Chapter 5
Meredith's POV:
I needed to calm down. Breathe in. Breathe out. I can't believe that seeing Derek is causing such a reaction. Breathe in. Breathe out. I am being ridiculous. We barely even had a conversation. Maybe it's just because he surprised me. I wasn't expecting him to see me. I was prepared. Right, I wasn't prepared. Breathe in. Breathe out.
I was finally feeling calmer about five minutes later. I should really call Finn, and thank him. He deserves to know how much the flowers meant to me. And he should know how beautiful they are. I wonder if Derek thought they were beautiful. I wonder if he was jealous. He didn't look that jealous. Maybe he really doesn't love me; maybe it was really just all about the sex. Maybe…
Damn it. This isn't about Derek. Finn, focus on Finn.
I picked up my cell phone and quickly dialed his number. One ring…two rings…three rings…four rings. Crap I was going to get his voicemail.
"Hi this is Finn. Leave a message."
Crap, too fast, what do I say? "Ummm, hi Finn, this is Meredith. I just, ahhh, just wanted to thank you for the flowers. They are, ummm, beautiful. I appreciate it more then you know. Umm, call me, wait no, I'll call you later. Ahhhh, thanks again."
Wow, great message Mere. 'Hi, umm, this is Meredith…' Could I stumble through the message any worse? He's going to be able to tell how forced that was. He's going to know that something is up. Like he already doesn't.
Bzzzzz. Ahhh, what the hell? My pager was going off. I looked down at it. Derek was paging me. Great. Now I officially had to start my day of working with him. I quickly put my cell away and got up. I left the intern's locker room and headed for the room Derek was waiting for me in.
"Thank's for joining us Dr. Grey."
Ouch. There was definitely some venom in that statement. I guess someone wasn't too happy that they had to page me. "Sorry."
Derek just glared at me.
"I'm really, really sorry."
The iciness in his eyes slowly melted away, and he smiled. "It's OK, Dr. Grey. Now will you please present."
I rambled on through the face of this case. I knew them all by heart and Derek didn't ask me any questions. When I was done, he simply gave me one of his McDreamy smiles and began to talk to patient about treatment options.
He was being so weird. Mad at me one second and then being all McDreamy the next.
Derek's POV:
I made it to my patient's room without any further interruptions. I walked in and looked around. Where's Meredith? She should already be here. She is supposed to be there before I get there. She should be checking the patient's vitals. Make sure she knows all pertinent information. But she's not here yet.
I looked at my watch. 10:27. I began to ask my patient all the normal questions about their health that the intern would normally ask. Where was Mere? I thought about seeing her with the flowers and the dreamy look in her eyes. And how she looked happy. I bet she was still in the locker room. Thinking about those flowers, and how gorgeous they were. And how Finn, was just SO sweet for sending them to her. She was probably thinking about how I never sent her flowers. How the only thing I ever gave her was heart ache.
Or even worse, maybe she was talking to Finn. Maybe she called him, and they were having a conversation about how they should be together. And how much better of a match he was for her. I could feel my anger growing. I was mad at Meredith, Finn, and myself, for being such a paranoid idiot.
Olivia walked in. I looked at her and snarled, "Page Meredith Grey." Olivia just looked at me and nodded. I think I scared her. It's always a good idea to frighten the nurses, especially since when one hates you they all attack.
10:39. Where the hell the Meredith? Finally, Dr. Grey slides into the room. "Thank's for joining us Dr. Grey."
I see her flinch and mumble sorry. I say nothing.
"I'm really, really sorry."
She looks at me. Her eyes are all big and full of tears. I immediately feel bad. I shouldn't take my crazy anger out on her. It's not her fault she with Finn and not me. It's mine. I have to let her know I'm not angry. I have to show her how much I still care for her.
"It's OK, Dr. Grey. Now will you please present."
She goes through her little speech flawlessly. I can tell she's not listening to herself, but it doesn't matter. I was enthralled. Watching her lips move, listening to the way she pronounced the words. She was really quite perfect. When she finished I didn't know what else to do, so I smiled at her. Then I began to discuss treatment with the patient. I kept looking at her while talking to the patient. She kept giving me this weird look.
Finn's POV:
Meredith called! Finally! I went to punch in the button to send me to the message and hit completely the wrong number, which kicked me out of my voicemail. Damn it, now I have to start all over. I'm already dying with anticipation. This time is pushed in the numbers slowly and deliberately.
"You have one new message from: Meredith Grey."
"Ummm, hi Finn, this is Meredith. I just, ahhh, just wanted to thank you for the flowers. They are, ummm, beautiful. I appreciate it more then you know. Umm, call me, wait no, I'll call you later. Ahhhh, thanks again."
She liked the flowers. I knew she would. Everyone loves flowers. Especially roses. I definitely scored a point there. Mere liked my flowers. I should call her back.
Wait, she said she would call me later. I guess I can wait till later then. I wonder why she doesn't want me to call. She was clearly going to tell me to call her and then changed her mind. I wonder why? I think I am reading way too much into this situation.
I decided to listen to Meredith's message again.
Wow, she sounds really uncomfortable. It seems like she really doesn't know what to say. She also sounds really formal. She's like, 'this is Meredith', instead of 'it's Mere.' She sounds like she's thanking her grandparents for something, not her boyfriend.
Why would she be uncomfortable? She should know she can say anything around me. Well almost anything. I don't really want to hear her say; "I'm in love with Derek and leaving you". Yeah, I really don't want to ever hear her say that. I just have to wonder why her message was so weird.
