Chapter 4

Meredith's POV:

'Mere, I will always be there for you. Love, Finn.' He sent me flowers. No one has ever sent me flowers. How sweet of him. A dozen roses, all for me. I felt a smile coming on, an actual, real smile. 'Mere, I will always be there for you. Love, Finn.' What a sweet message. Wait, he said love. LOVE, Finn, as in he loves me. Finn doesn't love me does he? We've only been dating for a few weeks right? He couldn't possibly be in love.

Derek and I had only been dating for two months though, and it's pretty obvious I fell head over heels for him. Damn it, why does everything always come back to Derek? How come I relate everything I ever do, to some moment I spent with Derek? Even when I don't want to. Why can't I just move on?

Ok, Mere, focus. Focus on the good. Finn, who is nice, loving, caring, NOT married guy sent me flowers. Beautiful roses, in fact. How where should I put these flowers?

I started to head towards the interns' locker room. I figured somewhere in there would be better then leaving the flowers lying around the hospital. Although, I didn't mind if people saw me with my beautiful roses.

"Nice flowers, Dr. Grey."

I spun around and came face to face with Dr. Shepard. MY Dr. Shepard. Crap, I have to stop thinking like that. He's obviously not mine, I thought, as I looked at his wedding band. "Thank you, Dr. Shepard." With that I turned around and opened the door to the locker room. Quickly I set the flowers down and slumped down on the bench. My heart was racing. I really hope I looked more composed them I feel.

Derek's POV:

I wonder who those flowers are for. Whoever it is, they sure are lucky. I finally made it back to my office. I had to go over some paper work for the operation I had scheduled for this afternoon. Damn, I left the patients charts at the nurses' station.

I walked out of my office and see Meredith Grey carrying the flowers that had been sitting at the nurses' station. She looked happy. They must have been from Finn. How dare he make her happy. That was my job. I should be the one making her smile. I should be the one making her laugh…no, you are the one who makes her cry, my conscious responded.

"Nice flowers, Dr. Grey." She looked up in shock. She didn't know that I was standing there. She looked at me, then at the flowers, and then back at me.

"Thank you, Dr. Shepard." She then took off into the interns' locker room.

Dr. Shepard. I hated it when she called me that. I swear sometimes her calling me Dr. Shepard hurt more then the pain I felt when Addison cheated. Speaking of Addison, the red head was currently sauntering down the hallway. I thought about ducking into a room but…

"Derek."

Damn it, I was too late. "Addison", I replied curtly. I felt bad, she looked hurt.

"Are you OK?"

"Yes." No I'm not, my mind screamed. I had sex with Meredith, who I'm still in love with. Plus the vet that she's dating is trying to take her from me. But the biggest problem is that I care at all about Meredith or the vet, because I'm still married to you. I gave Addison a quick smile and walked away.

Finn's POV:

It was now after 10AM. I know that Meredith had to have seen the flowers. Maybe no news was good news. Maybe she has had a really busy morning. That was possible. Or maybe she is making out with Derek Shepard in an on call room.

Ok, I'm being ridiculous. I know that Meredith likes me. I just have to remind her why she started dating me in the first place. I know that the flowers were a good idea. What woman wouldn't want to be surprised at work with a bouquet of flowers? I know that I had to scare a couple of point there, so I should stop worrying about it.

I wonder how Meredith ended up with Derek. Derek is married. I can't see her ever intentionally dating a married man. But there is obviously history between those tow. It is so evident in the pain and longing in both their eyes.

Stop, I have to stop. I can't think about the look Meredith was giving Derek, or how she's never looked at me like that. She feels something for me right? She would keep seeing me if she didn't.

"Beep, Beep, Beep."

My cell is beeping. I flip open the phone. I have a new voice mail. I guess I forgot to take the phone off silent. I quickly punch toe buttons to get to the voice mail center.

"You have one new message from: Meredith Grey."