Help Me Find My Wings
By,
Rune Wolfe
Disclaimer: I own none of Kyou Kara Maou
Note: I'm sorry this chapter took so long, even though its so short. Thank you for your reviews, only one or two more chapters left in this story so thank you for reading, I how you've enjoyed it.
Chapter 4: Fluttering Heartbeat
Yuuri's heart seemed to jump into his throat. "Wh-what?"
Wolfram avoided his eyes, "you've been distant from me lately, when you talk, when we're walking….even in bed it feels like you're not there." His voice was soft, trying unsuccessfully to hide the hurt that had been gathering inside.
So Wolfram had noticed. Yuuri watched him apologetically. "Wolf…"
"Yuuri, do you not love me anymore?"
His husband immediately darted to his side, taking his hands and kissing the fervently. "No! Why would you think that? We have this baby, and we got married…," he searched desperately for more ways to convince him of his devotion.
"That doesn't mean that this is what your heart wants."
"That's not it, Wolf… it's not, I swear. It's just that, being here again…its bringing back bad memories." He paused to look around the room, "I know it sounds silly, what problems could I have i-," Wolfram silenced him.
"Its not silly, hennachoko," he sighed, kissing his forehead. Yuuri blushed, before he would have gotten angry about being called a wimp, but it had grown into a name of affection. Wolfram bound his arms around Yuuri's neck, holding the king's head to his chest tenderly, "if you want to talk about it…,"
Yuuri nodded, it was time that he came clean. He was tired of running away, and as he felt the warm bulge of the life in his husband's belly, he knew this would be the right time. Standing slowly he moved to sit on the couch beside Wolfram, still clutching the man's hand in his. "It was really nothing-"
"Yuuri, if it causes you pain it's not nothing."
Oddly enough the boy smiled at this response, it was his automatic reaction to anything. Always try and look happy, he had trained himself, you don't want to be a burden to others. He realized that he was stalling, but Wolfram was still waiting patiently, knowing not to rush him.
"I was coming home from ba-baseball," he voice broke awkwardly. "It was dark…so I-I thought I would take a sh-," he closed his eyes frustrated, unable to speak. His sobs were beginning to break into every word he tried to say. A gentle hand stroked his back reassuringly. "I-I didn't want them to touch me… I didn't! I just wanted them to disappear…" He managed to choke out those last few words before burying his face into Wolfram's leg.
A pair of crystal tears landed on the ebony crown of his head. Yet Wolfram's tears were a silent mix of love and fury. No one had a right to touch Yuuri, no one. At times he was sure that he himself couldn't touch him, and he was carrying the boy's child. He was sure of one thing; he would get revenge for his beloved's pain.
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Conrad noticed that Wolfram was oddly distracted when he announced that Yuuri wasn't feeling well and was staying at the hotel to rest for the day. The announcement in itself was strange, he had seen his godson just the day before and he was fine. Now he wanted to know what was going on.
But before he could confront his younger brother about it, Ken got in the way, "is he going to be alright for Christmas tomorrow."
Wolfram smiled reassuringly, yet it seemed somewhat forced, "as long as this 'Christmas' everyone is talking about isn't to invigorating, the hennachoko should be fine."
Luckily for Conrad, Ken wasn't satisfied, "what exactly is wrong with him?"
"He's just tired, I told you."
"You're the one whose pregnant, not him-," he automatically covered his mouth, but it was too late. Ken had now officially made public the news of baby. Wolfram just glared his rage boundless as he longed to lunge at the big-mouthed sage.
"Wolfram, you're what!" This may have been the longest sentence Gwendal had uttered since they arrived on Earth. But it was obvious that his elder brothers were not pleased.
"I'm pregnant, okay? It took Ken saying it for you to notice. How can you be so blind? Did you think that I was just getting fat?" He began to ramble, attempting to take some of the guilt off of himself.
"Wolfram, calm down, we're not mad…," Conrad sighed, holding his hands up innocently, "but why didn't you tell us?"
The boy stayed silent. Yuuri had wanted to be there when they told his brothers and now he had to fend for himself. Why had they kept it a secret? Although it sounded idiotic, he supposed it was partly for the excitement. To finally have a secret all their own had been…fun. "We weren't ready to tell you."
"What were you afraid of?"
"I…I don't know…" It was now clear that there had never been anything to fear. He was the queen now, after all, it was only right for him to bear Yuuri a child. Hopefully a son to become the heir.
"You're going to
have to tell his parents," Conrad thought aloud, Wolfram just
nodded. Although it was a joyous occasion, in Earth tradition Yuuri
was still considered quite young for getting married, let alone
starting a family.
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Back in the hotel that night, the queen had had to explain to his king the events of the day. Yuuri wasn't angry that Wolfram told Conrad and Gwendal, but he was slightly disappointed that he hadn't been there. In all honesty he was still working to overcome his painful memories. Yet, as with any other situation, he kept up a brave face and tried to make his husband smile. "You really asked them if they thought you were fat?"
Wolfram blushed, "shut up, hennachoko, you weren't there!"
"No…, but now I wish that I had!" He laughed, and it sounded so wonderful. Then once he had calmed himself he spoke again, "I guess I should thank Ken. He saved me from having a cardiac arrest."
But Wolfram was distracted and didn't really respond. "Neh, Yuuri, do you think I'm fat?"
At this Yuuri burst into such a fit of hilarity that he fell off the bed, rolling with laughter. It was so typical of Wolfram to worry about his appearance. His companion was not amused and stood there pouting until Yuuri had regained himself; he sighed, at least Yuuri was able to laugh at all.
It was then that the king then became oddly serious, "Wolf, I think you're beautiful."
