ok, to clear things up , yes this is a naruto sakura fanfic, if it wasent, would it be in that catagory? nope. and also, im realyl sorry foe any spellign or gramer mistakes. i do have spell check, but it doesnt change itto the one i always want , like if there was week and weak, it doent change it.so im really sorry. i'm trying my best.. well..on with the story.
no i do not own naruto , but as i said in the last chapter, and willbe saying for the rest,if i did... he'd be black and blue.
laughes
naruto: runs
me: when i''m done with you , you wont want to run away! runs after him
any wasy
ON WITH THE STORY!
-Live a life of no regrets
Chapter 3
Its had now been 4 and a half years since I told Naruto I liked him. We got past the whole thing, we talked about it, and now every thing's ok. I still like him, well… actually … I don't …. the like has grown into a love. And a 1 sided love at that, but, as long as I can be his friend . I'm ok with that. As long as I can be around him. Sure I get jealous when I see him and Hinata holding hands , or kissing , or hugging, or just plain laughing together , but I cant just turn off my feelings. I wish I could though , things would be so much easer. But I'm also glad that were friends, cause when my mom died 2 years prior, he was there for me , he gave me a shoulder to cry on. It had been hard. And I thank Kami every day that he was there for me. I remember, a few days after the funeral, he cam over to my house with a bunch of flowers and a movie and we just watched it together. I love the moments when its just me and him. I feel as though I can tell him any thing.
To day was Naruto's 19th birthday. Hinata decided to throw it at the bar in town ( ok in this fanfic, its legal to drink at the age of 18... Lol) every one was having a great time.
" hey Sakura .. What do you want to drink ?" Kiba asked me when he got up to get something for him self
" I'll just have a coke.." I said and smiled
" … just a coke… ?"
" yeah .."
" but your at a party …cant you live a little"
"yeha but I don't want to, tonight …"
" you suck " Kiba said. I stuck my toung out at him and he smiled as he went to the bar and ordered the 2 drinks.
I looked around at every one that was there and my eyes landed on Naruto and I smiled. Hinata was standing beside him holding his hand as they were talking. He looked so happy. And so did Hinata. I knew she loved him and he loved her. But , some times when I looked at them, it just didn't seem right that they were together. Maybe that was because I was jealous. But, seriously, some times it just didn't fit. Sure he seemed happy and she did too, but that could just be a mask coving some pain that they're trying to hide. Maybe they weren't meant to be together. Maybe I should go and tell Hinata that Naruto doesn't really love her. The more I thought about it, the more I felt terrible about it. How could I think such things? I was both of there friends and I was happy for them. Well I should be.
Kiba returned to the table with the two drinks in hand then sat down beside me and gave me my drink.
" thanks Kiba" I smiled at him as I took a sip of my drink to make sure nothing was in it. Its not that I didn't trust Kiba , its just , well, I just was making sure. And thankfully , it was only coke.
" no problem.. But , why don't you ever drink? You agents it ..?" Kiba asked taking a sip of his drink , which, I wasn't to sure what it was, but it was alcoholic.
" oh, I have noting agents it, its just. I don't know what I'm like when I drink, and I don't want to make a fool of my self in a public place, if you know what I mean." 'liar.' I thought to my self
" Yeah, but how will you ever find out if you don't?"
you see , I already knew how I was like when I was drunk, I was either, if guys were around , very, hum… what's the word,… Horny, or if I was with my girlfriends I was really mean. I had gotten drunk once with Ino and Kim, I got so mad at Ino for some thing then walked out of her house and to the park and I saw some guys and when Ino finally got me, it was a miracle that I hadn't had any thing happen to me. Since then, if I drank, it was in the privacy of my own home.
"I'll drink one day with Ino or someone maybe, I don't really care about drinking that much."
" oh .. that's good , I guess."
" Yeah . "
" well." Kiba finished off his drink and looked at me " I'm going to get another one of these, then I might walk around, you don't mined being by your self do you ?"
" Naw, I'm fine" I smiled at him as he got up and walked back to the counter and goe another drink.
I looked around the room again and felt a pain at my heart when I saw Naruto with Hinata on his lap, sitting in a corner making out like there was no tomorrow. I wanted to look away but yet I couldn't take my eyes off of them. And my mind was playing tricks on me. All I could see was , instead of Hinata, me sitting on his lap kissing him, his hands on me in ways they hadn't been before. my hands being able to touch him where I would dare not to, and , The closeness. But then I realised, my head was just getting carried away again. I don't even think that she knew how lucky she was to have him. But , I wouldn't know what went on in her head. I finally looked away and looked around the room and saw Kiba sitting at the bar doing the exact same thing I was doing only seconds ago. Staring. But he, well he looked worse then I did. He looked like he'd just been stabbed in the heart. I knew he'd kill to be where Naruto was. Every one knew he liked Hinata. But, it was to late when she found out, just the same as it was for me when I told Naruto. But , for some reason, he took the heart break better , but , he didn't take the process very well like I have. I actually saw him crying one day, I think it was the first time he saw them kiss or some thing. I felt so bad. But I couldn't change any thing.
I saw him look away form them, then down another drink and order another one. I had no idea how much he was going to drink , or, how much he already did. But , I guess that was his way of trying to forget. His, I guess, was better then my way, but, my was is something I didn't let any one see. Plus, I don't think any one would have noticed. But, hey, that doesn't mater now.
The night when on. I stayed at the table and talked to any one who came and sat down and talked to me. At one point in the night though. This guy that wasn't part of the party came over to me, and he was drunk. He started hitting on me, but I just pushed it aside. He seemed like a nice guy. Well, until her came closers to me and started touching me. I guess Naruto must have see this and came over and brought me over to his table before I could punch the guy out. Buy 11: 30 I was getting bored and decided to take me leave. I said bye to everyone and walked home. When I got home, I walked in, took off my shoes , then walked into the kitchen and started to make a cup of tea. After my tea was done I went into my living room and turned on my computer then opened up my music and let it play as I sat down on my couch and drank my tea. After I finished my tea, I put the cup on the table and lied down on the couch and rolled up the sleeve on my left arm and looked at it. There were so many scares and no one ever seemed to notice. But that was fine with me, because I knew , if they did, no good would come from it. I stopped looking at my arm and curled up into my couch and closed my eyes.
I didn't even realise I fell asleep until, well, until I woke up to a knock on my door. I looked at the clock on my VCR and it said 2:30 am.
' who the fuck would be knocking on my door this late at night … ' I thought .
The knock came again but harder, so I slowly got up and answered the door only to be pushes back into my house and pined agents the wall with two hungry lips crashing agents mine.
ok, well, thats the 3rd chapy, heheh its a clify yes but, that will keep you on the edge of your seats untill the next chapter up. heheheheh well love you all and please review!
