Disclaimer: I do not own the Power Rangers or anything affiliated with the subject. I do, however, own the character of Alex Meyers.

Jason's POV

I continued to walk a long way down the lakeside edge of the park, hoping to clear my cluttered mind of everything that was going on around me. After a long time, I sat down at the waters edge and placed my face in my hands. How could I let this happen? How did I get myself into this? How could I do what I needed to do with Trini leaving? How could I continue to be with someone who hated everything that I loved?

Ever since I met Emily, I knew that I would eventually have to choose between her and Trini, as Emily does not want me to even look at other girls, much less talk to them. I just never thought that Trini would come back so unexpectedly and I didn't think that Emily would act like this so soon. I thought she would at least give my friend a chance to just act as a friend, but a few hugs and that was thrown out the window.

I hadn't even gotten a clue about Trini's trip out here in our phones calls, she must have been able to hide everything that was going on much better than I thought she would. I thought that I would know when she was getting close to her breaking point, but I missed it by a long shot. I don't know how I let my knowledge of my best friend slip away so quickly since I left. I didn't think that I would do this to her. I didn't think that I could stand myself if I did and I can't, but can she forgive me for something that she doesn't see as a problem?

I didn't know what else I could do, as sitting there on my ass was not helping me with anything. It actually made it much more confusing and that was the last thing that I needed right now. Nothing that came to mind seemed to be a helpful notion, not at first anyway.

Then I managed to think of a thing that Trini taught me to do when I was stressed in order to clear my mind. I needed to sit down and make a list of everything that was going on with the two of them, anything that came to mind, until I knew what I wanted to do about the situation. With this idea in mind, I headed to Tommy's house, which happened to be empty and I was glad about that fact. I didn't need to worry about him or anyone else bothering me while I tried to figure out how my life had turned downhill so quickly.

Emily

Pretty

A girl I met when I came back from Geneva and was lonely

Nice

Sweet

Jealous of every one who comes near me, even my friends

I have to keep secrets from her

She's becoming suspicious of Trini and she seems to hate her

My girlfriend

I like her, but I don't love her. I don't know if I ever will see her that way.

Does she miss me when I'm gone?

I don't miss her when she leaves. I actually find myself hoping she'll stay away.

Trini

Beautiful

My best friend

Someone I can talk to and not worry about the way that they see me. She doesn't judge.

Nice

Sweet

Listens to me

I love the way she hugs me, I feel like I'm safe. I feel like I'm home.

I can tell her anything and she doesn't question me about why I hold certain things back from her. She knows that I will tell her if it is important enough and she's not afraid to ask if it bothers her too much.

She missed me

I missed her

I love her, I didn't realize it until after I left, but I love her and I don't think it is just as a friend anymore.

Does she love me?

I'm not myself without her around

She fits into my arms, better than anyone else I know.

Why didn't I listen to myself when I said that I'd lose her if I left Geneva without telling her the truth?

I haven't lost her, I still have a chance to make things right.

I looked back on my very short list several hours later, knowing that it had helped me clear my head and get a nap I desperately needed. I might have slept well the night before, but my energy had been drained by trying to not yell at Emily when she insulted Trini.

But my list also led me to the conclusion that action was the only thing that would help the problem I was facing about whether or not to choose between Trini and Emily. I don't like what I am going to do to one of them, but I can't continue to do this to myself and to both of them. They deserve to be able to live, without wondering how I feel.

Trini's POV

I continued to stalk off towards the Juice Bar, needing a place to relax and hoping Ernie would be willing to listen to me for a little while. My luck did not seem to be in my favor, as I walked up and there was a sign on the door that stated he was out. I could not believe that, but I knew Kim would be home soon. I knew that I needed to be alone in order to even attempt to figure anything out. I couldn't talk to anyone then.

I, also, needed to find a piece of paper and a pen as soon as I could. Damn my conscience and damn my sense of being nice to all people. I had to get Jason off my mind or away from Emily, as I knew that I couldn't continue to live my own life like this and I didn't know how much longer I could ask Jason to do the same.

When I got to Kim's, I found a piece of paper and I then began writing down everything that popped into my mind even if it made no sense or had no relevance to what was going on around me right now. I knew that I was better off getting it out than to let it roam around in my brain, unchecked and unrecognized.

The look on his face when he first saw me, I can't believe he would look at me like that when he is dating someone.

He was so mad at her that he whispered.

He rarely gets that mad at anyone, unless they step on his toes about a serious matter. What did she say to make him act like that? He doesn't usually get that offensive about me, even though she did call me a bitch.

Am I crazy for asking him to not break up with her when it is so obvious he wants to do that?

I love him; I know that is what I feel for him now.

Am I misreading all of the signals he is sending? Does he really want to be only friends?

He didn't have to be nice to me yesterday, but he helped me get to sleep. After my being a bitch to him when he came back over. He still remembers those nightmares I had before he left.

Emily's a nice person, I think.

She doesn't like me though and I can tell Jason doesn't like that.

I don't want Jason to hurt her and then find out that we are not right for each other.

Damn, I'm confused. What am I supposed to do?

I wish Jason would stop playing around, neither of us have the time for it. He could die out there and he needs to realize that. Or maybe I need to admit that to myself and say the things that I have been pushing out of my mind.

Was my trip out here useless?

Will I ever sleep well without him being around again?

I do not understand how Zack can be so right about how this was going to be. He hasn't been around Jason at all since he left.

I'm calling Zack.

"Trini, do you know what time it is here? And are you insane?" Zack asked, as he grabbed the phone and held it to his ear.

There was only one person that would call him at this time and he was too tired to extend pleasantries. He just hoped that he would be able to think of some advice at this time of the morning. He was not known for being the best thinker, but he knew he had to come up with something decent.

"Zack, Jason's girlfriend yelled at me and accused me of things that I wouldn't even think of doing to or with Jason while he's with someone else. Zack, I just don't know what to do. You are the one that is supposed to help me with these things," Trini said, as he could her the panic in her voice. He knew that she had been making a damn list and he somehow got on it. Why did she always do this when it came to Jason?

"Trini, talk to Jason. Get off your ass and talk to him and don't call me again until you have done that. He's the one that needs to hear all of this, not me," Zack said and then hung up the phone. This was not a fun situation to be in the middle of and he desperately needed some sleep right now.

"Thanks," Trini muttered as she hung up her end of the phone, but she continued to just sit there on the bed. After a few minutes, she rose to her feet and walked out of the house. She had no clue where she was going, but she knew that she had to do something about the situation that she was in, even if it killed her.

AN: I should have the next chapter out in a couple of days. So the more that you review, the faster that I will get the chapter out to you. I hope that you have enjoyed it!