Meredith's POV:

This is bad, really, really bad. They both are looking at me. Expecting me to choose. I don't know what to do. I stupidly look back and forth between them, as they take turns calling out my name. Finally, I take action; I turn on my heel and run.

I ran until I reached my car. I panicked. I couldn't do it. I couldn't pick between the two of them. I shouldn't have to. For God's sake Derek is married. It shouldn't be so hard for me to pick a man as wonderful as Finn, but something always stops me. Damn him. Why can't he just ever leave me alone?

As I pulled in my drive way the full weight of everything I had just done hit me. With the two of them staring at me like that it was hard to think, to remember, to relive. I felt sick. Derek made me his dirty mistress. Before I could claim some sort of innocence because I didn't know about Addison, but now…

He started it, he always starts it. He shouldn't look at me like that. He shouldn't do this to me, he knows I love him. Is everything just a game to him? He shouldn't use my love for him as a way to get off. Is that why he just had sex with me? Maybe he does love me. But then why won't he leave Addison? I HATE HIM! Ughh, I need to throw up.

Finally, I drag myself out of the bathroom and into my bedroom. I force myself out of my dress and into some random t-shirt and sweatpants. I lay down on my bed. I just want to suffocate myself with my pillows. Why do I always self-destruct? Every time my life seems to be turning around; I hit that self-destruct button and everything blows up in my face. Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy. I quietly set my alarm and fall into what I know is going to be a restless sleep.

Derek's POV

I hear that damn vet of mine call her name. He wants to take her home. He wants to take my Meredith home. I can't let that happen. I need to see her, I need to talk to her, hell I just need to be around. And after what we did tonight…all I want to do it hold her.

"Meredith", I say.

She turns and looks at me. I can see the tears in her eyes. I can tell she would rather be anywhere but here. But I can't back down. Not after what just happened. She has to understand my feelings for her. She has to know how much I really want to be with her. How I can't stop thinking about her, how I…

Shit, she just took off. I don't bother looking at Finn as I take off after her calling her name. "Meredith…Meredith…Meredith", she doesn't even bother to turn around. I'm not even sure that she heard me. By the time I make it to the parking lot she is taking off in her jeep. I turn to my right and I see Finn standing next to me. I just look at him. He has to know that this isn't over. I will not just give up on the girl I love. Just as I'm about to walk away, I hear

"Aren't you married?"

Startled I turn around and see Finn looking at me with a twist of disgust and expectancy on his face. I start to say "Yes", but I am cut off.

"Before you try to talk to her again, why don't you think about your wife in all this? What would she say if she knew her husband was chasing after Meredith Grey again? Why don't you leave her alone? You have hurt her enough." With that Finn left.

How dare he say those things to me. He doesn't know anything about me. I love Meredith. What else does he want from me? "Divorce papers" a little voice in my head answered.

Finn's POV

Meredith looked exhausted. I call out to her and offer to give her a ride home. I love this girl. I am so excited that she is with me. She makes me happy; she even has me making plans again. And the best part is she didn't even freak out when I told her about them. Meredith starts to walk towards me, but then stops dead in her tracks, when Derek Sheppard calls her name.

What the hell? I could tell there was something going on between those two, but I never wanted to believe it until now. I look at her, looking at Derek and my voice catches in my throat. She is in love with him. I can tell by the look in her eyes. She loves him. I don't know what else to do so I call out to her again. She looks at me. She looks like a deer caught in headlights. She's going to run.

I watched Meredith take off and then Derek after her. I started running too. I couldn't let her possibly leave with him.

When Derek and I reached the parking lot Meredith was pulling out. I had to say something to him. I couldn't let Derek get away without knowing how much he hurt her. So I said the first thing that came to my mind, "Aren't you married?"

He turned around and looked shocked, like he couldn't believe that I had the balls to confront him. Just as he was about to answer I cut him off. "Before you try to talk to her again, why don't you think about your wife in all this? What would she say if she knew her husband was chasing after Meredith Grey again? Why don't you leave her alone? You have hurt her enough." After that I turned around and left. I didn't even look back. I could only think of Meredith. She loved him. She loved Derek. Derek, who was married. She loved him and not me. I just couldn't digest this information. I will not give her up without a fight. I will fight for you Meredith Grey.