right?"
Kairi giggles. "As if I haven't said that enough these past few worlds. Anyway, I wanted to say a proper goodnight."
Proper. This is not a proper goodnight. A proper goodnight would mean Roxas's gets his kiss. The only thing keeping him from it is...
"What are you doing?" Kairi asks.
"Get away from the edge of your balcony," Roxas instructs.
"Roxas, what—no, don't you dare."
But Kairi's too late. Roxas has already tested the steadiness of his railing. He grips it with both hands and braces his right foot on the metallic surface. Kairi continues her frantic pleas for him to plant both feet back on his balcony, but they fall on deaf ears. Roxas takes a breath then leaps the short distance from his balcony to hers. It's actually not too far. He's made riskier jumps. He catches himself on the balcony railing without issue. The only issue is Kairi's light scolding.
"Why would you do that?" she says as Roxas sets himself on the solid surface. "You could have gone through my door. Now there's an idea. No chance of you splattering yourself all over the pavement below. What in the world possessed you to do that?!"
Roxas stands up straight. "I wanted a proper goodnight."
"A proper—"
Roxas dips in before she can finish her words and kisses her solidly. (No hesitation this time. Roxas is rather proud of that.) He places one hand on the soft skin of her cheek and the other takes hold of her hand.
When he pulls back, Kairi's cheeks are flushed and her eyes are wide which sends another thrill through Roxas's heart. (He put that look on her face.) Roxas smiles at her. "A proper goodnight includes a goodnight kiss."
"I—you—Roxas..."
"Yeah?"
Kairi shakes her head, fighting a smile. She steps into him and hugs him. Her cheek presses against his shoulder and her nose brushes against his neck. "That was both incredibly sweet and incredibly stupid."
"Why thank you."
"Half was an insult."
"I'll take that too."
Kairi giggles and pulls back. She briefly presses her lips against his cheek. "Goodnight, Roxas."
Roxas leans his forehead against hers. "Goodnight, Kairi."
"Will you walk through the door now?"
"Nah. I think I'll try the balcony again since you found it so fun before."
Kairi laughs before seeing him back up towards the edge. "Not funny, Roxas."
Roxas puts a hand on the railing.
"Roxas..."
Before she can object further, Roxas turns, braces himself on the railing, and leaps across the distance to his balcony. He lands without a scratch and turns to give Kairi a smug grin.
"You're lucky you're all the way over there!" She points at him across the expanse. "You'd better not do that again."
"Whatever your highness demands." Roxas gives a lavish bow. He relishes seeing Kairi shake her head with that reluctant smile stretching her lips. (Roxas kissed those lips. Ha!)
"Goodnight, Roxas," Kairi says again, this time retreating into her room afterwards.
Roxas stands there a second to stare at where she disappeared. He doesn't really realize he's smiling. He also doesn't recognize the thrum in his heart. Placing the palm of his hand directly above where his heart is steadily beating and a pleasant warmth is originating, Roxas takes a deep breath.
He hasn't breathed this easily in a while.
Apparently the first day and night was for Kairi to settle in. The other castle occupants must have decided that was enough because the next day Kairi is bombarded with questions regarding the restoration, discussions of laws and possible laws, and any slight issue that has arisen in her absence.
Nona does what she can to run interference, but it's not only the castle occupants. Word has gotten around that the princess is back. Those that usually come to the castle to help out—dignitaries, town leaders, and volunteers—in several ways demand her attention as well. They want her approval, they want her smile thrown in their direction, they want her acknowledgement. The lovely young princess has returned. A wonderful event everyone wants to be a part of even if it is only a small part.
Roxas watches all of this first-hand. Kairi keeps him close. She grasps his hand whenever she is suddenly ushered places, occasionally throwing him panicked glances over her shoulder. When this happens, Roxas always gives her hand a squeeze and offers a small, reassuring smile. He's there. He's not leaving her. Even if she didn't give these silent Do Not Leave Me signals, Roxas would have followed her anyway.
She does more than just keep him close. Kairi brings Roxas into conversations and asks his opinions on decisions. At first, the blonde is thrown off guard by it.
"Roxas, what do you think of this pattern?"
"Huh?"
"This one, for the library's new woodwork. Does it look audacious?"
"Aud—?...uh, no. Looks fine to me."
That was the first one. The first question she asked him. She had nodded sagely at his offhand assessment like she was taking it to heart. She then told one of the contractors to go with that pattern.
It only grows from there.
Roxas goes from flanking her to walking by her side by suppertime. Every once in a while he will see people's eyes trail to their conjoined hands, but they never say anything regarding it. They simply accept his presence, making small talk with him before asking the serious questions to their princess.
By suppertime, Kairi practically flops down in her chair. She requested to have supper upstairs where the more prestigious dinners are held. Just her and Roxas. Nona agrees when she sees the girl's troubled eyes.
"I guess I should have warned you a little better, huh?" Kairi says the second Abalone leaves the room after setting their food on the table.
Roxas swallows his mouthful of fish. (Deliciously seasoned fish with lemon and some sort of green herb that fights the tartness of the lemon perfectly. Roxas should complement Abalone next time he sees him.) "Nah, it's ok. I should have paid more attention last time we were here. I didn't see much of you then, but I knew you were busy. I didn't know how busy until now."
Kairi makes patterns in her mashed potatoes with her fork, swirling the tongs in the garlic and cheese mesh. "I hope you don't mind that I kind of kept you near me all day. The first day back is always a little stressful. Your presence was good mental support."
"Glad I could help. I didn't mind, really. It was like a crash course on what happens in the castle." Roxas smiles at her. Kairi returns it half-heartedly. That's not like her. "What is it? What's wrong?"
"They want me to stay for a little while," Kairi admits. "And by 'little while' I'm sure they mean another week or two at least."
Roxas kind of figured Kairi would end up staying. Actually, he knew she was doomed the minute she walked through the door yesterday and three of the castle occupants practically interrogated her.
"Are you going to stay?" Roxas asks. "You don't seem like you want to."
Kairi puts down her fork. She aims a displeased face at her plate. "It's not that I don't like it here. It's my home—my second home. My past home. Whatever. I just..." Kairi lifts her eyes to Roxas. "I don't feel prepared."
Roxas leans on the table, closer to her. "You seemed like you were handling everything pretty well. You had answers for every question thrown at you. Why don't you think you feel prepared?"
"It's like—I'm...I'm terrified I'll make the wrong decision and everyone will stop trusting me or seeing me as someone worthy to lead them. I haven't spent my life preparing for this and even though I'm only coming here everyone once in a while, I still feel overwhelmed. It's like I can't get myself to stop and just calm down. What's wrong with me?"
Roxas scooches his chair closer to Kairi. Despite her solemn words, Kairi breaks through it by snorting a laugh at Roxas holding his chair and hoping it over to be beside her. He leans on his armrest and points a finger at her.
"First off, there's nothing wrong with you. It's anxiety. You think I don't suffer through the same thing? I watched my friends die. There's no way to totally get over that. It sucks. It invades your life without permission and drags you into dark despair while you try desperately to keep your eyes on the light. I can see why you had a nervous breakdown and fled in the middle of the night."
"I—"
"Second, I don't think you're giving yourself or your people enough credit. They adore you. I know that and I've only been here a day! I'll bet they're willing to forgive you if you do end up making a mistake and fessing up to it. And you will make mistakes. I make mistakes. Even Yen Sid makes mistakes and that guy's got the eyes of someone who's lived through his own mistakes and those of everyone else. Honestly, he freaks me out a little. Besides that, you've got people who will support you no matter what. I'm one of them.
"Think about it like this. You face the challenging missions the King gives you head-on. You don't shy away from those. You're comfortable with those challenges, but it took years to get you to feel that way. You'll eventually get to the point where you're comfortable with handling whatever challenge that happens here.
"Also I'm staying here as long as you are."
Kairi's eyebrows shoot up. "You are?"
"Mission's not over," Roxas says casually, leaning in closer to her. "Besides, I only just got you to be my girlfriend two days ago. There's no way you're getting rid of me while I've barely had any opportunities to kiss you."
Kairi is the one to close the small distance between them. It's a kiss filled with amusement from her and smiles from him. Not a kiss that's in sync but one that makes them both happy. They break apart fairly soon but keep close. "You don't mind hanging around here?"
"Not one bit. Remember when I volunteered for this mission? When I overheard your conversation with the King, I was on my way to find him to ask if there was something I could do because I was bored out of my mind and annoyed at Xion and Lea. I didn't know what to do with myself. Now I have something to do." Roxas smiles a little wider. "Someone to be with."
"I'm glad you volunteered, in case I haven't told you lately," Kairi says. She flicks her hair over her shoulder and looks at Roxas with a gleam in her eyes. "People shouldn't underestimate you. You've got a lot of heart and dry wit to back it up."
Roxas's smile turns into a smirk. "Why thank you."
"One more question, though."
"Shoot."
Kairi takes her lower lip between her teeth before speaking (an action Roxas fully approves of as his attention hasn't fully left those lips). "Are you going to be ok with answering questions about us when the others finally bring it up?"
"Yeah, definitely."
"No, I mean really prepared. When it comes to me, the people can be nosy. And..." Kairi tugs on a bit of her hair nervously. "Back when I liked Sora—"
(The memory of that fact passes through Roxas like an unwelcomed cold wave of ocean water. He determinedly pushes against the current it tries to pull him into. Thankfully, he succeeds.)
"—I didn't tell anyone, but they all sort of picked up on it. I would get questions, and I suspect he got them too. Even after I denied it they kept giving me these knowing looks. Now here I am blatantly holding your hand, not trying to hide anything. They're going to eat that up like a free feast."
Roxas grins. (She never denied anything with him. She showed him off around the castle on day one.) "As long as you're ok with going public about us, I'm all for it. I'll prepare myself."
"I'm serious. They can really lay on the pressure."
"Thanks for the warning. I promise I've got this. It's not something I want to hide either." Roxas's grin stretches further. "Besides, how many other people in all the worlds get to brag that they've got a princess?"
Kairi laughs (finally, Roxas thinks, because melancholy doesn't suit her). "Who else gets to brag they've got the most handsome keyblade wielder by their side?"
Roxas laughs now too. (Mainly to hide his pleased embarrassment. He's not used to compliments as often as Kairi throws them around. It's a satisfying change.)
"That reminds me," Kairi says. "Would you mind sparring with me after supper? I feel really out of practice."
"Sure."
"Don't you dare go easy on me, ok? I'm sick of that. I won't learn unless you don't hold back."
"I'll only hold back if there's a chance I'll seriously injure you. Sound fair?"
Kairi nods with finality. "I'll agree to that."
"Now I have a question for you."
"Shoot."
"Are you going to eat that?" Roxas points to her untouched fish. "Because that's really good."
Two hours later, and both Roxas and Kairi are covered in sweat and gasping for air. Their keyblades gleam in the light of the setting sun as they face each other near the garden. The volunteers and restorers have gone home for the evening so no one witnessed the vicious battling.
They've been sparring for the better part of an hour and a half. The equal stares of determination burn into one another. What finally breaks the silent battle of wills is Roxas standing up straight and allowing his keyblades to disappear.
"Call it a night?" he asks with a slight rasp.
Kairi releases her keyblade as well. "Thank goodness."
Roxas can barely chuckle since his lungs are still straining just to get enough oxygen to stay alive. "And Sora and Riku were worried about you because...?"
Kairi laughs in much the breathless way Roxas does. "Beats me."
"No, you were the one that nearly beat me."
"Nearly," Kairi points out. She paces, unable to keep still in her restless state.
"That's more than a lot of people can say," Roxas says. He stretches his arms above his head to try and get the stitch out of his side. When he looks back he sees Kairi quickly looking away.
Kairi stops her pacing. "Can you see why I get bugged when Sora and Riku are overprotective?"
"I'd be mad too if my skills were being smothered like that."
"You're not just saying that, are you? To not hurt my feelings?"
"Wait until tomorrow. I'll show you all the bruises that'll appear. Then I dare you to ask me that again."
Kairi smiles and shakes her head. "Alright. I believe you. Just making sure." She walks over to him, and Roxas finds himself reaching out for her without conscious thought. He slings an arm around her shoulders and feels her arm loop across his waist. Her thumb tucks through his belt loop and rests there to keep her arm up because her muscles seem too limp to even keep hold of him. They begin their casual stroll back to the castle.
Roxas really wasn't lying. He was surprised how quickly he had to go on the defensive with Kairi. She had a style he wasn't prepared for. She didn't just use her keyblade. She went all in.
She has a style Roxas can only describe as avoidance. During the battle, Roxas once found himself bearing down on her with his keyblade, pressing against hers as she keeps him at bay. Suddenly, all the force he had been using gave way under him because Kairi had ducked under her own blade. When she did so, she used her back to slam against his stomach, arch him up and over herself then let him fall gracelessly onto the ground. Roxas barely brought his keyblade up in time to avoid getting hit in the face while he lay there.
It's a common occurrence for her. When they are in close quarters, Roxas gets his arm yanked in a different direction or his knee gets pressed inward or he gets a jab in the side enough to unsteady him. Kairi manages to get in close by pretending to be on the defensive, avoiding specific attacks, taking a barely noticeable step closer here and there until Roxas gets an elbow dug in between his shoulder blades. Sure, he won, but it certainly doesn't feel like it. He feels like he somehow made Terra mad then suffered his wrath like Axel (—Lea—) did that one time.
"You two look like death knocked on your door," Nona says when they enter the castle. She's shaking her head. "Would either of you like some ice?"
"That would be incredible," Roxas says gratefully. "Thank you."
"Yes please, Nona," Kairi says. "We'd really appreciate it."
Nona nods at their gratitude. "Go on upstairs. I'll be there in a minute."
The two eventually make it up the stairs. One by one. It's a painfully slow task, though Roxas doesn't help all that much. ("Roxas, I can't carry you the whole way." "Too tired. I'll sleep here. Go on without me.") When they reach their rooms, they head for their separate doors. It's also about that time Nona meets up with them. She hands each teenager an ice pack wrapped in a towel then bids them goodnight, waiting in the hallway with her hands on her hips until the two on the receiving end of her stern look enter their separate rooms.
Roxas groans—and only half of that is from the feel of the cool pack against his aching ribs. (The other half is thanks to Nona, the Master Chaperone.) Roxas tosses the ice pack on the bed and heads for the balcony, unsurprised to find Kairi already leaning against the railing.
"I hope this doesn't become a nightly thing," she says as Roxas goes to stand near the edge closest to her.
"She seems pretty determined," Roxas says.
Kairi shakes her head, but she's smiling as she does so. "According to her I'm growing up too fast. Wait a little while then I promise you'll get a goodnight kiss, ok?"
"Nah."
"Roxas, seriously, she'll be gone in two—Roxas."
Roxas is already on the railing. He pauses a moment to mentally brace himself since his body has already decided to slow down for the night and feel the aches of the day—no adrenaline to help this time. He makes it despite the pain. Much to his dismay, he's greeted with swatting and a wimpy excuse for a punch instead of a kiss.
"You need to stop that," Kairi says, whacking him on the arm. Normally, this wouldn't hurt, but that's a point where Kairi had managed to get a good swing his way. It's gonna be majorly bruised tomorrow. "Don't you dare make a habit of this. You're going to end up getting hurt."
"I'm already hurt," Roxas says.
This ceases Kairi's onslaught. "You are?"
"I told you I'm going to have bruises tomorrow. Why do you never believe me when I tell you I'm hurt? You're vicious on the battlefield. Of course I'm hurt."
Kairi purses her lips. Roxas can't tell if it's to mock his pain or if she's really sorry for him.
"Poor baby." (Mockery.) "Where does it hurt?"
"Everywhere," Roxas says dramatically.
The ensuing grin Kairi gives him makes Roxas wary. "Hm, well, it would take a while to kiss you everywhere."
(Did she just...? Roxas can suddenly hear his heartbeat in his ears. He thought he was hot before, now he feels overheated.)
"Would you accept an alternative?" she asks.
"Wh-What alternative?" (Damn. His voice cracked.)
Kairi steps up to him, places one hand on his chest (now she for sure can feel his spastic heartbeat) and raises herself up enough to press her lips to his.
Only this is a kiss Roxas can only describe as more. Kairi had parted her lips just slightly so that when they connected with his, they actually locked together. The slight dampness to the kiss may be from her mouth or the sweat they're both still covered in. Either way, it makes Roxas's mind stop, stutter, and jump to several different thoughts, not settling on a single one.
Tentatively, like a question, Roxas tries kissing her back. His jolting mind scrambles to find any memories of seeing other people share a passing kiss or what he's seen in movies, trying to apply it to now. But mostly the small movements are coming from instinct because, as stated before, his mind isn't working so great right now.
His hands come to rest on her hips. Kairi inches closer, enough that he feels her body heat adding to his already scorching state.
Then they break apart. Roxas meets Kairi's eyes. They're large with something unreadable to him. Roxas suspects he looks much the same because he's feeling too much to pinpoint any one thing.
"Feel any better?" Kairi asks. She sounds similar to the breathless state she was in after they finished sparring.
"Much," Roxas says.
Kairi's resulting smile is a soft one. One which makes Roxas's stomach jerk and his senses stand at attention, making him hyperaware of her presence.
"Good," she says. "I'm glad." Then, as if breaking from a trance, Kairi gives a small shake of her head and steps away from him. "That—That can count as your goodnight kiss too. You should go back to your room now."
(I don't want to. I want to stay here and be in your presence forever and smell your flower hair and kiss you again and hold you close enough to feel your warmth and watch you smile and—)
"Yeah," Roxas says. "Ok."
Kairi takes his hand and begins leading him to her bedroom to go out the door.
("—kiss you everywhere.") Roxas's mind flashes with unbidden images that send equally unbidden feelings coursing through his blood. He yanks his hand away and laughs. He tries to make it casual but all he hears is a strangled sound.
"I see how it is. You're trying to get me to go through the doorway instead of jumping to my balcony. Well, it didn't work." (Roxas is very much aware he's rambling as he makes his way to the railing, but what else can he do? He's got to distract himself somehow or else he will end up in a very embarrassing situation.) "I'm on you—ONTO YOU. You can't trick me! Ha ha! Nope. I'm going this way. You can't stop me."
Roxas leaps across the gap and lands with plenty of distance to spare. (His adrenaline is back.)
Kairi is standing on her balcony with a bewildered expression. Roxas isn't sure what to do with himself. He knows how weird his behavior is. He brushes off his clothes, scratches the back of his head, and shakes out his arms and shoulders before giving Kairi a brief wave and a "Goodnight" before retreating into his room.
He practically slams the doors closed. Roxas stands there staring through the windowed barriers, breathing like he's run a marathon. He isn't sure how long he stands there but the thing that finally breaks him of his panic-ridden thoughts is his smell. He needs a shower.
An ice cold shower.
The following week is a good one. An interesting one. A learning one.
After letting King Mickey know they would be there for an indeterminate amount of time (which he approved of without hesitation. Safer was his word), Roxas and Kairi settled into their temporary lives.
Roxas learns Kairi's opinion is highly sought after, more so than what he thought. He learns it's more just to feel included than actually needing Kairi's opinion. He learns Kairi needs a backup which he suspects is probably why she asks his opinion as much as she has been. Roxas mentions Nona might be a good fallback to send people to who have menial things. Kairi agrees and tries doing this more often. She and Nona also discuss this midway through the week in a long, in-depth strategy talk. Their game plan includes all decor questions go to Nona while more complex, kingdom-oriented questions go to Kairi. Nona insisted on this because Kairi must establish herself as the sole ruler. Roxas hopes those coming to Kairi get the hint to back off relatively soon because although Kairi handles it with grace, he still detects hints of stress here and there (reaching out for his hand, looking to him with wide eyes, throwing half-smiles his way). Which he thinks they might because nearer the end of the week, he only heard two questions about color schemes rather than thirty.
The complicated questions come her way. Though Kairi manages them, she often has a brief conversation with Roxas (who sticks by her side more often than not). Instead of questions like "Which do you think would go better in the entry hall?", Roxas gets questions like "Does the town square seem like a safe place for this meeting or is the stadium better?" which are much more up his alley.
Despite this, Kairi also tries to get him to leave her side. She insists he get a feel for the place, get familiar with his surroundings, have some time to himself. Roxas does so. More often than not it isn't time to himself. Random people introduce themselves to him and strike up a conversation or ask for assistance in a project within the castle. Roxas willingly lends an ear and a hand. Soon he makes a few acquaintances without really even trying.
Sometimes, though, it isn't all that pleasant. Kairi was right, the people around here are very curious. They sneak it into conversations, first asking simple things like how he's liking his stay then digging right in and asking things like if he's moving here and the nature of his relationship with their beloved princess. Roxas readily informs them of his relationship with her which is most often met with smiles and further questions while few others are wary. Roxas usually tries to move onto another topic fairly quickly.
Roxas also learns the edges of the kingdom's territory has been harder to manage heartless-wise. He hears it from the gossip of those around the castle and from Kairi herself who gets a message from General Corporeal midway through the week saying he heard of her return and will be at the castle beginning of next week barring no complications. Nona explains there have been nothing but complications for several months now. It started out slow with the northern post having a difficult time with heartless, then the Claymores (which Kairi had insisted be installed beyond the castle borders for the safety of the citizens), then losing soldiers. Lieutenant Jox, who has been overseeing the area, has not been able to find a cause either.
This issue, Roxas notices, causes Kairi the most anxiousness, but at the same time the most determination. She asks Roxas to accompany her to town by the week's end in order to find Cid, one of the original members and founders of the Radiant Garden Restoration Committee, and inform him of the General's return which Roxas readily agrees to.
There are other things Roxas learns as the week goes on.
Roxas learns Kairi likes to wear dresses while in her castle. Dresses with a skirt flowing to her knees and bares her arms in the consistently warm weather of her homeland. She also likes to put flowers in her hair. Every morning she plucks two or three out of whatever vase she passes by and tuck them in her hair if she put it up that day. If not, she tucks one behind her ear. Roxas asks her about this practice, and she tells him it makes her feel more like she has always been a part of the place rather than a transplant back into it. A little reminder she came from here.
(Roxas has taken to bringing her a flower each morning. His favorite has long, white petals with an orange center. Only one, that way it's a guarantee she wears it. And she always does, taking it with a smile and a thanking him with a light kiss on his cheek. Seeing her with the flower makes him feel like he is more engrained in her life, even if it's just a small amount.)
He and Kairi don't get much time alone together throughout the week. Between the constant questions, Nona's watchful eye, social mealtimes, and the palace always having people around, their time together is limited. But they make time.
The first thing the two of them do for time alone is spar.
(Roxas showed Kairi his bruises the day after their first sparring session which thoroughly horrified her. Roxas tried to reassure her but stopped after she kissed each marking on his face. He had four: two bruises, a scratch, and one Roxas had insisted was on his lips despite Kairi not being able to see it.)
They make time for combat practice so as not to fall behind the others who are probably fighting dangerous creatures of the darkness (despite neither of them knowing for certain what since the King continues refusing to inform them).
The second way they make alone time is each evening on the balcony. Despite Kairi not wanting him to "make a habit" of it, Roxas does. Each night he leaps over onto her balcony from his own and they spend several minutes chatting, simply being in each other's company, before Roxas gets his goodnight kiss and leaps back onto his own balcony.
The end of their first week brings another opportunity for time alone.
"Are you sure you don't need anyone else along with you?" Nona asks for the third time in the same You better bring a chaperone with you undertone.
"I'm absolutely positive, Nona," Kairi says with the same amount of patience she had when answering the question the first time around. "Roxas and I are more than qualified to protect ourselves."
"Don't worry," Roxas says, "I'll make sure she's safe."
Nona gives him an evil-eye. Roxas's smile hardens in return. He knows her safety isn't the only worry. He is a worry too.
"Fine," Nona finally says. "Better be home by dark."
"I'll do my best," Kairi says, "but I told you I'm going to show Roxas around town after talking to Cid and the others. I want to give him the full tour. It might take a few hours, and it's already mid-afternoon."
Nona grunts before her anger seemingly melts off her face. She pats Kairi's cheek and coos. "Have fun, darling."
She turns her glance to Roxas who braces himself for her returned withering glare. She waves them off.
When the door closes, Roxas can take a full breath again. "Do you think she'll ever warm up to me?"
"She better because I don't think you're going anywhere."
Roxas gives her a reassuring smile upon the princess's sideways glance. (Others might find it annoying having their significant other occasionally putting in little inquiries about whether or not the other is still in this with them, but Roxas finds it reassuring. He does this too. Besides, their relationship is still new. They haven't settled into it yet, but they will with time. Until then, Roxas answers the question with a smile.)
"I don't plan on it," he says.
Kairi gives his hand a squeeze. (Roxas took her hand the second they were out of Nona's sight.)
"Hey, would we consider this a date?" Kairi asks. "Or would this be business since we're stopping by Cid's to discuss the Claymore?"
Roxas ponders this. "I...don't...think so? It has the qualities of a date, but I would save that title for a time when we can actually spend time alone."
Kairi grins. "What, the walk over doesn't count?"
"I can plan a better date than a walk."
"Like taking me dancing? I'm still counting on that. You'd better not have forgotten."
"I haven't forgotten. As soon as we get a break, we'll go dancing."
"Good. You're a good dancer, you know."
Roxas scoffs. "I panic-learned how to dance so as not to be an embarrassment."
"Well, some of it had to have come from natural talent. No one who hasn't ever danced can learn that fast without some basic skill."
Roxas scratches the back of his head—and stops the action immediately. (Stop doing that.) "Then let's go dancing somewhere where we haven't danced. A new dance style. If I learn that fast, then I'll believe you when you say I'm naturally good."
"Deal." Kairi giggles. "I'm really looking forward to it."
"To me tripping over my own two feet?"
"To our first official date."
Roxas's heart does this little flip thing, and he looks to find her smiling shyly at him.
"I'm looking forward to spending time with you without expectations or—or other people we know around. It'll be a real date."
Roxas finds himself inching closer to her both with and without his brain consciously telling him to do so. He just knows he wants to be closer. His arm brushes hers with each step, and his mind brings up a memory of him and her walking side by side after the town anniversary at Belle and Adam's world. He walked close enough to her exactly like this—close enough he felt her body heat—only then they weren't holding hands. Roxas is beyond pleased at the development since then.
"Same here. It can't come soon enough."
They head straight for the Borough first for their meeting with the Restoration Committee. Since Kairi told Cid she would be coming, of course he informed Leon Squall, Aerith, and Yuffie. Leon can't make it because Rinoa is in town, and Merlin is occupied elsewhere as well. After Merlin had an incident with a "minor" spell, a cleanup was necessary before the sticky substance coating the room he was in dried.
The next hour and a half is chock full of ideas and counter-ideas to problems they present to Kairi that have come up in her absence.
Every conversation seems to have a pattern. No matter the dilemma, the discussion circles around like this...
"It ain't gonna work," Cid grumbles.
"It has to work. What else is there?" Yuffie counters.
"It wouldn't hurt to try our original idea instead of the alternative," Aerith gently suggests.
"I can see it maybe working," Kairi says, "if things fall into place in our favor."
"But where would we get the resources?" Roxas asks.
Roxas finds it acceptable that this crew is bringing up issues with Kairi. They go about it differently than those skittering around the castle. The Committee approaches it in a calm, undemanding manner. They know her dedication, and Kairi knows theirs. They're friends with her. Though Sora is the closest to them, Kairi often works closely with them because of the trusting relationship they've built since her return.
Finally, after an hour, Kairi stands up and stretches.
"Ok, I think that's enough for today. We've gotten pretty far for only a couple hours' work."
"Fine by me," Yuffie says. "I was getting a little stir-crazy anyway."
"When will we meet again?" Aerith asks.
"She's right!" Cid states firmly. "We gotta get going on some of these ideas. Sooner the better."
"I agree. I'm..." Kairi glances at Roxas who has come to stand beside her. "I might still be here next week, but no guarantees. Let me talk it over and I'll let you know."
"Sounds fair," Yuffie says. She bounds for the door. "I'll see you guys later then!" And with that, she disappears into fresh air.
Aerith comes forward and gives both Roxas and Kairi a hug. "It was wonderful to see you both. I hope when we do meet next, we have time to sit down and talk about things other than business."
"That would be great," Kairi says. "I'll make the time."
"We'll see you, Cid," Roxas calls as he and Kairi head for the door.
Cid grunts a goodbye and gives a quick wave without looking over his shoulder before going right back to his work on the computer.
"Now the tour can begin," Kairi says happily. She takes Roxas hand and eagerly pulls him back towards town.
Roxas has gotten a tour of the town before, but again, that was with everyone else. It's different having an intimate tour with its princess. Her love for the place can be heard in each word she speaks. The homely village houses and storefronts colored in pale yellows, reds, purples, and blues are accented by the grey stonework which makes up most of the paths and foundation of the town.
Kairi also points out the cracks in the grey stonework. They are left over from when the world was swamped in darkness. But those cracks have been filled in, fixed so the damage is only visible physically and no longer a danger to the foundation. A few are on the walls of the buildings as well, but less noticeable thanks to a new paint job.
"The place is really coming together," Roxas comments.
Kairi is quiet a moment, staring at a rather large crack that ran through an open area meant for gathering. Then she looks at him with eyes declaring wisdom beyond her years and says, "Yes. It really is."
"Watch out!"
Roxas finds himself becoming better acquainted with the stonework. Whatever hit him had enough force to knock him down flat. And keeps him there.
"Whoops, sorry mister."
"Our bad."
"We should get off him, guys."
The pressure lessens, and Roxas sits up to find three pairs of large eyes staring at him.
"Huey, Dewey, Louie!"
The eyes turn to the person addressing them. "Kairi!"
The three ducklings rush upon the redhead, completely forgetting Roxas who watches their exchange of hugs. Then the three boys, clad in red, blue, and green respectively, stand before her. They take off their hats and do exaggerated bows.
"Your majesty," Huey says.
"Your highness," Dewey says.
"Your loveliness," Louie says.
Kairi laughs and bows in return, an overstated bow in mimic of their own. Then she crosses her arms and looks down on them in mock severity. "Now what were you three running away from?"
"Away? Were we running away, Louie?"
"Of course not. We were simply getting exercise."
"Us young ones need that, don't you know."
Kairi raises an eyebrow. "You were so invested in your exercise that you failed to see Roxas and knock him down. Have you properly apologized?"
The three boys briefly turn to Roxas who still hasn't stood up. "Sorry, mister!" they say in unison.
"S'ok."
Kairi nods. "That's better. Now go ahead and run along. If I know your uncle, you'll need as much of a head start as you can get. He always finds you."
"Boys!"
The far cry echoes against the walls and reaches the ears of the mischievous boys who startle. Fear is evident on their faces, but they try hiding it by plastering on smiles that fool no one.
"Gotta go!" they say in unison again and sprint away.
Not three seconds later Scrooge McDuck comes running. He pauses only briefly to nod at Kairi then narrow his eyes at Roxas (who is still on the ground), and growls out, "They've been this way." Then he takes off in much the same way his nephews had.
Roxas takes Kairi's offered hand and stands up. Their eyes go to where Scrooge disappeared before looking to one another again and bursting into laughter.
The commotion of the three boys ends up attracting the attention of the townspeople. Now as the couple continues their walk they are noticed. "The princess is in town!" no doubt is whispered from ear to ear because soon enough almost every person is sweeping their porch or taking out their trash or opening their windows for air and all happen to look over and see the princess.
"Oh, hello miss! What brings you into town?"
"How are you, miss? You look nice today."
"Hiya, miss. Who might you be walking with?"
(They know very well who Roxas is at this point. He recognizes some of the volunteers whom he has personally told that he and Kairi are together. They just want confirmation for further gossip. Roxas doesn't mind too much. In fact, he feels a bit of pride at being the one at Kairi's side.)
Their walk slows to a crawl as Kairi answers each greeting. From that, people begin to gather in the street until a small crowd has formed. An impromptu get-together. It's not only Kairi they're talking to, but Roxas as well (which happens without Kairi needing to bring their attention to him—that's a first).
Once they find out Roxas is getting a tour, they eagerly discuss the topic. Praises and compliments are thrown around liberally both at the beauty of their home and at Kairi's work to restore it. Roxas notices Kairi's pleased yet embarrassed modesty, calling it a group effort.
Then the topic somehow drifts back to Roxas. Well, actually, Roxas blames it on the robust woman who gets rather close to him and grabs his chin.
"So this is the boy everyone's saying you finally gave your heart to!" she says loudly and without shame. She lets go of his face but not before patting both of his cheeks simultaneously. "What a handsome face. Are you sure he didn't just wink at you and win you over?"
Kairi laughs at Roxas's flustered state. "I promise he's more than a handsome face."
"Much like every person you bring around here. Like that Riku kid," a gentleman wearing suspenders and leaning against a gardening hoe says. "He was the one who helped me get those vermin away from my vegetables."
"Oh! Or Sora. He fought all those heartless, I remember."
"What about the guy with spikey hair who had those fire powers? He started the bonfire last summer. Fastest it's ever got going."
"I'm afraid I've been monopolizing Roxas's time so he hasn't gotten into town much," Kairi informs them. "He has been helping with organizing the castle lately."
"That's right!" another man says. "He certainly was a good extra set of hands when setting the stone wall around the outer garden. Thanks again for that. It sure got done faster."
"Happy to do it," Roxas replies.
A younger woman steps forward. "Haven't you also helped with some of the decisions regarding decoration? I know the library has been under renovation. I've been helping with it. We sent someone to find Kairi and she came back to say you had answered our question."
"It could have been me," Roxas says.
"I trust Roxas's decisions implicitly," Kairi announces.
(Really? This is news to Roxas. Good news. Great news. But news that also puts pressure on him. What if he makes the wrong decision?—wait...ok, yeah, now he kind of understands where Kairi feels pressure when it comes to ruling.)
"You staying a while, Roxas?" someone asks.
"I'm here as long as Kairi is."
"Are you leaving soon, highness?" another asks Kairi.
Kairi shrugs. "I won't be here terribly much longer. Then I'll be gone for a few months before returning for the summer."
"A whole summer! Good," the robust woman says. "This place always shines a little brighter with you present."
"Here, here!"
A girl about eight comes up to Kairi and clings to the skirt of her dress. "Can there be a ball next summer? Momma says I wasn't old enough for the last one. Can I come to the next one? Please? Please, please, please?"
"Of course there will be a ball, and of course you will be invited," Kairi says.
(Roxas can't blame Kairi one bit for giving in to those large brown doe eyes.)
"That will give Roxas enough time to learn to dance," a man with an impressive moustache says. He claps Roxas on the shoulder with one of his large hands. "I can barely do a two-step. The wife complains I step on her feet every time I try."
"Actually—"
(No, Kairi. No, no, no. Don't tell them. Don't. Please.)
"—Roxas is a great dancer."
(Oh boy.)
"Is that so? Rare thing, a young lad like yourself being good at dancing and enjoying it too. Do you know any of our traditional dances?"
"Uh, no, sorry to say."
"Karlson! Get your fiddle! We gotta show the boy how to dance proper."
And just like that, an impromptu party is made. Karlson gets his fiddle and starts up a tune. Someone else joins him with a harmonica, and yet another grabs a bucket to use for a drum.
A traditional Radiant Garden dance separates the men from the women. They stand opposite one another for a few bars of the song's beginning, bouncing to the tune before coming together. The couples step around one another before the men twirl the women and switch partners with those to the left. Then it continues on with more spinning, more steps, and more laughs.
Much to Roxas's relief, he picks up the steps fairly quickly. (Maybe Kairi had a point when she said he had some form of "natural talent".) That doesn't mean he doesn't stumble here and there, but no one seems to notice because nobody seems to be taking this too seriously. In fact, Roxas cannot see a serious face among the crowd. He knows his face reflects the joy of the crowd. He briefly catches Kairi's eye. He raises his eyebrows and nods quickly to relay his merriment to her. Her princess smile widens with delight.
Something flashes in that moment, and Roxas hears a click along with it. He turns to find the woman who grabbed his face earlier holding up a camera. She laughs at his surprise and says he shouldn't worry. He no doubt photographs well. Kairi asks for a print of the picture when the camera is full. At this, the woman hands over the camera. Turns out it is a disposable one with only twenty-five pictures it's able to take. The picture she just took is the first on the camera.
"Make more memories," the woman says when Kairi says she can't possibly take it for free. "They are more precious than munny."
Kairi accepts the camera.
Roxas can see why this world was a beacon of light before the darkness came upon it. The people are cheerful and full of life. They make the best out of anything and see the beauty in everything. They are good people who mean well, and Roxas decides he likes them and likes their home.
When the festivities finally end, it is dark, but it isn't a scary darkness. No, this is the kind of darkness that brings serenity and a sense of secrecy. Much of Roxas and Kairi's walk back to the castle is filled with muffled laughter at nothing and the shushing of one another as if afraid of being caught though they are doing nothing wrong.
Kairi snaps an unflattering picture of Roxas. The flash illuminates his face in the darkness. Because it is a cheap, disposable camera, they are unable to see the end result until they develop the photos, but Roxas knows it's an unflattering one. For revenge, he wrestles the camera from her (rather easily, making him wonder how hard she's fighting this), and snaps one of her laughing face with the same glaring flash. This only causes more laughter between them.
"Where was this camera when Madame Bouche dressed you up?"
"Roxas, don't even think—"
"Do you think if I describe it well enough, Naminé will be able to capture it in a drawing?"
"Gimme that camera. It's giving you awful ideas."
Roxas aims it at Kairi once more and—click.
Roxas is glad they are walking through the Great Maw since hardly anybody goes through it. He prefers to have the majority of his carefree side come out with Kairi and only Kairi around. And they are certainly being silly. Nobody else needs to witness their fake fights, uninhibited laughter, and quick-witted quips.
(But he can see why people don't like this path. No doubt they feel trapped with the high cliff walls on either side, making the traveler feel suffocated.)
Eventually the two make it to the castle. They wave to the guards who wave back and let them pass without needing to speak. Once they are through, they make their way to the staircase, still giggling and still telling one another to be quiet so as not to wake the castle occupants, but this is apparently hilarious because it only causes more giggling.
The giggling abruptly ends when they reach the top of the stairs and find Nona sitting in a chair placed between their two rooms.
"It must have been quite a night," Nona says, breaking the sudden silence.
Kairi chokes on a laugh. This pricks Roxas's funny bone, and he constricts his stomach muscles to keep himself from bursting.
"Was the tour a success?" Nona asks.
"Yes," Kairi squeaks out in too-high a voice.
"Great," Roxas croaks.
Nona narrows her eyes at the two of them. "You are home rather late."
"Sorry," Roxas barely manages to say.
"Yeah, sorry," Kairi squeaks again.
"Something funny?"
The dam is broken. The two teenagers' laughter spills out of them like water from a fountain. Nona's surprise only adds to it.
"It's—It's—It's not you," Kairi slips in between snickers.
"We—it's—nothing."
"Nothing's funny," Kairi says, bringing on another round of laughter.
Much to Roxas's surprise, Nona smiles at the two of them—not only Kairi. Him too. It's a tired smile, but also one of understanding. She waves at them. "I'm glad you had fun, but go on, off to bed. It's late."
Even more of a surprise, Nona leaves before the two enter their rooms. Roxas's mind flies trying to find the reasoning behind this. Does she trust him finally? Does she trust them?
Kairi notices this too because grabs Roxas by the front of his shirt before the moment is lost and drags him into her room where she proceeds to kiss him the second the door is closed. It's an unsuccessful kiss because it's interrupted by their amusement. When either of them goes in for a kiss, the other starts laughing, bringing on more laughter from the first person. Both stop their attempts at affection and simply hold onto one another until the laughs go quiet and settle into heavy breathing and aching sides.
"My stomach hurts," Roxas says. "I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. No, wait. I take that back. Your outfit at Belle's place was great."
"Yeah, that was pretty funny," Kairi says. Her head rests on his shoulder, and he has one of his hands resting lazily on her back. "Tonight was awesome. That was a great date."
"I'm still not sure it was a date."
"I'm totally counting it. If we have that good of a time, it's a date."
"Whatever you want."
"Whatever I want...what I want...is to stay one more week."
She looks at him with eyes equal to the doe eyes of the little girl who begged Kairi to throw a ball next summer. The princess doesn't have to say anything for Roxas to know she's asking if he will stay with her.
The answer is obvious.
"Then I'll stay too. I want to," Roxas adds when Kairi raises a skeptical brow. He says it because it's true. He wants to stay. Not only for her (though she is the biggest reason) but because he likes this place. Likes the people. Likes hanging out here, helping, being of use, and being looked at like he is of some importance.
Kairi pulls back and brings him in for a solid kiss, but even now, after the massive wave of hilarity has passed, Roxas still can't help but smile and give a small chuckle when her lips connect with his.
"Sorry," he says when she pulls away also chuckling. "I can't seem to stop."
"Me neither." Kairi hums happily. She kisses his cheek instead, quick and light. "You're fun."
Roxas hardly ever hears those words, so hearing them from who is quickly becoming the most important person in his life is a marvel that sends pleasant warmth throughout his body, prolonging the pleasant warmth already left by the laughter.
"I'm glad you think so," Roxas says sincerely. "You're a lot of fun too. I look forward to all future dates."
"Roxas?"
"Yeah?"
"You said whatever I want, right?"
Roxas pauses. He senses a change in Kairi's voice. "Ye-eah, I did say that."
Kairi bites her lip and tilts her head to the side, looking innocent and lovely. (Danger! Roxas's mind screams. She's up to something.)
"Then," she says, "do you maybe think you can walk out the door instead of jumping to your balcony?"
Roxas laughs again. He suspected as much.
The balcony jumping has become a bit they do. Roxas jumps the balcony, Kairi pretends to be annoyed and worried and tries getting him to stop. The two jokingly banter regarding it before it ends with Roxas leaping across the expanse to his balcony and Kairi huffing in fake anger from her own balcony.
But tonight Roxas is in an excessively good mood. And Nona isn't here. He will put Kairi's mind at ease.
"If that's what you want," Roxas says.
Kairi blinks, surprised. "Really?"
"Really."
Kairi's eyes narrow. "I don't believe you."
"I mean it."
"No you don't."
"Yes I do!"
"You're just trying to fool me."
Roxas groans, pretending to be annoyed. "Well fine, I was going to actually walk through the door, but you wasted it with your disbelief." Roxas starts walking towards Kairi's balcony.
"Wait, Roxas!" Kairi attempts to pull him back, but she's laughing again which weakens her muscles.
"You brought this upon yourself." Roxas is surprised at how smooth he manages to keep his tone. He wants to laugh too at this point.
They reach the balcony despite Kairi's pathetic tries at keeping him back. When Roxas nears the railing, he turns and pulls Kairi in for a brief but firm kiss that she still manages to giggle during. Then he releases her. With a grin, Roxas turns on his heels and makes the leap from this railing to the next. When he reaches his place, he turns and leans against the balcony with that same grin aimed full-force at Kairi who rolls her eyes at him.
"You're ridiculous." She moves to lean against the railing.
"I try." Roxas mimics her position.
"Roxas?"
"Uh-huh?"
"Would you..." Kairi pauses and glances down at the ground below. "Would you be my date for the ball next summer?"
(It's impossible to feel this much joy. A person can't possibly contain it all. They'll explode. Roxas is going to explode.)
"I'd be honored, your highness."
Kairi smiles, and Roxas is shocked he hasn't exploded yet. "It's a date, then."
"It's a date," Roxas confirms.
"Goodnight, Roxas."
"Goodnight, Kairi."
Though they say their farewells, neither person moves right away. They remain there, eyes on each other, smiles on their lips, before finally—finally Kairi blows Roxas a kiss and enters her room, keeping her eyes on him until the last possible moment.
Roxas remains rooted in place a second longer, imagining her kiss reaching his cheek and settling there, light as a whisper, before making his way into his room. His feet step in time to a tune in his head because right now, Roxas feels like dancing.
"Roxas, General Corporeal is here. He is in the main meeting hall with Kairi. She requests your presence."
Nona's announcement comes two days after Kairi gave Roxas a tour of the town. They had the entire week planned from having the Restoration Committee visiting here tomorrow to the next excursion into town as a break from the castle duties. But with this single announcement, Roxas gets the feeling their plans are thrown out of whack.
Kairi has been getting brief and disturbing updates from the General regarding the northern post, the area he is currently trying to secure. Heartless seem to be drawn to the area, perhaps sensing the weakness of the Claymore and the encroaching darkness upon the soldiers' morale.
It's been the biggest downer on the two keyblade wielders' time here.
Roxas quickly makes his way to the meeting room where he sees Kairi and the General standing at the far end near the window. Roxas feels the eyes of the General on him as he approaches. It makes him feel intimidated and a little ill but not scared. Just respectful.
When he reaches them, Kairi gives introductions. "General Corporeal, I understand you've met Roxas before."
The man's stern face spreads into a congenial smile which melts some of the hardness of his features. He holds out his hand which Roxas takes. "Roxas. Of course. I had heard of your return to our kingdom. Welcome back."
"Thank you, sir," Roxas says, fighting his nerves. The keyblade wielder deeply respects this man. When they had met before, Roxas could tell how intensely he cares for his homeland and how intent he is to make it safe again. "How are—How are things at the north post? I heard there's trouble?"
The General takes his hand back. Some of his somberness returns. The somberness also shows a bit of his age. The man's white hair and equally white mustache accent his darkly-tanned and wrinkled skin. "Difficult. I'm afraid my return is solely to discuss the matter."
"What's happened exactly?"
General Corporeal glances to Kairi who gives a curt nod. "Any issue we have can go through Roxas as well as myself. He is completely trustworthy."
The older man's raised eyebrows are accompanied with a grin. "So the rumors are true."
Kairi crosses her arms yet doesn't look cross. "I told you through our messages. You didn't believe me?"
"My apologies, your highness. I only wanted to hear it from you in person. Forgive me if I have trouble trusting new people. Although you aren't too new." General Corporeal looks at Roxas. "And we have met before. You struck me as someone who can keep a secret."
At his words, Kairi shoots Roxas a look that reminds him of her words back at Cinderella's castle. About all he knows now regarding her heart. About how he is the only one she told.
Yes, Roxas can keep a secret.
"If that's the case, then we should discuss the issue more in-depth, your highness."
"Of course. Please, let's sit down, and I'll send for refreshments. I have a feeling it's going to be a long conversation."
It is.
It turns into at least three hours of talking. The first is catching Kairi up on all that has happened in her absence. The second gives all details of the current situation. The third is brainstorming on what to do now.
The north post, where the General has been stationed the last two months, has continued to experience issues with heartless which in turn has been destroying the morale of the soldiers there. They have even lost a few, a fact that eats away at the princess. The Claymore has been experiencing technical difficulties even after Cid had been there himself, done a full diagnostic, and found nothing to be wrong.
"My fear, your highness, is that someone is purposefully sabotaging the Claymore and drawing in the heartless. I just cannot find out who."
Kairi's complexion goes white at the insinuation. "What could they possibly gain? We've all been damaged by the heartless. We're all recovering. Why would they keep us from healing?"
"Honestly, I'm not sure, but the real problem is that I cannot get within the inner workings of the post. Whoever the saboteur is realizes I'm a danger to their agenda. They're careful to work around me. I've interviewed nearly all the soldiers, but they won't speak of informal affairs to me or Lieutenant Jox who has been there years now. Only what they believe I am interested in. I cannot seem to get a foot in anywhere. I fear we may lose the post if this continues."
Kairi brings her hand up to her mouth in a pensive gesture. Her eyebrows knit together and her nose wrinkles as she thinks. Finally, she turns to Roxas. "What do you think?"
"Hm? Wh—oh." Roxas had been deep in thought as well. Analyzing each detail given by the General. He really is in a predicament. Perhaps too deep.
"I think..."
"Come on, son. No use keeping quiet now. I could use more voices."
Roxas works his jaw before forcing himself to speak his mind. "I think you're hindering progress."
The half-beat of silence that follows Roxas's statement hangs heavy in the air.
General Corporeal hardly seems angry, however. Surprised maybe when he says, "And what brought you to this conclusion?"
"You...how do I—? You're such a presence there that the person or people doing this are meticulous about their movements. It is possible for them to screw up somehow, but that might take many more months or even years if they're as careful as you say. What needs to happen is for you to leave. Maybe you could have someone else in there spying for you. An unfamiliar face to gain the trust of the soldiers. They could know something they don't even know is important. It might be meager gossip to them but vital to finding the problem...but—but that's only a suggestion. I'm sure your way is just as good."
Roxas's words peter off at the penetrating stares aimed his way. After another half-beat of silence, General Corporeal turns to Kairi and lightly smacks the top of the table.
"I shouldn't have doubted you, your highness. I shouldn't have doubted my instincts of this young gentleman either. He has a good head on his shoulders."
"That's what I keep saying." Kairi beams at Roxas.
"You're going to do it?" Roxas asks.
"As surely as I breathe I am going to try this plan of yours," the General says. "The trick is finding someone to go undercover. There are plenty of soldiers, but it's still such a small group of higher-ups that are qualified enough to do a mission of this caliber. Everyone knows everyone. Whoever is doing this would recognize the more qualified soldiers."
"What about a lesser-qualified soldier?" Kairi suggests. "If it's only to gather information it might not be so dangerous."
"I wish, your highness, but there is a high degree of danger with this. There is still a chance our spy would encounter hostiles not to mention the present danger of the heartless already there. I would not send one of my men in there unprepared."
"I could do it," Roxas says.
Another half-beat of silence. Another round of intense stares.
Those stares melt into two completely different things. General Corporeal's becomes pleased while Kairi's falls into worry.
"I was hoping you would volunteer, son. I'll be honest, I had been impressed with you when I first met you. And I've heard nothing but good things regarding you since then. Especially from our esteemed princess."
Kairi tries interjecting. "Well, yes, but—"
"And we've already established your secrecy skills."
"Of course—"
"No soldier there knows what the highly spoken of Roxas looks like. He's disguised without actually being disguised. I see no problem with this solution if you are willing."
"Are you willing?" Kairi says in earnest, straining her words. "Are you really, Roxas?"
Roxas fiddles with his fingers that lay interlaced on the table. He tries not focusing on them and instead on answering honestly. But really, it doesn't take much thought. He knows the answer.
"Yes," Roxas says firmly. "I am."
"Why?" Kairi asks. It isn't a challenge, Roxas can tell. She honestly wants to know.
"Because I want to help," he says. "I-I like this place. I honestly really like it. The world has been through so much already, and if I can do something to help it through the pain, I will. The people are good and mean well. They don't deserve to be undermined by one of their own when the darkness is already scaring them. Putting them at ease is essential to this place's recovery. If we don't have their support, then we don't have a united world. Plus..." Roxas reaches over and takes Kairi's hand. He keeps his eyes on her when he speaks. "...this is your world. I want to help make it right for you."
Kairi's worried eyes war with her touched smile.
"Your highness?" General Corporeal prompts. "I will not go through with this without your blessing."
Kairi closes her eyes. She takes a deep breath in then slowly lets it out. When she opens her eyes, they're clear of emotion and aimed at Roxas.
"You have my blessing."
The rest of the day is spent in preparation of Roxas's coming expedition. He follows General Corporeal to the Guard Post stationed near the castle. Roxas could tell Kairi isn't pleased about the separation, but it is necessary.
Roxas spends the day getting a crash course on how soldiers march, answer to authority, take care of their weapons, and so on. Roxas will not be using his keyblade unless a dire emergency arises. The others shouldn't know he is the Roxas who is always by Kairi's side. It would ruin the ruse. Roxas will be using a sword-like weapon while going under the codename Axel (but maybe he should have chosen a different one because every time the General calls him Axel, Roxas has to fight the urge to grin).
After Roxas finishes training with his weapon and learning the protocol of all soldiers and General Corporeal deems him informed enough to pass as a new trainee, it is well into the evening. The two make their way to the castle in relative silence, having talked most of the day.
That is, until General Corporeal breaks the silence.
"I have no doubt you are prepared for this," he says, "but the real question I must ask is if you are prepared for the princess."
The out-of-the-blue question surprises Roxas, but he faces it with the same confidence he's been giving everyone else who has questioned his relationship with her.
"Yes, I am. I've known her for years and am getting to know her even better now. Things have been going well. Better than that, even."
The General, a man who can switch from stoic to jolly at the drop of a hat, keeps his stoic face to show he means business. This is not a light conversation, and Roxas does not treat it as such. He listens carefully for the subtext of the General's next words.
"I have no doubt you and the princess's relationship is built on similarities and good intentions. However, I am asking if you are prepared for what comes with her. What she has around her rather than who she is as a person. She is and most likely always will be Radiant Garden's princess for the remainder of her life. Are you willing to be by her side, take responsibilities with her, be as much of a leader as she?"
Roxas takes a second to absorb every word, but that must be a second too long for General Corporeal because he continues.
"I meant when I said you seemed like a good young man. You do have skill and a level head. You have also been through quite a lot. Her highness has hinted at such things, and though I know no details I don't doubt her word. But pursuing one of the most important people in our kingdom, someone who literally lights up our world at her presence, is not something you should put half your heart into if the other half is trying to recover from such pain."
Roxas stops walking and makes a sharp turn to his new mentor. His hard stare borders a glare. He squares his shoulders and tries reaching his full height.
"You have no idea what she and I have both been through. There has been damage to both of us. Why do you think she's hardly here? Her heart hurts every time she sets foot in this place. Mine hurts whenever people doubt me for reasons you'll never know. What I'm—what Kairi and I are both asking of you—you and Nona—is that you not be hindrances in this. We know there are challenges ahead. We aren't stupid. I know I'm dating a princess. I'm not an idiot. We need support, not lectures."
Roxas can feel his face shift into a full-force glare. "I'm not leaving because of a little bit of pressure. I'm not going to leave because of a lot of pressure either. So get used to seeing my face or back off. Whatever she needs, I'm there for her. I'll already have to deal with judgement from our friends when they find out. I don't need it from you too."
General Corporeal matches Roxas's glare. The younger man isn't backing down (though the General is mortally terrifying much like Yen Sid).
Then, slowly, the General brings his hand up and places it on Roxas's shoulder. Its weight is solid, heavy, and reassuring.
"That's all I needed to hear."
He doesn't necessarily smile. It's a tired look. One years in the making after having seen too much.
Then he retracts his hand and keeps walking. Roxas follows. When they near the castle, the General stops again. He doesn't face Roxas when he speaks.
"I knew the King and Queen for years. I was there when they married, I was there for Kairi's birth, and I was there at their deaths. I will be there for the princess until I find a replacement because I am old, son. No matter how much I'd like to protect that sweet girl forever, I am not immortal."
General Corporeal now does look over at Roxas who does nothing to betray his curiosity. The older man gives a nod.
"Though, through time, it might be proven that I've now found one."
The General makes his way into the castle, leaving Roxas alone.
Roxas decides to take a walk despite already having a long day of training and needing plenty of rest for tomorrow's full day of travel. He finds himself making his way into the back garden, the most developed part of the surrounding area. The most beautiful too.
It doesn't surprise him to see some flowers glowing in the night, Kairi had shown them to him, but it still manages to amaze him. It's a beautiful sight, seeing the petals flutter in the light evening breeze. The sun has settled past the horizon enough to show a few stars. Roxas finds his attention going from the unique flowers to the stars above him.
Knowing the other worlds are there, living their lives, makes Roxas feel small. Not in a bad way. One that makes him feel like he can't mess up so bad that things are irreparable or makes him feel like there are others out there, friends waiting to be made who will accept him as is, who don't know his past.
It's a comforting thought.
Roxas sits down next to a tree. His back rests against the trunk as does his head as he stares upward. He notices clouds gathering and covering up the stars.
He isn't scared. Not for his mission, not about the implication of General Corporeal's words, and not about Sora's reaction to him and Kairi dating.
The only thing he fears in this moment is losing her. And there are plenty of ways to lose her. But...for now...he's not scared of it. Like he told the General, he's here.
He's in.
He's all in.
Roxas isn't sure how long it is from when he sits down to when Kairi finds him. The sky is still half-lit by the sun below the horizon.
She pauses a few steps away from him. Roxas scoots over, and Kairi takes the unspoken invitation. She sits down beside him, tucking her legs up beside her, cuddling closer to him. (Roxas will not tire of that—her desire to cuddle him.)
"Hey," Roxas says.
"Hi." Kairi pauses. "You doing ok?"
"Fine." Roxas yawns. "Just fine."
"You mean tired."
"Maybe." Maybe completely exhausted. But whatever. Roxas's mind is too full right now to fall asleep.
"Come here." Kairi shifts and smooths the dress of her skirt over her legs. "Lay down."
Roxas's face flushes on its own. For some reason he's shy about this. It's such a...a quaint gesture between couples. He's never pictured himself doing something like it. "No it's ok. Your legs will fall asleep."
"You need rest. And I'll be fine. Come on. It's relaxing. Trust me."
(He'll probably never be able to deny her.)
Roxas shifts himself over and down, gently setting his head down on her thighs. (He's not thinking about it.) Kairi immediately puts his hand in his hair, alternating between stroking and scratching. Then she gives him a smile. This combo helps poor Roxas's nerves.
"See? It's not so bad."
Roxas yawns again and closes his eyes. He feels himself relax, sinking into it. The enormity of the day has finally hit him. His mind, however, can't relax as easily as his body.
"Hey, Roxas?"
"Mm?"
"You don't have to do this, you know."
Roxas doesn't open his eyes. "I know. I want to."
"You want to."
"Yeah."
"Why?"
"I said why. My reasons haven't changed. I like this place and I like you. I'd like to help."
"But—" Kairi bites off her words.
When she doesn't continue and her fingers still in their ministrations, Roxas opens his eyes to see her look of concern aimed at him.
"What?" Roxas asks. "Do you not want me to go? I don't have to."
Kairi resumes her stroking and Roxas closes his eyes again. "It's not that I'm against you helping or anything. I'm not. I actually really appreciate it. I'm just..." A sigh. "Roxas, you've been through so much already. You've—You've said so yourself that you know what it feels like to lose everything. You've experienced pain unimaginable to most people. I still feel sick sometimes thinking about what you went through. I have aftereffects from my own traumatic experiences. I don't want you to add to yours. I don't want me or my kingdom to be a reason for it. More pain is the last thing I want for you."
Roxas is struck dumb. The amount of concern for—for him. A hefty focused amount of concern all for him. Such attentions have yet to have their novelty wear off. Especially from her...
Kairi's hand goes from his hair to his face. She strokes his cheek then has her fingers trace from there to his chin then up across his lips and taps his nose once.
"Such a cute face," Kairi says, finger going up the bridge of his nose to curl over his eyebrows. "But always—" Kairi touches near the outside corner of Roxas's eyes and he opens them again, "—with a bit of sadness. It breaks my heart. I want to help."
Roxas isn't sleepy anymore. He sits up and faces Kairi, leaning in front of her, face to face. Kairi's face is illuminated thanks to the nearby glowing plants. They help to reveal her uncertainty. Roxas opens his mouth to say one of the dozens of things running through his head. No one thing wins. He closes his mouth. He repeats this process twice more until he frowns at the ground. His brain faintly recognizes the sound of distant thunder.
"You're right," he says, picking a thought. "I'm...not...sunshine. I'm not Sora—and I don't mean it like that," Roxas says quickly, seeing Kairi's movements to reassuring him. "I mean that I cope differently. He...Sora always looks ahead and ignores things that bring him pain. I, unfortunately, linger on them. I learn by—by trying to understand the thoughts that don't leave me. I've tried breaking away from them like he has. Didn't work. I've—I was really jealous about that for the longest time, but not anymore. So I listen to those memories. I try to hear what they're saying underneath the pain. I try to learn by revisiting. Anything I'll experience from here on out will be nothing compared to what I've been through. That's—That's what I cling to for any future issues. I'll know I've been through worse already. Nothing that happens on this trip will further traumatize me. I'll always be a recovering mess. Nothing's changing that."
Roxas shifts so he's no longer leaning his weight on his arm. He sits cross-legged facing Kairi. "I'm sorry, but I'll never be able to let go I don't think. It's going to be a part of me probably forever." Roxas swallows. "I've come to accept this about me. If—If it bothers you too much to—"
Kairi leans forward and wraps her arms around Roxas. It's kind of an awkward angle because she's leaning over his legs but she fixes that by crawling into his lap and more deeply enveloping him in her embrace. Roxas of course pulls her close. He won't deny himself the comfort this brings.
"It doesn't bother me. Not like that," she says, her voice close to his ear. "And now I know, Roxas. I understand. It's your way of dealing with it. I didn't know before. It's ok. And I'm here. I only want to help if ever you need it. You better tell me when you need me to help because I'm here."
(She understands. She doesn't find it bad for him to live with one foot in the past. She knows it's how he copes and is ok with it. She cares about him.)
Roxas can't help the breathy laugh that escapes him. He presses his nose into her hair. She smells of the surrounding garden but with a uniqueness that's completely her. "You have no idea how much you've already done. Kairi, I'm—I'm happy."
Kairi's response is to squeeze him harder.
It's then that the rain begins. It's the light patter of the drops hitting the leaves around and above them. Lightly. Few and far between at first.
Kairi pulls away and all Roxas can think is that she's glowing. Thanks to the bioluminescent plants surrounding them. (Or maybe that's just her.)
"You're beautiful," Roxas hears himself say.
Kairi appears stunned at the unexpected statement. "Oh." She settles into a smile. "Thank you. You're sweet." She tugs on the front of his shirt. "And you're quite handsome yourself."
Roxas leans in. Kairi leans back. (Wow. Ego killer.)
"How about we get inside first?" Kairi giggles. "Aw don't look so put out. I'll definitely give you your goodnight kiss."
Roxas grimaces.
"We can't have you sick before you leave tomorrow."
Kairi can explain all she wants, but Roxas is feeling close to her now. (Really close—like her-heart-is-connecting-with-his kind of close. The kind of close Roxas wants to prolong for as long as humanly possible.) If it's only rain getting in the way, then he'll make sure it isn't an obstacle anymore.
With his newfound determination and energy, Roxas stands and offers his princess a hand up. Once she's up, he guides her out from beneath the tree into what has become a downpour.
"Roxas, what—?"
Then he twirls her and understanding dawns on her face. She laughs when he pulls her to him and begins one of the generic ballroom dances they've gotten pretty good at after practicing it in a few different worlds. Their rhythm is familiar and light-hearted.
The rain picks up. The drops become bigger and more frequent and eventually soak the two young souls enjoying their time together. It adds to the fun. Kairi spins, and water droplets fly off her. Roxas shakes his head and gets the same result with a laugh from Kairi to accompany it. The steps become slides as the ground grows slippery. The thunder is their music and the lightning is the special effects.
The two end their dance with Roxas dipping Kairi. Both having matching smiles aimed at one another.
"What was that for?" Kairi asks over the noise of the storm around them.
Roxas shrugs, his heart tugging in her direction. "Because I like having fun with you." (She called him fun. He plans on keeping the title.)
Then Kairi's smile disappears. It drops, appearing as if the rain itself is bringing it down. Roxas's face falls as well. He stands her back up and is about to ask what's wrong when she tells him.
"I'm going to miss you."
Kairi's quiet voice mixes with the sound of the rain.
It isn't too easy to see her anymore thanks to the blackness of the storm and being farther from the glowing flowers, but her expression comes through well enough.
Then Roxas realizes it.
"I'm not leaving you." Roxas steps closer to her. "Kairi, I'm not leaving you."
Kairi looks near tears (though that might be rain). "I know."
"No, Kairi, I'm not. This is—it's not the same. I swear."
Kairi puts one of her hands on his face again, her thumb quieting him by brushing against his damp lips. "I know, Roxas. You're you, and I can feel your heart. I know. And thank you...for being you."
Raindrops. Roxas can feel raindrops falling on his head and down his back. He never experienced rain very much while in the Organization nor were there a lot of storms in Twilight Town. The water feels good. Natural.
As do his feelings for Kairi. It seems like they are rolling through him, down his skin much like the water is. The fear of losing her is gone. The joy of having her has planted itself instead, blooming with a glow much like the flowers surrounding them.
Roxas pulls Kairi to him and kisses her. Water runs down his face to where it connects with hers. It's an interesting sensation that Roxas fully intends to explore further. A rumble of thunder vibrates through his chest, further encouraging his rapidly rising heartbeat.
Then Kairi gives something of a sigh, a small sound Roxas can barely hear over the increasing thunder volume, after which she leans in and kisses him deeper. But when she moves to pull back, Roxas follows her and recaptures her lips. He keeps his hands on either side of her face, holding her there.
He holds here there because suddenly he needs her. Needs to feel her skin beneath his hands, needs to have her face close to his, needs to have another warm body there as a reassuring presence. Because now Roxas is not alone. Sure he has friends, but now he really has someone. Someone who worries about him, who doesn't want him to go, who cares about him like so many other women have cared about the men in their lives. It's an addicting thought that grips his heart and pours joy in his mind and shocks hope through his veins. Hope for better things. A better future than what his past threatened. A future with the girl he has quickly come to care deeply about in a world he has begun to appreciate.
Kairi brings her arms up and around Roxas's neck, pressing their bodies against one another. Roxas resettles his hands to her waist. But when she takes a sharp breath and re-angles herself closer, his hands go to her back, pulling her impossibly closer to him.
All fear must have left Roxas earlier for he no longer fears his inexperience. In the privacy the rain has created in the large garden getaway, the two take their first steps in exploring the other, mapping out the new sounds and sensations as their mouths move against one another.
An eternity passes in only a few minutes before naturally the young couple separates. Yet they hold one another close, foreheads pressed against one another with their labored breathing barely reaching the other's face. One of Kairi's hands strokes from Roxas's hair down his neck until it reaches his chest right overtop his heart.
"Please come back to me," she near whispers.
Roxas's heart flutters. "I'll never really leave you," Roxas places his hand over hers that lies above his heart, "like you won't leave me." Because she is in his heart. She has burrowed down deep and set herself there, never to disappear.
And Roxas cannot possibly be any happier about this fact.
Eventually, when the rain has soaked them through and they begin to shiver, the two make their way indoors. They don't bother to dry off before making their way through the sleeping castle. Hand-in-hand, they head upstairs. Upon reaching their respective bedrooms, they automatically gravitate towards one another.
It kills Roxas to stop kissing her, but he does when he feels a violent shiver go through her. She's cold. She needs to dry off. She should sleep. Roxas's caring boyfriend instincts kick in (though he hates them in this moment for being the reason she is leaving his presence).
"Roxas?"
"Hm?"
Roxas opens his eyes to see the look. That look that looks so good in the firelight. It looks equally as good coming from a rain-soaked Kairi. It sends a shiver down him for an entirely different reason than the chill of the rain.
"Can I ask you to do something?"
"Anything." (I'll give you all the worlds if you ask it of me, Roxas's heart shouts.)
"Don't jump onto my balcony tonight. It's slippery, and I don't want you to break." Kairi leans in close, her lips brushing his. "I rather like you intact."
Another shiver.
"Only if you give me my goodnight kiss now."
"Deal."
And she does.
The next day, despite having gotten so little sleep and having to rise early, Roxas finds himself fully alert and ready to tackle the challenge ahead. He had packed most of his things the day before, only needed his borrowed uniforms and a few personal items.
Before meeting up with General Corporeal, he manages a minute of time alone with Kairi. After giving her his usual flower to place in her hair, he kisses her like he'd been wanting to do all night. Both are blushing when they separate.
When Roxas leaves, Kairi's parting words to him still ring in his ears.
"I was right, Roxas. You look incredible in the right color uniform."
"Naminé!"
Kairi's exclamation resonates in the entry hall. Naminé watches her sprint at her, a whirlwind of color and joy.
"Hi, Kai—oof."
Kairi embraces Naminé, wrapping her up in a tight hug that nearly strangles the girl. When Kairi lets go, Naminé tries not to show how lacking in air she was.
"What are you doing here? I didn't know you were coming by. It's so good to see you!"
"You too," Naminé says. "Aqua's here too."
"Aqua's here too?"
Naminé nods. "She's chasing after Pluto. He got out—"
"Pluto here's?!" Kairi squeals excitedly. "Anyone else?"
"No, only us. Sorry."
"Sorry? What are you sorry for? I'm so happy you're here! Welcome back to Radiant Garden." Kairi opens the grand front door and sticks her head out. "Aqua! Pluto! Come on inside!"
At her call, the sound of Pluto's paws hitting the rock pathway can be heard. Soon enough, he can be seen rounding the small dividing wall with Aqua hot on his heels. Naminé smiles at the sight.
Pluto comes bounding up to Kairi and nearly tackles her. Kairi laughs as she accepts the dog's sloppy kisses and jumpy hugs. "Hiya, Pluto! Hi, boy! Hi, cutie! How are you? Did you miss me? I missed you!"
Pluto barks twice in response. Naminé knows that means he missed her.
"That dog has favorites," Aqua pants. She comes to lean against the doorway, but not for long because Kairi envelopes her in a hug much like she did Naminé.
"Hi Aqua! It's wonderful to see you!"
Aqua returns the hug. "It's good to see you too, Kairi."
When Kairi pulls away, she bounces twice where she stands, like she can't contain all her joy. "What brings you here?"
"Naminé wanted to see you," Aqua says.
Naminé colors at the statement. It feels like an accusation though she knows it's only a fact. Only she knows why she's really here.
"Any particular reason?" Kairi asks.
Naminé shrugs. "I...missed you." (She doesn't want to scare away that happy smile just yet.)
"Aw," Kairi coos. She gives Naminé another—tamer—hug. "I missed you too. And I'm glad you stopped by. It's been lonely."
"Lonely?" Aqua inquires. "Don't you have a castle full of people?"
"Not that many," Kairi corrects. "And Nona is the only one I'm really close with. No, since Roxas left, it's been quiet—"
"Roxas is gone?" Naminé says quickly. That's not good. Not for her reasons to be here. She needs him here. She needs to ask him...
Kairi brings her hands together in front of her stomach and fiddles with them. Naminé knows she's trying not to rub at her face. She does that when uneasy or confused.
"Not gone, gone. He's—here, do you want to come in and have some refreshments? It's kind of a long story."
The trio of ladies never gets to refreshments. As they make their way towards the kitchen, Kairi is approached by one of the volunteers with a mini-crisis which she apologetically tells her friends she needs to handle. The other girls, of course, allow her to do so. This little task turns into another, and another, until the rest of the day is spent following Kairi around. She insists they don't need to, but Naminé and Aqua insist after having gone so long without seeing their friend. So for the next few hours they are helping hands to Radiant Garden's princess.
Naminé discreetly watches her friend. When she's by Kairi's side and not running an errand or passing along a message, she watches the princess carefully. What she sees astonishes her.
Kairi has a smile on her face. A real smile. It is a vastly different smile than the one she plastered on the last time Naminé joined her in Radiant Garden. That was when everyone was here. The others weren't as attuned to her...ill demeanor. Naminé would see the smile fall when Kairi thought no one was looking. She would hear the sharp inhales whenever someone would approach her, fearful of the next issue. She would see the disappointment in those light-violet eyes when Sora or Riku wouldn't give her the response she wanted to a problem she had. This is why when the princess handles the small crisis brought to her today with calm conviction and a cool head, it's a majorly unexpected surprise. What's even more surprising is that Kairi continues this trend throughout the rest of the day.
Now there are no gasps of fear. No loss of a smile. No disappointment. What changed?
The trio eventually get to their refreshments, but by then it's suppertime. They meet Nona on the way there who had heard from young Teejay, the castle messenger and package carrier, they had arrived. Nona immediately ushers them into one of the sitting rooms. She orders supper to be brought there so the three can relax properly. After a good while of pleasantries with her regarding Naminé and Aqua's health, their lives currently, and the length of their visit here, Nona leaves the girls to their own time together.
"I forgot how welcoming she is," Naminé says as Nona closes the door.
"To most people." Kairi's grin holds a secret Naminé doesn't know. The princess pats Pluto who, after having finished exploring the castle on his own, has settled at her feet.
"Most?" Aqua asks. "Who doesn't she like?"
"Enemies, of course, but also, apparently, the boys I'm interested in."
Aqua laughs. In the split second before she inquires further, Naminé's whole body reacts. Her blood rushes through her system, making her mind work overtime.
"—boys I'm interested in." That's what Kairi had said. That obviously meant Sora in some way. Even the heartless could have sensed the connection between her and the brunette keyblade wielder early on. Nona had been brisk with him, Naminé knew. Not unfriendly, but short. Not much for small talk. Naminé and Kairi had giggled about it before, calling Nona a "doting mother", but Naminé thinks there's more to it.
Boys. Kairi had said boys. Plural. More than one.
Therein lies the key.
And if there's really more than one, then there is a good chance what Naminé had experienced had been real and not a dream.
So when the split second is over and Aqua asks, "Oh really? Like who?", Naminé is already certain of the answer.
"Like Sora, for one. You remember when you came here?"
Aqua thinks a moment then nods. "That's right. She wasn't too friendly with him was she?"
Kairi shakes her head and chuckles. "She brushed off every joke and every nice gesture he tried. It drove him nuts. It took him forever to let it go, that not everyone may like him."
"Did he know it was because you liked him that she didn't like him?"
"No. I think that's what really messed with his head. He couldn't figure out why he was the only one she didn't like. And I wasn't about to admit my feelings for him."
"Have you now? Admitted your feelings?" Aqua asks. "It's been a while since I've seen you. I wasn't sure if that's changed."
"It hasn't. They're still only friends," Naminé says. She turns to look Kairi straight in the eye. Kairi's smile gets an edge of uncertainty. Naminé decides to press the matter. "You said 'boys'. Has there been more than one, Kairi? Is there one now?"
It's a small expression change. Kairi's eyebrows wrinkle only slightly and her eyes have a tiny shift to them. She's picked up on Naminé's deeper question though she might not know what exactly it is. Naminé honestly hasn't been able to decide over the years if she likes the fact she and Kairi are so in tune with one another and can read each other easily. Often it's convenient, but there have been times when Naminé wished Kairi didn't know her so well. Naminé is sure Kairi has felt the same.
But what Naminé is implying now is entirely uncharted territory. The blonde plans on treading carefully.
(Maybe her inquiry wasn't as subtle as it should have been.)
Kairi breaks eye contact and looks down at her teacup which Nona brought for the girls not too long ago. "There's someone else, yes."
Shock crosses Aqua's face. This is news to her. She's still stuck with the image of Kairi and Sora being extremely close. She hasn't been around as often. She hasn't seen their disagreements, Kairi's discouragement, Sora's confusion.
"Really? Who is it?"
A gentle smile graces Kairi's lips. "Roxas."
"Roxas?" Aqua says with surprise. "Is this a new development? How long has this been coming?"
"He and I are together."
"You're already together?" Naminé asks. She can't suppress her own astonishment. What she had experienced hinted at growing affection, sure, but she had no idea Roxas might have returned the feelings. She hasn't gotten any images or emotions from him.
And then the whole story comes out. It takes a while. Girls being girls and who haven't seen each other in quite a while means the conversation is long and detailed. The story keeps coming until Nona sticks her head in again later that evening asking if the girls are tired yet.
By then the whole story has been told, and the girls are ready for bed. Each person's mind is full and their throats dry, Kairi's especially after answering every question. And there were a lot of questions.
Lying in her bed, staring at the wall, Naminé can't sleep.
Weeks. They've been together for weeks. Naminé suspects Aqua doesn't think much of the change. After all, a heart has every right to change affection from someone when not dating said person. However, Naminé can feel the full effect of this decision.
Kairi chose Roxas. Roxas chose her back. They're together. Sora is a past thought.
Naminé was in Kairi's heart. She experienced the full extent of that affection for Sora. This is why it had been such a surprise when Naminé had gotten that flash with the strong wave of affection directed at Roxas instead. She hadn't felt that since being in Kairi's heart when she felt it for Sora. Naminé herself hadn't experienced it after Kairi until Riku began courting her.
(The thought of her boyfriend makes Naminé's heart flutter with joy and sadness at the same time. It's been a while since she's seen him. The mission the King has him on is a demanding one.)
It wasn't a quick turnaround from Sora to Roxas. Kairi did say she had her eye on him since before the trip. She allowed her interest to grow romantic after finding out he wasn't with Xion. And Roxas...Naminé wishes she could talk to Roxas. She wanted to talk to Roxas first about this, ask if he had experienced any flashes, any half-experiences from Sora, like she has with Kairi. If he had, then it would make sense because they're a direct result of Kairi and Sora's hearts. Naminé wasn't planning on telling him what she experienced, though, not if Kairi hadn't told him.
But she had. And now with Roxas off on a secret mission for Radiant Garden for almost two weeks and counting, Naminé believes talking to Kairi first is her only option.
With this in mind, Naminé gets out of spare bed, carefully pulls a folded piece of paper out of her bag, and tip-toes over to where Kairi sleeps. The princess had insisted they all sleep in the same room together on the basis that she missed them too much to be apart for long.
(Naminé suspects her of loneliness.)
"Kairi." Naminé's voice is barely audible. Kairi does not stir. However, when Naminé places a hand on her shoulder, Kairi jerks. It's only a slight movement. Naminé recognizes it. Many of them suffer from this. Being awoken unexpectedly often meant danger years back. It sometimes still does.
"It's ok, Kairi. It's me. Naminé." Naminé raises her voice only slightly.
Kairi blinks into the darkness as her eyes adjust to the dark room. "Naminé? What's wrong?" Pluto, who has taken up half the bed with her, lifts his head upon hearing the worry in Kairi's voice.
"Nothing's wrong." Pluto lowers his head and immediately goes back to sleep. "Everything's fine. I..." Naminé glances back to see Aqua still sound asleep on the second spare bed dragged into this room. She beckons towards the balcony. Kairi nods and tiptoes into the cool outside air, but not before dragging one of her blankets off her bed.
Naminé closes the double doors behind them. Through the glass she's happy to see they still have not disturbed Aqua. Naminé sighs and sits down next to Kairi who leans back against the doors.
"So what's up?" Kairi asks. When Naminé settles down next to her, she puts the blanket over both their legs. "Are you ok?"
"Yes, I'm ok. I couldn't sleep."
"Something on your mind? Do you need to talk about it?"
Naminé loves Kairi. She's her best female friend. This bright girl of light. Always looking out for others.
(Sometimes Naminé wishes she was her.)
Naminé sighs. "There's—There's something I need to ask you, Kairi."
"Anything." Kairi runs her fingers over the blanket. "Is it something bad? You're acting like it's something bad."
"I...no, it's nothing bad. I was just—wondering how it's going here." Naminé mentally kicks herself for losing her nerve, but this could help break through some of those nerves and get to her real question. "This is the longest you've been here. Almost five weeks now you said. You seem happier."
Kairi crosses her arms and nestles as much as she can against the backdrop. "I am happy."
"That's rare for you here."
She tilts her head and gives something close to a "Huh" noise. "I admit it is, yes. But I really think I turned a corner. Things are more manageable now."
"Why? What changed?"
"A few things." Kairi shrugs. "I grew up. I feel more in control. I've been here enough times that I finally am getting the rhythm of this place and feeling more at home. I have a better support system. Lots of things."
"Support system," Naminé repeats. "Like Nona?"
Kairi nods. "Nona. And Roxas."
(Good, Naminé didn't have to be the one to bring up his name.)
"Sora and Riku weren't support enough? We weren't? I wasn't?"
Kairi nudges Naminé. "Don't think about it like that. You were great! All of you were. Having Roxas around is different than having another friend. It's...deeper."
"I thought you had that already."
Naminé doesn't have to say it. They both know who she's talking about.
"I did, at one point. Or something like it. But this is different."
"Different how?"
Kairi peers at Naminé, not angrily but more from exasperation. "So you woke me up just to gossip about Roxas. Well, two can play at that game. How's Riku? Is he still stealing those secret touches?"
Naminé's face splashes with red. She clasps her hands together and tucks them to her chest. A common nervous gesture she can never rid herself of. "He's—oh—we aren't talking about me."
"Now we are, and you basically confessed he still is."
Naminé's blush deepens, though she thought it impossible. She almost forgot she told Kairi about Riku's favorite way of showing affection. Despite his early bravado, Riku has become quite a reserved individual. Though he can still voice his deeper thoughts in front of others, his boisterous personality has settled. Things like affection he shows privately. With that fondness aimed at Naminé, he shows it by being subtle in public—small touches, secret looks, standing nearby. More of the like. In private, he tries to be as close as can be. He holds her hand, kisses her cheek, and sits next to her so close she's practically in his lap. Naminé finds all this endearing and eagerly reciprocates.
All that warmth aimed at her makes Naminé feel something akin to powerful. She would discuss such things with Kairi. The two girls would giggle and analyze and overall enjoy talking about something besides looming darkness. It was something that wasn't the weight of the worlds on their shoulders. It felt normal, something the group has been deprived of.
Kairi nudges Naminé again. "I love the two of you together. You're good for each other."
"You think so?" Though Naminé has had this answered before, she likes hearing it.
"Definitely. It's obvious to everyone. Oh! Oh hey! Guess what! Lea and Xion are together."
Naminé's head snaps up. "Is that—really?"
Kairi nods repeatedly. "Really! It happened when we were in Agrabah. Ok so—"
Naminé laughs and gapes as she is regaled with the details of the new relationship. By the end Naminé is shaking her head in disbelief. "I had wondered, but I didn't want to pry."
"I should have. I can't believe I thought she was dating Roxas."
"It made sense at the time."
"It did." Kairi shakes her head and rubs her arms. The night chill has not let up. "Maybe we should go to bed. It's not getting any warmer anytime soon."
This brings Naminé's mission back to the forefront of her mind. "Actually, can I...? There's something I actually did want to talk to you about."
Kairi tucks the blanket up to her chest. "I thought there was something."
Naminé looks down at the violet blanket with a finely stitched flower pattern. She focuses on the flowers momentarily before meeting her friend's eyes.
"A few weeks ago I experienced a flash. At least, that's what I'm calling it. It's similar to when I had powers and would see Sora's memories or when I was inside you and could experience things with you sometimes. It came and went like a flash. The flash was something I believe you were experiencing."
Kairi doesn't appear worried. Only interested. Naminé continues.
"The—The flash was of Roxas."
Now there's some surprise. "Roxas?"
"Mm-hmm. It was nothing I've experienced with him. It wasn't a memory. And you were the only one who was with him during the time it happened. I figured it had to have been you. Then when I heard the two of you are together, I knew it to be true."
"Why? What was the flash of?"
Naminé's gaze rises to the starry sky above. "He was smiling. It was a small smile, almost a little embarrassed. He looked happy, though. And his eyes...well. Here." Naminé unfolds the paper she's been holding and hands it over to Kairi. Kairi's eyes become glued to the drawing of Roxas, the one Naminé made when she had the flash, trying to commit the entire thing to memory.
"This is what I saw. It's...there was an emotion accompanying it."
"An emotion?"
Naminé tries making this an analytical thing. Something to study, but she can't fight the intimacy of the entire experience. "Admiration. No, affection. No, adoration. The kind that I feel towards Riku. The kind I felt from your heart while I was in it and you thought of Sora."
Kairi says nothing.
"It only lasted a moment. It happened when I was sleeping so I wasn't sure if it was a dream or—"
"It wasn't a dream," Kairi says.
"Are you sure?"
"He took lessons for me."
"Huh?"
Kairi finally glances up to Naminé. Her face has very little expression, but her eyes have a mix of unidentifiable sentiments. "It's a memory of mine. I remember this. It was back at the town celebration of Belle's village. We spent the whole time together. It had been a lot of fun, the most I've had in a long while. We had just finished dancing. It had been a slow dance and I didn't think he would...after it when I commented on his dancing, he said he had taken lessons from Lumiere and Cogsworth."
Kairi pinches the sides of the picture so hard the paper crinkles.
"This was the exact moment he told me and I felt—I felt a rush of emotion I never expected. He took lessons for me. We weren't even all that close. He took lessons before I came to him after my nightmare. He cared enough about me as a friend to do something as trivial and time-consuming as learning to dance. And the way he danced with me, that last song, it was what he was taught, but how he held me. He..."
Kairi gently presses the picture to her chest. "That's the moment I knew."
"Knew what?" Naminé asks reverently.
"I knew he was the one I really wanted. Not Sora. I had it in the back of my mind that maybe if Sora and I reconnected in the right time, we might work, but that thought had been so small and so painful. For so long it hurt to think about it because I'm tired of waiting, and being with Sora would mean more waiting. But the thought completely disappeared when Roxas told me about the lessons. It left without a fight. I was completely cleared of Sora and totally—" Kairi cuts herself off. She pulls the picture back to look at it. "Can I keep this?"
"Yes."
"Thank you."
Naminé's mouth pinches together. She has further questions but doesn't want to seem pushy. Her curiosity overpowers her trepidation. "Kairi, you know me. You know how much we've shared over the years. When I ask this question, know that I'm not judging you or trying to change your mind, but I'm—I'm honestly curious...what about Sora? I felt your feelings for him before. We've spent nights giggling over every little touch or smile he threw your way. I'm trying to figure out how—no, when it all changed. Because you and I both know he would have taken lessons for you. Why is he not the one?"
Kairi's face adopts a hard edge though her voice is soft. "I know he would have. Who Sora is, is not the problem. The problem is there isn't enough of Sora."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Everyone thinks the world of him. I do too, but everyone thinks this because he's met everyone. He's been everywhere. He will continue to be everywhere with everyone. I hardly have any time with him. I know that would hardly change if we were together. Roxas is here. He's becoming such a solid support system. He's not, like, attached to my side. He can have a life elsewhere if he wants. But he's here with me when it counts. He will be here for me. He said so.
"Not only that. It's not just that he's here. I feel connected to him in some way. I can't explain it. It—you were in my heart before. You felt the connection I had with Sora. This one's both different and stronger. No, I'm serious!" Kairi insists when she sees Naminé's skepticism. "Back when he became his own person, I felt this...my heart...grew? I don't know, it's hard to explain."
Kairi gives a small huff and crosses her arms. "I've outgrown Sora, Naminé. I'm not brushing aside what we did have or the connection we still have. It was something. It still is, but it's not it. Sora was my childhood crush like I was Riku's. I'm realizing that we aren't meant for each other sooner than he is realizing it. And he will someday. Roxas is who I want—who I need in the end. Roxas is fun too. I have just as much fun with him like I do with Sora. He's not the downer everybody keeps claiming he is. But it's not just for the fun. It's how he goes about the difficult things. He keeps the hardships close, studies and learns from them. I've been trying to use his method with my problems here, and it's been working which is practically a miracle. Roxas has been such a lifesaver with helping to guide me through this transition into acting like royalty. And in such a short time! He's accomplishing more in a couple months than Sora and Riku have combined in two years! What does that say?"
Kairi pauses like she expects an actual answer. Naminé has no answer. She only shrugs. Kairi sighs and slumps a little further downward.
A moment of silence settles around the two best friends until, again, Naminé feels the need to break it.
"It makes sense," she murmurs.
"What does?" Kairi asks when the former witch doesn't elaborate.
"The flash I had. It was a turning point for you. It was a moment so significant it rang through your heart and overflowed into mine. That's why I felt it."
This brings a ghost of a smile to Kairi's face. "You think Roxas had something like that, or do you think it was a gradual thing?"
"I don't know. You'd have to ask him." Naminé tucks the blanket around her legs restlessly because of the next thought she voices. "If he did, then there is a chance Sora experienced it."
"You think so?"
"But...But there is a chance he might have mistaken it as a memory."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, he still has feelings for you. He might have experienced it in passing and thought it was his heart bringing up a strong memory of you."
Kairi's tiny smile disappears.
"What—What are your plans for telling him the news?" Naminé asks.
Kairi covers her face with both her hands and lets out a long groan. "I don't know. I've tried not thinking about it." She uncovers her face. "It's not like I won't. I'll tell him. I'm glad I'm with Roxas, but it could be something really easy or really problematic. Sometimes there's no telling Sora's reaction."
Naminé can understand that what with the past history of Sora's unexpected behavior.
"Can you not tell him?" Kairi asks her friend. "If you get to talk to him before me, can you wait for me to tell him in person? It needs to come from me."
That's an easy promise to make. "Of course. It's between the two of you."
"Can I be the one to tell Riku too?" Kairi sits up and holds out her hands in a pleading gesture. "I know I'm asking a lot. I'm not asking you to lie. I'm asking you to keep it to yourself until I can tell him in person too. We didn't leave on the best terms. Did he tell you that?"
Naminé shakes her head. "No, I haven't gotten the chance to talk to him in a while."
(Naminé fights off the tiny voice in the back of her mind that listened to Kairi's reasoning about Sora not being there as one of the reasons they're not together. That's different for her and Riku. It hasn't bothered her too much, though she does miss him. How can she not when she cares about him so?)
"We bickered. Squabbled. Argued. Whatever. We got mad at each other and snapped when he came to repair the ship in Wonderland. He said some things about me not being responsible and waiting for him and brought up Sora and bashed Roxas. We're ok, but we aren't back on laughing-joking terms. You know?"
"Mm-hmm." Naminé does know Riku's quick attitude though she's never been on the receiving end of it. (Riku's always been quite attentive to her since the chaos passed.) "I won't tell. It will be our secret for a while. And hey, if he doesn't ask, then I don't have to say anything."
"Thank you. I'll ask the same thing of Aqua, but her slipping it to Terra isn't a big deal. Now if she told Ventus then we'd have a problem."
Naminé can't help but laugh. "You're right there. Poor Ven can't keep his mouth shut even if it meant saving all the worlds. Not when it's this good of a secret."
The girls chuckle at the shared joke. This time when there is a pause, it isn't filled with oppressive silence but rather comfortable quiet.
"Actually," Kairi says like she's just realized something, "I'll show you proof of why I know Roxas is the one."
"Proof? You have proof?"
"Come on." Kairi opens the door and doesn't even try to be quiet. In fact, she does the opposite. "Aqua. Wake up please."
It isn't a loud request, but it is enough for the battle-hardened woman to awaken. Anything can wake the paranoid. (Naminé always felt bad for her after her prolonged time in the darkness. It was a harrowing experience Aqua still feels the repercussions of.)
(They all have unseen scars of which they feel the residual pain. Naminé continues to fight against flinching when someone raises their hand to high-five her. The fear of being struck simmers beneath her composed demeanor.)
"Uhn? Danger? You two ok?" Aqua asks. She sits up and quickly rubs at her eyes.
"It's ok. No danger. I just wanted to show Naminé something, and I think it'd be cool if you saw it too."
"Ok," Aqua says, still not fully comprehending. She moves over to Kairi's bed which Naminé has settled onto, and the two watch the princess dig through the third drawer down on the right side of her dresser. She pulls out a piece of paper from among her clothes. It's been folded several times and there's a stain of something on its corner, yet Kairi holds it like it's something precious. She joins her friends on the bed.
"I didn't tell you guys about it before because it's kind of my personal...my personal reminder. A precious thing to me. But this is how I know."
"How you know what?" Aqua asks.
Kairi looks at her with eyes full of certainty. "How I know Roxas is the right choice."
The paper is gently unfolded over and over until the writing inside is revealed.
Two simple words: Still here.
Aqua and Naminé take in the message.
"I don't understand," Aqua says.
"He's still at the north post?" Naminé guesses.
Kairi shakes her head. "No. Still here. He's still with me. He knows that people leaving me is one of my fears. He tried assuring me before leaving for the mission that he wasn't leaving me. Not like Sora does. He risked discovery in order to slip this into the paperwork with General Corporeal and get it to me. He's still here with me. He won't leave me. He's reassuring me. Get it?"
Naminé gets it. That scrap of paper with two words scribbled on it make her finally see. Finally fully understand. It's Roxas. Kairi is with Roxas. Kairi will remain with Roxas because Roxas also wants to be with Kairi and will work to keep it. The proof is staring up at her in his own writing.
In those quiet moment before inevitably going back to bed, Naminé reflects on the relief she feels. Her worries about the flash are unfounded. Kairi is ok. Roxas is ok. They're ok together.
She can sleep now.
Aqua likes it in Radiant Garden. It reminds her of her previous home. A place of greenery and good will. She liked it when she first came here and met Kairi when she barely came up to Aqua's knees. Thought Radiant Garden is somewhat tied to bad memories, the Keyblade Master can tell it's doing its best to try and get past it all. Just like its princess who seems to be trying to pull it out of the muck by her willpower and stubbornness alone.
A fascinating thing to watch, Kairi attempting to be a true leader. She certainly has grown, and not just from the tiny girl who gave her a flower crown. She's grown from the last time Aqua watched her here. The poor thing appeared overwhelmed though she handled it like a champ. Mostly. That little midnight trip had been unwise, especially considering nobody knows where she went that night, but no harm came of it. (Sora shouldn't have taken not being told so personally.)
Aqua begins the trek back to the castle from her post on the outer walls. She had taken one of the guard shifts because of a shortage they had that day. Kairi didn't seem too worried, though, claiming things have been going well and that Roxas is taking care of the problem on the North Post for sure. She had said it with such conviction that Aqua felt compelled to believe her.
Honestly, the idea of Roxas and Kairi together does not strike Aqua as either here nor there. It's what is, what's happening. Naminé seemed stressed upon hearing the news. She shouldn't be, in Aqua's humble opinion. She suspects Naminé's problem is from the past. Aqua has done her absolute best at trying to move on. She, Terra, and Ven have dark memories. Dwelling on them has only proven painful. Naminé might be dwelling on such things, remembering things of the past that keep her from accepting change. Kairi appears genuinely happy at this change and after last night's discussion, maybe Naminé will be more on board with it as well.
Once near the castle, she finds Kairi near the back garden. She currently chats with the head groundskeeper about the ever expanding flower beds. When the princess sees her friend, she waves and excuses herself from the conversation.
"Thanks again for helping out, Aqua," Kairi says. "I didn't mean for this to be work for you and Naminé."
"It's not a problem," Aqua says truthfully. "It's not technically a vacation, and I don't mind helping out. I'd feel strange if there was nothing for me to do anyway."
Kairi chuckles. "That I understand."
"Where's Naminé?"
"Nona recruited her for some of the castle work. I'm not sure what exactly. Probably in decorating. Nona knows Naminé is an artist which means she will utilize that artist eye."
"Makes sense."
Kairi and Aqua make their way into the garden. It's a nice day, and Aqua doesn't mind spending time in the floral area.
"How are Ven and Terra doing? I didn't get a chance to ask yesterday."
Aqua smiles at the mention of her closest companions. "They're doing well. Actually, the King messaged them just before I left to be a part of the mission the others are on. Apparently it's becoming a fruitless search."
Aqua sees Kairi perk up at the mention of the secret mission. "Oh yeah? Did they tell you anything else?"
Aqua shakes her head. "No. I'm to be informed of what we're looking for after I return from this trip. It's a need-to-know assignment for safety's sake, the King said."
Kairi rolls her eyes. "Honestly, if I hear one more thing about my safety I'm going to lose it. Aren't you annoyed you don't know anything?"
Aqua shrugs. "Somewhat, but if it's important enough that the King won't say anything to his most loyal soldiers, then I trust it's something not to mess around with. It's probably why he wouldn't let you go on your mission alone though there was no danger to it."
Kairi fights a sigh. "Yes, probably. It still isn't all that fun being excluded."
"Well, once Roxas comes back, I'm sure the King would like the two of you to help out."
"That'd be nice." Kairi glances around her briefly before leaning in to whisper her next words. "Truth be told, although things have been going well here, I'd like another break. Even school would be a welcomed change."
"You're in luck. It's only a couple weeks away. Then everyone will be together again."
"If the secret mission is over."
"Oh, I'm sure it will be. I have faith in—"
"Kairi!"
Kairi and Aqua turn towards the sound of Naminé's voice. They walk out of the garden and find the blonde walking in their direction. When she sees her friends, Naminé jogs over to them.
"Kairi, Nona wants to see you. She says it's something about the North Post."
The effect on Kairi is immediate. In her bare feet and lavender dress, Kairi sprints into the castle. Naminé and Aqua chase after her, Naminé trying to tell her where Nona is since Kairi went forward without that information.
Kairi finds Nona at the doors to entry hall. Aqua and Naminé are hot on her heels. Nona takes Kairi's hands when the princess reaches her. "Easy, darling. Take a few deep breaths. Everything is well."
Kairi forces herself to calm down. "You have word from them? Did they say about when they're coming back? How are things going?"
Nona pats Kairi's cheek. "They're doing well. Actually, I think you should hear from the messenger himself on their progress."
Nona turns and opens the doors. The four people on the other side of the door are all in uniform. They look up when the doors open. Aqua at first doesn't recognize any of them because of the uniforms, but then she glances at their faces and recognizes one of them instantly.
So does Kairi who rushes to leap into Roxas's awaiting arms.
"Roxas!"
"Hi, Kairi! Miss me?"
Roxas is laughing as he catches Kairi and twirls her around. Aqua watches their happy exchange with an analytical mind but pleasure as well upon seeing the two reunited. Kairi's face-splitting smile, Roxas's happy relief. Yes, their relationship has changed drastically since Aqua last saw the two. (Aqua tries remembering when the last she saw that much emotion on Roxas's face or Kairi giving that much joy when greeting someone.)
The other three gentlemen watch the exchange. Aqua notes the oldest man's face who looks at the duo with content acceptance. He seems familiar. Perhaps Aqua met him on a previous trip. The next gentleman is holding the last one by the arm who has his arms cuffed behind his back. The man not cuffed stares at the display with bewildered amusement while the prisoner scoffs in disgust.
Aqua glances at Naminé who looks surprised at the closeness of her two friends, but not as against the idea as she appeared to be before. (Good. Maybe she's coming around.)
"Are you here to stay?" Aqua looks up when she hears Kairi ask this. "Is the mission over?"
"Missions over. I'm back," Roxas says. He gestures to the prisoner. "We found the culprit."
Kairi looks at the other three as if noticing them for the first time. She goes to give General Corporeal a hug. "Good to see you, General."
The General pats Kairi on her back twice, then she pulls away. "It's always an honor, your highness."
Kairi glances over to the other two present. She moves to the man holding the prisoner. He's a youngish gentleman. One who looks like he's had experience in combat but hasn't been around long enough to use it. (Like all her friends, Aqua thinks bitterly. She represses the thought.)
The man salutes Kairi who giggles. Roxas (who has not let Kairi get more than two feet away from him) comes to stand next to her. "Hello. Welcome! I'm sorry, but I'm unsure of your name."
"Officer Kofi at your service, your highness." The man seems a little unnerved at being addressed directly by the princess.
"Kairi, this is Kofi," Roxas says. "He's one of the guys who helped us catch Lieutenant Jox."
"It's a pleasure to meet you." Kairi then turns to the prisoner. She lifts her eyebrows in sarcastic surprise. "Hello Lieutenant. What's this I hear about you harming my kingdom?"
Roxas takes Kairi's hand. She looks to him, and her face softens. "It's a long story. How about we sit down? I'm sure locking Lieutenant in the old dungeons here would be a good storage place for him for now."
Kairi jumps up and claps her hands. "Oh! I haven't gotten to throw anyone in the dungeon yet." Her eyes go icy when she smiles at the Lieutenant. "I believe you're a good first candidate."
Roxas laughs. That's when he moves to walk further into the castle and finds Naminé and Aqua staring at him. The young man freezes. "Uh...hi."
"Hi," Naminé says and accompanies her quiet voice with a small voice.
"Hello, Roxas," Aqua says. She can feel the sly smile on her face. (This will be interesting.)
Kairi nudges the frozen Roxas. "It's ok. They know."
Roxas look at her. "They do? And...?"
"Everything's good."
Roxas's relieved smile warms Aqua's heart. "Good," he says. "Then I can do this." He leans down and gives Kairi a quick, modest kiss then leans in close to her ear and says something that makes her laugh. Roxas then turns back to the man named Kofi. "I told you she and I were together." Roxas looks back at Kairi. "He didn't believe me."
"Oh we are," Kairi assures Kofi. "You go ahead and tell anyone else who doesn't believe him."
Kofi chuckles. "That is the majority of our sector, your highness."
"Hm. We're going to have to change that." Kairi squeezes Roxas's hand and begins pulling him inside. "Well, let's not stand around out here. I want the full story!"
It's a fascinating story.
After Lieutenant Jox is deposited into the jail below them and four guards are posted at his cell, the others, including Naminé, Aqua, and Nona despite not being a part of this, sit in the dining hall, and the whole story comes to light.
It turns out Lieutenant Jox was behind it all. He was the one who sabotaged the Claymore and lured the heartless into the area. His plan was simple: create a dire situation in which he can fight a glorious battle and come out the hero, the hero who shall then inherit the aging General Corporeal's title.
Roxas's plan of planting a newby inside was just what they needed. It turns out there were subtle things the guards knew about the Lieutenant's behavior that were odd but did not put them together because they were unaware of the entire situation unlike Roxas. Roxas relayed all details to the General who requested Roxas dig deeper.
This is where Officer Kofi comes in. He was one of the guards who didn't brush Roxas off as the newby. He took him under his wing and helped him get a feel for the place. Kofi helped Roxas get around and give him clearance once in a while when it wasn't normally allowed for newcomers (though Roxas did come up with a lie in order to get said clearance).
Roxas was thoroughly impressed by this gentleman, whom he praises to Kairi as having a level head and a good sense of people.
"I think he'd be a great replacement for Lieutenant Jox," Roxas says. "He has all the qualifications as him, but he has the integrity Jox doesn't."
"You're absolutely sure?" Kairi asks him.
"Completely."
Kairi nods with finality. This is enough for her. "Then if you are willing, Officer Kofi, I'd like to offer you a promotion and request you fill the Lieutenant's position as leader at the North Post."
Kofi is again surprised and again he looks uncertainly at Roxas who only smirks and says, "I told you she'd go for it."
Kofi shakes his head in disbelief. "I should not have doubted you. Your highness, it would be an honor. I accept."
Aqua suspects Roxas has boasted about his relationship with the princess to Officer Kofi. It would annoy her if it appeared to annoy Kairi, but the princess seems to enjoy the implications of their words.
Aqua nudges Naminé who seems to have relaxed greatly. She smiles at Aqua before looking back to her two old friends.
Yes, they will have plenty of good things to report to King Mickey even with keeping Kairi and Roxas's relationship a secret. Life is going well for them, and Aqua hopes with all her heart it stays that way.
Roxas inhales the musky scent of the dungeon and feels immense happiness. He went on his first (and probably not only) mission for Radiant Garden and things went fantastic! Everything turned out ok. Nobody got hurt, no major damage was done, the bad guy was caught. and Roxas came out of this having done a good job.
And he comes back to find Kairi ecstatic to see him. The tiny voice in the back of his mind that worried she changed her mind during their time apart was crushed the second she jumped into his arms. He can't wait until they have some solid time alone together. He has a lot to tell her, and she had said there is plenty to tell him as well. She had mentioned that Naminé had something to do with it, but it's not bad.
If Roxas is honest, though, he's looking forward to just having her close, kissing her, being with her. He's felt touch-deprived these past two weeks. After being exposed to affection like this, he's realized he's an addict. He does not want to go back to being without it.
It's now late into the evening and everyone has dispersed for the night. He got to tell Kairi a few details in the few brief moments they've been alone since he came back, like the fact that she smells infinitely better than a bunch of guys bunking together, and she got to tell him Aqua and Naminé's pleased reaction to their relationship. (He's glad they're not telling anyone yet. Roxas agrees, telling the others in person would be the best route to take.)
Roxas waves at the guards who nod to him as he heads towards Lieutenant Jox's cell. The man isn't terribly pleasant. He oozes fake contentment in all he says and does. Roxas had originally suspected him of just being a cynical man, but it turned out to be much more. A greedy, bitter man who wanted to force this world's respect rather than earn it. Roxas is glad someone as toxic as this is out of the guard system. The only reason he's down here now is because he offered to bring the Lieutenant his meal tonight.
"Go ahead and take two minutes to rest," Roxas tells the two guards standing on either side of the cell. "I've got to give this guy his meal. No use having all of us here."
The guards give their thanks and exit, leaving Roxas and Jox alone with the bars separating them. The Lieutenant is slumped against the far wall. Though he is facing Roxas, he keeps his head bowed, shading his eyes. (Roxas internally scoffs. The guy's too ashamed to even make eye contact.)
"Kairi is feeding you far better food than you deserve," Roxas informs the man as he pushes the tray through the opening on the floor. It's a well-balanced meal that includes dessert. Jox remains where he is without even acknowledging the offering. "What? Not hungry? Shame. But I guess I can understand, what with all your plans crashing down around you. I'd lose my appetite too."
"I wouldn't be so cocky if I were you," Lieutenant Jox finally says.
"Oh?" Roxas shifts so he is seated in front of the cell. "I just took down your whole operation. I'd say I've earned a little cockiness."
"Yours will come down just as mine has."
This time Roxas scoffs out loud. "I've got a plan? If you'd let me know what it is, that'd be great because I'm certainly the last to know."
The prisoner shakes his head yet still keeps it bowed. "I've heard of you, keyblade wielder. I heard of your first trip here."
"Is that so?" Roxas feels a twinge of wariness upon hearing the edge in the Lieutenant's voice.
"I heard of your puppy-like following of the others that shine brighter than you. I heard of you doing so with the General. You must have found it, your way in."
Roxas's eyes narrow. "You know, you're starting to get on my nerves."
"Securing the princess's heart wasn't enough. She could drop you at any time. You chose to secure the next best route—taking over the militia."
"That's not even remotely true," Roxas says firmly.
"You are going to get the position I wanted. You know the militia is the only thing keeping this place safe alongside the presence of its princess. You want a place of your own."
"You're being ridi—"
"Be honest with yourself, keyblade wielder!" the Lieutenant near shouts. It echoes in the dark halls that have only gotten darker as the night settles in. "You don't have a home. You want to make one. She has one to offer. You're securing it whether or not you admit it to yourself."
No! You're wrong. I care for Kairi. Her home is only a bonus. These are the immediate thoughts that come to Roxas's mind which he has every intent of saying, but he's curiosity at how the Lieutenant knows he is without a home wins over. (Is it that obvious he's so out of place everywhere he goes?)
"...how—?"
Lieutenant Jox chuckles. "Because you know, deep down, you aren't what she wants."
Roxas's heart stops. An icy feeling trickles up his spine, like the cold from the floor is seeping into him. It's amazing, really, how fast one can go from flying in the clouds to hurtling towards the hard ground of reality.
"You aren't the boy I saw her with. What was his name? The one with a heart strikingly similar to yours. She can't have him so she will settle for the knock-off. The one with nowhere to go. She has to settle. It's her only option if she wants anything close to the original."
Roxas slams his hand against the cell bars. "This—This is—who are you to be judging me and Kairi?" He gets to his feet. "You have no idea who we are to each other. You're the idiot that tried undermining the General and seizing power. What do you know?"
The prisoner chuckles. His lowered head bobbles. "I've struck a nerve. It means I'm right."
"That's it, I'm done with you." Roxas hits the bars once more for emphasis before stomping towards the exit.
"Think about it, Roxas," the man's haunting voice echoes. "If I'm right, our dear princess might not even know she's settling."
It's small. Light. The spoken words settle into the very back of Roxas's mind in the spot just above his neck, like a leaf falling gently to the ground. It's like a scratch. Something that all the itching in the world won't get rid of. Roxas already dreads the sleepless night he is sure to have tonight because this one stupid phrase makes complete sense to his deepest fears. It feeds them, coaxes them out, and Roxas feels powerless against the released onslaught.
Roxas's steps are much slower as he exits the dungeon. His heart feels heavy and his mind full. It makes every step closer to Kairi painful.
When the guards arrive back at their posts, they shrug at one another when they hear the prisoner laughing to himself. The laughter increases in volume slowly, steadily. The guards ignore it and keep their backs to him.
This is unfortunate. If they had turned, they would have seen the prisoner raise his head. They would have seen him open his eyes. They would have seen the yellow irises filled with victory.
A/N: 28,700 WORDS, PEOPLE. NEW RECORD. LET'S CELEBRATE! (I'm so tired, my eyes hurt from staring at my computer screen.)
Let's just say I dragged my feet with publishing this one because I was a little nervous on the content and uncertain on what all I was leading up to. It's set up, character exploration, and not much by way of action. That'll be the next chapter. I hope the OCs weren't too intrusive and flowed with the story.
Literally, my mind was screeching as I wrote the last big chunk of this thing saying ALMOST DONE. Guess what I did to get myself to finish this? I REREAD ALL OF YOUR AMAZING/WONDERFUL/ENCOURAGING REVIEWS! I literally wrote the last chunk of this chapter thinking "This is for all those reviewers!"
P.S. Please point out any editing/continuity errors and I shall fix them. I would have read through it a third time, but I didn't want to put off publishing this any longer!
