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Chp. 5
Don't

I can't possibly count all the times I've blamed myself. Since childhood my only memories are of hurting others. Except one. The only one thing remains that I wish could have lasted forever. The only thing I almost didn't completely screw up on until now. Why couldn't it have stayed the way it was. Why did it have to go this far? Why did I have to go this far?

Kyo took in a long breath of fresh air. The run had been worth it, it had given him the chance to clear his head. He opened the door to Shishou's house and kicked off his shoes.

"Shishou! I'm staying here for the next week! Are you here?" Kyo walked through the dojo and into the living area of the building. Glancing into the kitchen he found only a pot of noodles on the stove. Of course they had been sitting there for awhile and a puff of grey smoke was spewing over the edge. A thich sent of burnt food came in contact with Kyo's nose. "Jeez! You ought to learn how to cook eventually!"

He raced over to the stove and turned the switch off. Grabbing the pot by the handle he dumped the noodles down the sink drain and ran some water into the pot to hopefully fix the damage. Once again he looked around the room and headed over to Shishou's office. Tapping on the door he then pulled it open.

Inside no one was there. "I know that he can't cook but god! He would never just leave the stove on!"

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Yuki found his way to the office and leaned over the front desk. "Excuse me. I was called down to the office?"

The women at the desk looked up. She smiled and nodded her head. "Yes, you're Sohma? There's a call waiting for you. The phone's over there." Gesturing over to the side, Yuki walked over. Picking up the phone he quickly questioned the person on the other line.

"Hello? This is Yuki."

"Ah, Yuki!" The familiar voice of Shigure said. "I'm going to have to ask you a favor."

"Does it have to be now? All day I've been trying to get work done and I've had no success. What is the favor that's so important?"

Shigure paused a moment. "Well I'm going to be home late. I was hoping you could try to go home earlier today. By the way Kyo's been acting to Tohru I doubt that he's even at the house. It scares me that our poor flower is home alone." He gave a slight teasing whine.

"That's it? You call me to go home early? I know that Kyo's been acting like more of an idiot than usual but Shigure, we can completely trust Tohru to be alone. Even if Kyo is there."

"I'm not worried about the fact that she's alone. I'm worried of what she may do because she's alone." The tone in his voice got lower, as though he was truly scared for Tohru. "Yuki, Tohru's going though a tough time."

Yuki gave a sigh and switched the phone into his other hand. "Fine. I'll find a way to get home earlier than normal. I'm not sure what you mean by any of that but if it's what you want. This better not be any prank between you and that moron of a brother I have."

Yuki hung up the phone. Why must he do this? Where the heck does he go anyways that he's never around? He's never told us once where he goes when we're at school. Yuki then lowered his head a bit. He turned towards the women at the desk and thanked her for helping him.

The hallway was empty and as Yuki walked down it he felt a bit of emptiness himself. How could three years possibly go by this fast?

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Panting as she ran, Tohru managed to make it half way before falling to her knees. I'm not giving up mom. I'm going to make it. She rested for just a few brief moments and then stood herself up again. Not quite sure where she was going, she ran down the only familiar path she knew.

The sky was beginning to get dark. Being in the woods in the dark had always given a fright. Whether it was because of her previous experiences or the fact that it was just spooking, she knew she'd have to get to where ever she was going fast.

Almost a few feet from where she had stopped she began to hear voices.

"Tohru?" Hana turned towards Tohru from one of the other paths that led to where Tohru was running. "Why are you out running at this time? Fitness tests have been over to a year now."

Next to Hana was a tall man with silver hair. "Hana! Oh, and you're here with… Kazuma? H-How? W-Where? Wh-What?" Tohru was completely confused by what she was seeing. Why would Hana be walking with Kazuma?

"Hello Tohru, it's been awhile hasn't it? I went out shopping for groceries when I ran into Hana. She insisted on cooking me dinner when she found be solid stiff trying to figure out where the ingredients to preparing a meal where." He gave a chuckle.

"Yes, he's not very good with that kind of thing." Hana looked up at him.

Tohru was still kind of amazed by who she had just run into. Oh, now I remember! Hana had mentioned she really liked Kazuma after our play! Oh Hana… Tohru blushed and quickly turned away. "Kazuma, did you happen to see Kyo? Or do you think I could come over. I mean I don't want to be a burden but… you see I-I."

"It's no problem. Hana brought enough food to feed the whole family."

"I was scared he may starve."

Tohru smiled and gave a slight bow to Kazuma. "Thank you!"

They continued making their way up the path. A little nervous at her current situation, Tohru tried to remain a few feet behind the two in front of her. This was a bit awkward for her.

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Back at the house Kyo had decided to make himself some food. He turned to the cabinets and searched in every corner he could find. "Dammit! I forgot how Shishou never has any food. I got so used to Tohru cooking everyday. It became natural." He slapped his forehead and walked over to the next room. Lying himself down on the couch he decided to take a nap.

By the time Kyo had fallen fast asleep, the trio from outside had finally made it back. "I thank you two very much for offering to cook. I can't wait to have some more of you two girls' delicious cooking. I can remember the last time I had a meal from Tohru, it was splendid!"

"It will be no problem. Now please allow me to go use you're cooking area." Without even asking for any assistance, Hana made her way straight to the kitchen. Tohru followed behind her carrying a small back of groceries.

Kazuma looked at the floor below to take off his shoes when he found another pair of shoes. Kyo's here. I wonder why he's come?

Making his way to his office he stumbled across an open door. Peering inside he found the sleeping body of Kyo curled up on the couch. I should probably let him sleep. Some things are better to put off until later. He closed the door. I better let the girls know we'll need another plate.

Hana turned to Tohru who had followed behind her the whole time. She pulled out the salmon she had purchased at the store and took out a cutting plate.

Tohru stared aimlessly at the wall. Hana could sense that Tohru wasn't feeling too well. "Tohru, is something wrong with the wall?"

She looked up from her gaze. "O-Oh! I'm sorry! I was just remembering when I has here last with Kyo. He told me about the stain on the wall. I kind of wish he'd be here right now."

"Tohru, Kyo's electrical signals are very strong. I believe he's actually here right now."

Tohru's head perked up. Her eyes widened and a glow became apparent around her face. "Really!" She rushed over to Hana when she tripped on her other foot.

"Whoops! Don't want to fall in here!" Kazuma caught Tohru a second after she had tripped and helped her back up onto both feet. "I came back to tell you that Kyo's here."

"I knew." Hana attempted to sound anything other than unemotional, but found it hard to change her voice to a friendlier manner. Instead she gave a slight smile.

Kazuma stood there a moment and decided not to ask.

Tohru sprang to her feet and began bowing rapidly. "Thank you so much! I'm so sorry! I'll try my hardest not to fall again, but you know clumsy me!" She whacked her head and began to giggle.

Kazuma laughed. "Yes, try your hardest not to. It's okay sometimes though. You can't help an accident. But I also came to tell you that Kyo's sleeping. Try your hardest not to wake him alright. They both nodded.

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Darkness had swiftly taken away the day light as Yuki raced to the house. Shigure better not be pulling anything. With he hand already reaching out to open the door he grabbed the knob and ran in. "Tohru! I'm home!"

There was no response. Yuki scratched his head and walked into the kitchen. Then he made his way over to the living room and soon into Tohru's room. What was Shigure talking about? She's not even home! Suddenly it dawned upon him. She's not home. This is what he meant by being scared she was alone. She's gone out searching for that stupid cat.

Grabbing a flash light he decided to go over to the main house. It couldn't hurt to see if maybe she had tried going over there for some support from the other Sohma's. Or maybe she was even trying to find out more about the curse. What ever it was, Yuki knew that Shigure probably didn't want her over there. The fact that he was worried about he leaving gave him enough information to know that Shigure didn't want her knowing some sort of knowledge.

Arriving at the gate, Yuki made his way in and headed towards the main building inside. When he opened the door no one seemed to be there either. Where could they possibly be? Is everyone hiding today!

Giving up on the idea of running around trying to find Tohru himself, he headed over to the one place he knew well. To Haru's room. Knowing Haru, he'd probably know something, and if he didn't, he'd know someone who did.

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Kyo rolled over the couch. Just as he did so he found himself on the floor. Ouch! What the hell? What am I doing here? He sat up and glanced around the room. Now I remember. I'm here to stay with Shishou for awhile. I guess I fell asleep.

He took in a breath and instantly froze. I smell food and not burnt food either. It smells good. Fuck! Did she find me here? He jumped to his feet and slid through the door and down the hallway as quietly as he could.

From the kitchen Kazuma, Tohru and Hana were holding a conversation. "Thank you girls! This food is even better than lasts'. I'll have to wrap some up for Kyo so he can have some when he awakes."

"Oh. I was hoping of giving it to him after we finished." She lowered her head in a blush. "It's kind of silly but I wanted to just see him there for awhile. It's been awhile since I've gotten a good look at him him for more than a couple of seconds."

Kazuma nodded him head and smiled. "Yes, Kyo can be a little hard to keep track of when he's hiding." Tohru wasn't quiet sure what he ment by that but began to eat faster in hope of seeing Kyo before he awoke.

Tohru! You're making things so hard for me at the moment! Panicking Kyo made his way back to the room. Why am I doing this? I could easily just slip out the window right now. A pain came to him chest. No I need to stay here. Maybe if I just grab a blanket and put it over my head she'll just be happy that I'm there.

He tried to come up with a plan but he could tell she would be there at any second. Unsure of what to do, he collapsed onto the couch and remained motionless.

As long as I'm here she's happy. As long as I'm here and she's happy, I can't live with the fact that I will have to someday go…

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Here I am again. Writing in the middle of the night. Oh well, it's not like I actually sleep owo; Hope you enjoy this one. I wasn't too sure about the last one but I got a lot of positive reviews! Keep up the reading. I'm so happy that I have fans

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